Archive for December, 2004

the good the bad and the shity

Friday, December 31st, 2004

I have thought long and hard about my new years post and now I find myself a little bit drunk and it is a little bit too late for me to rave on about what I was thinking about.
I Wish my best to you all. To you I wish love, joy, health, harmony and prosperity.
I will be posting what else I think soon.

Merry Xmas

Friday, December 24th, 2004

I wish each and everyone of you, the lurkers also – a wonderful, happy, safe and loving Xmas.
My positive thoughts and love
Paul

I dont know what to say

Tuesday, December 21st, 2004

partly because it sounds like a broken record and partly because there is too much and I dont know where to start.
the beginning I have already explored. the end you all know where that is. It is the middle that is causing a heck of a lot of difficulty.
the middle, the worm hole, the whirlstrom
the complete chaos of what is and isnt
the discompletion of journeys began
and the finalising of those that never started
dreams not broken nor mended nor realised
a junk yard for desire
a grave stone marking that which is not
but breathing all the same
marking time whilst sketching the same picture
over and over
and again
just breathing all the same
in spite of it all
one more broken step
into the abyss of the unknown

Not-so-secret message to a fan:

Wednesday, December 15th, 2004

Not-so-secret message to a fan:
Marina! My email isn’t getting through. Please send me an alternate address?
Cat

In the Wars

Sunday, December 12th, 2004

This is a bit old but I thought I would talk about it. 5 weeks ago I strained my right rec femme (top of thigh) it is the ligament that goes from the thigh and connects up into your hip and is responsible for lifting your leg up. Any way it really hurt like I must have tonr the mucles and the ligaments etc I had a treatment on it and then sat on the couch for three days with my leg up and ice on. The good thing is that it got better in a miraculous kind of way considering how severe it was. The bad news was that for what ever reason I ended up pinching a nerve in my back that ran all the way through my left shoulder and down into my little finger. Geez talk about cramping pain! For three weeks I lived on anti inflmatories and pain killers and not a lot of sleep. I am off all that now but am still in some discomfort. I had some Xrays taken last Thursday which showed what my Osteo and Physio suspected. My c5, c6 and c7 are showing degeneration and some early arthritic development! Bummer! I guess this is the price you pay for being such a magnificant dancer (even if I do say so myself 🙂 Anyway my career and athleticism is cathing up with me. I always thought it might but hoped it wouldnt. Andrea has the same sorts of problems of wear and tear on her neck and her knee and we know plenty of ex dancers that have had their hips replaced.
So I will have to undertake further treatment as well as some retraining in my posture so as to maintain my spinal health and not let it get any worse.
Havent been to the gym for five weeks and have been developing a little tire around my middle!! Oh well grow old gracefully and be happy!!!
When I grow old I want to be like Millie and Ellie!!! Actually I will be Ellie and Andrea can be Millie! Not that you guys are old!!! You are just wiser than me!
Any way that is one of the things going on for me at the moment.

Work

Thursday, December 9th, 2004

god fucking dammit! Stop screwing with me you two faced sons of bitches. Assholes and butt kisses with no respect and no idea about integrity – their catch cry is ME Me Me!!!
I have had enough of that attitude.
Nice guys finish last? Well you can get fucked because to finish first , first you must finish and I can promise you I WILL finish and I care not where you come, but sure as hell it will be behind me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
good, i feel better now 🙂

17 years

Monday, December 6th, 2004

Yep, Married 17 years today! The mind boggles, the heart bursts and all is well in our world.
Still growing, still loving, still pushing, still laughing, there are some things we do too much of and some things we dont do enough of!! But it is about balance, growth, love and enjoying each other and what we have created together.
I am lucky and blessed and thankful!
I love my wife and my life with her and all we have created together. I look forward to what challenges lie ahead and what celebrations we may have together and as a family in the future. The path is unkown but the journey delectable.
I just look forward to life with Andrea!

BMW 1 Series: Revenge of

Thursday, December 2nd, 2004

BMW 1 Series: Revenge of the Celebrity Challenge Racers

  • Best of the Best Celebrity Challengers return for more BMW track action.
  • 28 drivers, 28 BMW 1 Series cars chase glory on race weekend.
  • James Tomkins to defend 2004 victory, Kieren Perkins, Paul Mercurio, Jo Bailey confirmed to drive.

BMW will celebrate the 10th running of the FORMULA 1 Foster