as the autumn leaf released from the tree
slowly falls towards the inevitable
so to do i

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  1. MaryS says:

    Why do I always seem to know when you’ve come back…
    Another entry showing your wisdom. It is so true. Thanks Paul. I hope you are doing well. We miss you when you’re gone and love it when you come back…

  2. liz says:

    Thanks for the comment: I take it to mean you are about to go into a rest period so you will be renewed for the next season–as you have been everywhere in the continent and have done so much. You have so much energy and so intense with all you do; best wishes!

  3. liz says:

    Or what I said may be totally off–You can be saying something totally different like you are getting to a stage where you see loss but are freer and not attached to the daily stuff. I guess that is what poets like you do–you make us stop and think. Thanks again.

  4. Sarah says:

    Nice to hear from you again Paul. πŸ™‚
    Liz, I can’t believe you picked up on the 4-eared cat faster than I did. LOL I was looking at the pic the other day and realized, “Hey! Mina has 4 ears!” Then I realized the other 2 ears belong to Nellie, her littermate. πŸ˜‰ Not sure why you couldn’t see the link again… it was there when I read the comments. Anyway:
    Mary, Fluffy is part Maine Coon so he is supposed to be big. I’m just happy he was the runt of his litter… I’d hate to see how big he’d be otherwise.
    Kelly, good luck with the other p/t job. I hope you’re feeling better.
    For those following my posts on Facebook you have an idea of what the past few days has been like. Friday I went to the endodontist for a root canal on one of my molars… but due to a complication (insanely bad infection) we had to postpone it to tomorrow. I was in a great deal of pain (in my jaw actually and not the tooth) Friday and Saturday, but am feeling more myself now. I’m just hoping we can get this done tomorrow.

  5. Kelly Haggard says:

    Paul, this is all we can do,,, fall and fall and see were we land. I do not know where I will be landing career wise, as soon as I find another full time job I will be leaving the full time job I have now as it is not probable that I will be hired full time. Not because my performance doesnt deserve or warent it but sometimes no matter how hard we try there are evil forces trying to hold us down. That just means that is not were we were intendend to be. I really have to feel that way. It is how I will get through. But no matter what the obsticale…. I am greatful to only be working 1 job. WAHOOOOOO!!!!!
    Sarah, how do I get on your facebook?
    Love to all,

  6. Paul says:

    Kelly that doesnt make sense! You are looking for a full time job so as to leave your full time job!! If you already have a full time job why look for another one? I guess if you are unhappy at your current job, or want another job that pays better then of course I get that. The way you wrote it sounded funny. Good luck with it!
    Thank you Liz – I love the way you wrote one version of the idea and then wrote another. The second is closer to my idea but not really it.
    I guess it is how you percieve the ‘inevitable’ that is the key to the idea.
    love to all

  7. liz says:

    How we see the inevitable is key you say.
    You say inevitable so it can not be avoided, so there is acceptance there; what can’t be helped in our lives–all of us experience loss, loss of ideas about who we are, loss of people and relationships, loss of things, our energy, or with some people even their minds and memory. So what is the point of living if all will be gone anyway? I would leave the answer to those who have tried to find it like the spiritual seekers etc.
    So what happens to the leaf when it reaches the inevitable–it decays and disappears and joins the earth. But the leaf then makes the soil rich and then a new leaf will take its place next season. So even if the leaf looks like it is going away, your new leaf is already in the making. So I would think that you are going into this cycle of stopping and resting so you can create again.

  8. liz says:

    To Sarah, I hope your operation goes well; if you see the cat has 4 ears that is just the pain med.
    Kelly I hope you get the one job that you want, not the other one.
    MaryS you mojito garden must be in full bloom–spearmints and herbs; hope Boogie is doing well.
    As for me like in Paul’s poem I am seeing my life unraveling–I quit my job and am starting on my own. I am happy and terrified at the same time. I am not at all sure what will happen but at the same time am open to what’s to come. Strange place to be at like the leaf that is falling. The falling part is scary.

  9. Paul says:

    Liz you hit the nail on the head that time. The only thing is I dont want to stop and rest because that means I am not working and thereby not earning. I guess that is part of the inevitable also and the best way to deal with that is to embrace the gift that it brings – rest, relax, recharge, make postive and prosperous use of the time, smell the flowers and watch the sunset.
    Thanks for putting the positive spin on it – I didnt want to – but now that I have seen it it is the only version and that is becuase it is the only truth.

  10. liz says:

    With the work that you do where you are on camera or dancing or teaching, there is always a performance that we enjoy–so it must take a lot of yourself to deliver each performance…so the off time is really needed as you always come back with such intensity. (and the performance is not acting, like an effort to be something–you come across as very natural in MM). But even if you are not working now and with it not earning, what you did last season is still being enjoyed around the world–we saw Mercurio’s Menu being shown in Spain, the rest of Europe, Hongkong and the rest of Asia, and still in Australia–so even if you are not shooting, the world is still watching–too bad we can’t see MM here in the US. I hope you get royalties from all that showing as it is still your work.
    Also looking forward to your book as it is already in the library (Cat knows the link and I will repost it)
    Unlike most of us who do noncreative jobs like mine, it’s not bound to tire me out but rather bore me to death.

  11. Kelly Haggard says:

    The current job I have (office job) is temporary full time job through the end of September. It is not permanant. They led me to beleive that they were going to hire me full time so I felt good about quitting my second full time job (Wal mart). Now they say they probobly wont hire me full time after September. So pretty much after September I am jobless. I have not heard back on the part time job so who knows there. I just feel duped a little cause I risked it all for the hope of getting full time permanant at the office as my health benefits would be free for my family and save us $500.00 a month plus a good salery and kick butt retirement fund. That was what I was talking about.
    Sorry if I confused you. I mean I must look for permanant full time work so I have a job after the end of September. Or sooner if I find a super full time job now.
    If you all feel confused… think of how I feel. I left a hard back breaking but permanent full time job for something unsure and trusted the universe to guide me and I may have chosen wrong. I feel unsure about that.
    Maybe I would not have left Wal mart if they had not led me to think I could get full time permanantly at my office job. I just dont know.
    I just dont want to leave myself high and dry.
    Paul, I know you know how I feel. That is if you understand what I am trying to say. I know it is very confusing.

  12. MaryS says:

    Liz, your best post ever. It resonated with me to my core. You got it! What we do now, whether or not we feel it’s benefit, will eventually benefit “something”. If not us directly, than indirectly. We need to put the emphasis off or ourselves and on to the big picture. Oh my god, that was great, the way you put that together Liz! Acceptance is such the key to peace. I have trouble with it every day. Thank you so much for sharing that wonderful view point. Paul, don’t look at it as a “positive spin”. Open your heart, your mind and your spirit to all that you put in so that you can receive the benefits eventually. Even if it’s not in this life time, or in a monetary form. This is how I have felt all along for you. I just couldn’t quite get it across this well, because I am like you. I sometimes have to be knocked over the head. I love your tenacity and stubborn clarity, but sometimes we don’t see the forest for the trees. This thread is the best we’ve had in months. See what happens when you give input Paul? We need you for this reason, if not for all the rest of what you do. It’s part of your purpose. O.K. have I gone overboard? Excuse me, but this invigorated me so…
    Liz, as far as the spearmint, I did a little too good a job cleaning it out this spring. I think my neighbor behind me now has the bulk of it from what crept under the fence to their yard! I have only a few sprigs right now. Thank you for asking about Boogie. He’s trying to hang in there. His best days are behind him I fear. I smother him with love and attention and he knows that I love him so.

  13. Melody says:

    Glad to see you’re back, Paul. Always though-provking, even with 3 brief lines!
    Ever notice how we talk about the inevitable as though we already know what it is when we really don’t?

  14. Melody says:

    I need to clean out this keyboard or maybe get a new one–that’s thought-provoking up there–I’m hitting them but keys are skipping! πŸ˜‰

  15. Liz says:

    I did not want to sound like Polyanna putting a happy positive spin on what is happening; rather I am saying we often go through a loss to make room for what is to come. The space, the emptiness is what is needed to create again.
    And to be truthful these are not my own ideas but borrowed from Buddhist traditions and also Tolle’s writings so my thanks to them.

  16. Liz says:

    I did not want to sound like Polyanna putting a happy positive spin on what is happening; rather I am saying we often go through a loss to make room for what is to come. The space, the emptiness is what is needed to create again.
    And to be truthful these are not my own ideas but borrowed from Buddhist traditions and also Tolle’s writings so my thanks to them.

  17. Liz says:

    Kelly I was reading about what happened and I feel bad that you had to give up the fulltime job for the other one with better benefits but then they did not keep their word–so prob good to not be part of that company; is there any way you can be rehired at the other place?
    I also did something similar, I quit and am going bare with insurance etc but will do temp work for the meantime until I get started on my own.

  18. Melody says:

    Kelly and Liz–here’s hoping you both find dependable employment soon whether it’s on your own or with another company.
    Good weekend and weather everyone!

  19. Sarah says:

    Kelly, I was wondering why you were asking about my Facebook page as I had sent you a request previously and you accepted it… now I check and you’re no longer there. I haven’t removed any friends so I don’t know if it’s a Facebook glitch or perhaps you removed me in error. I’ll send you another request.
    Got back from NY about an hour ago. We ran into some heavy traffic in NJ and VA, but otherwise the drive was uneventful. We stopped about 25 minutes from my house for dinner and while we were in the restaurant it began pouring beyond belief. Now we’re safe in the house and my best friend is passed out in the chair. Fluffy is happily ensconced on the deck, and I’m just checking a few things before heading to bed.

  20. Kelly Haggard says:

    I am not sure, I must have removed you. Or my daughter did. I got u now. πŸ™‚

  21. Sarah says:

    Rule #1, never let your children have access to your online accounts. LOL
    I hope everyone is well in PC. We were busy yesterday and today just relaxed. Tomorrow we’ll be out and about shopping/running errands and Tuesday it’s up to Gettysburg to pick up little Mina. πŸ˜€

  22. maria horos says:

    Boa tarde a todos! Realmente as palavras do Paul fazem sentido, os problemas, as coisas boas sΓ£o inevitΓ‘veis! Da vida temos que esperar tudo e de tudo.
    Beijos a todos, amamos a todos.

  23. maria horos says:

    Good afternoon to all! Indeed the words of Paul make sense, the problems, good things are unavoidable! Of life we have to expect everything and anything.
    Love to all, love to all.

  24. Liz says:

    Maria, what you said was very true, even good things are inevitable. I was thinking only the loss is inevitable but it is true that you cannot stop the good things from happening either.
    Maria, o que voc

  25. Liz says:

    Maria I had Babel Fish translate Paul’s poem:
    como a folha do outono se liberou da

  26. Liz says:

    That may not work as I had it translated back and it does not sound at all as good as Paul’s original words:
    “As the leaf of the autumn was liberated of the tree falls slowly for the inevitable do so too much me”
    The language translation program is not very good.

  27. Evelyn says:

    Liz, as I tell my students, Babel fish is not good at translating … as you proved it yourself πŸ˜€ I do a similar exercise with them to show them how easy it is for me to know when they didn’t write something themselves and just ran it through such an online program when they are supposed to write their own composition in German, it does cut down on some plagiarism activity.
    The inevitable, thanks Maria for pointing out that the positive too is inevitable. Going to work on being open to the inevitability of the positive in my life πŸ˜€

  28. Melody says:

    Maria, Liz, Evelyn–so true that the inevitable can be positive–I know I will tend to think of the inevitable when results are not the most positive.
    Sarah, how’s little Mina adapting to her new home?
    Better weather here in Chicago–I was able to turn off the air and open the windows. Much more calming than the AC cranking away (I have wall units instead of central air).

  29. Paul says:

    BIG SMILE on my face for I have not really allowed the thought “good things are inevitable”
    What an absolutely wonderful revelation!!!!!
    That is a breath of fresh air whilst watching the sunrise over the ocean. I am going to write that on the fridge AND make a TeeShirt with that slogan!
    Maria also said “Of life we have to expect everything and anything” I might also add to that expect nothing and you will be pleasantly surprised, expect nothing and you will be free to accept everything.
    mouchos gracias

  30. maria horos says:

    Pcs Hello dear!
    I never expected the response from Paul. As he wrote, I was surprised, life surprises us.
    Liz-The translation remains unclear. When I read the translation for you, give good laughs, because it is funny, but I am trying to decipher, and usually intend.

  31. Liz says:

    Maria I apologize for all that I said in Portuguese (as translated by the online program translator) — when I changed it back to English it was so funny and did not make sense. I am sure you are still trying to decipher what I wrote. The name is good as it is called Babel fish. It prob would be ok for straighforward language but cannot capture meaning in poetry.
    Still what you said about the good that is inevitable is a revelation as Paul has said.
    Will keep in mind good things are inevitable.
    And I was thinking can you fight off the good things and prevent them? No try as you might they cannot be avoided.
    And being free to accept nothing so you are open to all that’s possible. Thanks for that Paul.

  32. Melody says:

    Paul hit it right on the head–expect nothing and you’ll be free to accept everything–
    So, indeed, the inevitable can definitely be positive–and freeing!
    (It’s always good coming here–good thoughts and people sharing and caring.)
    Sad note–anniversary of my father’s passing today. This one hit me early last week. I don’t know if it’s due to Aunt Helen’s passing in February (she was the last of my father’s generation) and realizing they’re all gone now–or just realizing how long it’s been!

  33. Evelyn says:

    “Expect nothing and you’ll be free to accept everything.”
    It sounds very convincing and it’s easy to accept the pleasant and positive things that come your way, but when the things that come your way are difficult and painful, it’s tough to accept them, prior expectations or not.
    Is it really possible to expect nothing and to be so free?
    A hug to you, Melody. I can relate to your feelings, it happens to me as well on the anniversary of my Dad’s passing, and on other days.

  34. Liz says:

    Melody remembering your loss both your dad and your aunt brings sadness. It also brings fond memories; same with my mom who passed away when she was 51. Hard to describe those feelings–I did come across the music from Astor Piazzollo where he plays “Adios Nonino” and it is actually a requiem for his grandfather who died and the music expresses what cannot be said. I will hunt for a recording and post the link. I would like to give you the music and I will look for a YouTube video.

  35. Liz says:

    Melody, here is the music. I am not usually fond of Argentinian music nor do I know it well but this one is very beautiful and sad at the same time
    Adios Nonino
    With staying still with no expectations but being present at the same time and open to the moment–I think that is hard to do also as Evelyn said as I often have worries from the past and feel anxious about what is to come.

  36. Liz says:

    The Tasmanians loved Paul and Mercurio’s Menu (this is from Tasmania newsboard)
    “More than 1.6 million Australians watched two Tasmanian episodes of Paul Mercurio’s Menu, aired nationally between March and May by the Seven Network. An episode on southern Tasmania was viewed by 870,000 people

  37. Liz says:

    The Tasmanians loved Paul and Mercurio’s Menu (this is from Tasmania newsboard)
    “More than 1.6 million Australians watched two Tasmanian episodes of Paul Mercurio’s Menu, aired nationally between March and May by the Seven Network. An episode on southern Tasmania was viewed by 870,000 people

  38. Sarah says:

    Sorry not to post for a few days. I don’t have the computer on as much as usual since Gloria arrived (with only the one computer here it’s difficult for us both to use it at the same time). We picked up Mina Tuesday. She wasn’t overly thrilled with the 3 hour drive but she handled it fairly well. Today was her vet visit and other than the fact that she didn’t like getting poked and prodded she did very well. I’ve updated my “signature” link with pictures from her first day here. She’s quite the little love-bug, and tends to sleep on you more than anything.
    Yesterday (July 1) was the one year anniversary of Dad’s death. I managed to hold together fairly well, but it’s still been rough.
    Melody, you have my thoughts right now. I know how you feel.

  39. Liz says:

    Cute Cat Sarah! Mina is so beautiful.
    Remembering your loss–I remember it was this time last year. How are you doing?
    Happy 4th!

  40. Clair (from the UK) says:

    Aww Mina’s adorable Sarah!

  41. Sarah says:

    Melody, Mina has adapted quite well. It’s Fluffy who isn’t very happy with the situation. πŸ˜‰
    Liz, I’m doing well. I’m very lucky that my best friend is here with me for the summer.
    Clair, she is quite adorable. Especially when she’s arching her back and swatting at her “big brother.” πŸ˜€

  42. Liz says:

    Sarah glad to know you’re doing well with your best friend and Mina and Fluffy. You have quite a bunch there.
    PCs this link is almost a complete MM episode, so have fun watching Mercurio

  43. Liz says:

    Sarah glad to know you’re doing well with your best friend and Mina and Fluffy. You have quite a bunch there.
    PCs this link is almost a complete MM episode, so have fun watching Mercurio

  44. Liz says:

    Sarah glad to know you’re doing well with your best friend and Mina and Fluffy. You have quite a bunch there.
    PCs this link is almost a complete MM episode, so have fun watching Mercurio

  45. Liz says:

    Test RSS

  46. liz says:

    Sorry for the 3 posts; thought would not go through so I tried many times.
    Can this blog be set up with an RSS feed Cat so PCs do not have to keep checking the blog for updates?
    Thanks, Cat.

  47. Liz says:

    As for the good being inevitable, I find more of the hurdles daily than the good. I find this discouraging but also remember my mentor who said when you have enemies flee if you have to but if you have to fight fight like a porcupine and have a strong defense.

  48. Sarah says:

    Sorry to be checking in less often than usual. I’m keeping busy with my friend here and not spending as much time on the computer.
    The kitties are possibly getting along a bit better, but it will still be some time before Fluffy really accepts Mina. He’s feeling a bit under the weather tonight so we’re doing our best to keep her from bothering him.
    Hope all in PC-land are well.

  49. Liz says:

    RE the post about fighting, I was not really fighting but thinking others were giving me a hard time; I ran this by a friend/coworker and she gave me a different viewpoint and there was no deliberate intention to give me a hard time by those involved–it is good to run things by others as I sometimes get lost in my own perspective and then get worked up for no reason. So I got my answer.
    As for Fluffy, Mina may be too energetic and playful for him as she is a kitten. But who can resist Mina? I am sure Fluffy will get to like her in a few days.

  50. Melody says:

    Hi Paul and PCs–
    Sorry I haven’t checked in lately–working on getting our concert ready for August–now a month away!
    Liz, thanks for mounting those links–I’m sure I missed the conference, but will sure check on the MM episode.
    Wishing all of you a good week! (Sarah–all the best with your new little one!)

  51. Sarah says:

    Liz, Fluffy is adapting to Mina slowly. As long as she doesn’t pounce on him with her claws bared then he seems ok with her.
    Has anyone heard from Grandma Mil? It seems to be a very long time since she last posted. I’m a bit concerned. πŸ™
    I’m rather pleased with myself tonight. I managed to set up a network using my wireless broadband modem (this is completely different from networking with either a cable or DSL connection). I still haven’t managed to get the printer to be recognized, but I’ll tackle that tomorrow. πŸ˜‰

  52. Liz says:

    Sarah I googled Grandma Mil from Coconut Creek and found the Wynmoor address; tried to call but was given the runaround as I did not have the direct extension and I also did not want to intrude but would really like to know how she is doing.
    So Grandma Mil, how are you doing? The site is not quite the same without you blogging. Liz.

  53. GRANDMA MIL says:

    Dear Liz and all…
    Here I am after a rather long absence; thank you for thinking of me.
    I had my eye cataracts removed in May (both eyes) and now, next week, I will have eyelid surgery on both eyes; better to see you my dear…
    I have installed Skype, the program that goes with
    the web cam where one can talk face to face on the computer monitor, and it’s free! If anyone wants to find me on Skype I am Mildred.Levine; I love to take self portraits and send them by email around the world…no wonder the world is in the shape it is…
    Tara and I have already spoken face to face; we make an appointment to chat so we can be dressed like the stars we are…no pajamas and hair in curlers…
    Liz, if you want to learn about Coconut Creek and me, just Google “Tara Morice, My Biggest Fan”.
    Shalom and love,
    Grandma Mil

  54. Melody says:

    Millie–welcome back and hope you’re doing much better!
    Sarah–tell Fluffy to hang in there. Kitty in training (so to speak . . . ) How’s your printer coming along?
    Our show will be here in a month! I recall how August seemed so far away!!! The dancers are coming along very well–very proud of them. We lost our singer–she has to be in Barcelona, so she helped arrange for another one, and she sings very well. But, when I first read the note that our original singer was leaving for Spain–eek! Flamenco needs live music–recorded just doesn’t happen!
    Warmer today in Chicago–no 90s yet, which is very odd for July, but I’m not using the air, which is sooooo much better (and cost effective).
    Chao, everyone!

  55. Paul says:

    Grandma Mil, I am glad to hear that you are well I trust Elle is taking good care of you. Good luck with your further surgery our thoughts are with you.

  56. Evelyn says:

    Great to see you post Grandma Millie, and I do owe you an email, want to respond to yours! I will find you on skpype too, have been meaning to, but these past few weeks have been tough for me and I need a lot of time for myself to work things out and through them and am doing a lot of releasing of anger type work and that is exhausting, also freeing, even though in some ways I feel quite empty right now, but it’s making room for more positivity and confidence and happiness. But all of this isn’t/hasn’t exactly put me in a very social mind or place. But I’m finding myself again under lots of layers of (not exactly sure what they are), and I am liking my true self that is surfacing. πŸ™‚
    I hope your surgeries go well. When is yours? I’m having some minor surgery at the end of the month. NOT looking forward to it at all, never had surgery other than dental work, and stitches … not looking forward to those. I hear they itch when they heal and you aren’t supposed to scratch. πŸ™
    Be well everyone and find the good that is part of your life and hold on to it and let it nourish your soul!

  57. Evelyn says:

    Oh and hello Paul, it’s good to see you post too! πŸ™‚ Hope you are doing well.

  58. Liz says:

    G. Mil so glad to hear from you!!!Wishing you a good recovery for next week’s surgery. I’d like to see you on Skype. You’re always the first to try new ways–Grandma Mil you are bold.
    Melody would like to see your concert show or even just the pictures. I remember in SB there was a live singer when Paul visited Tara’s house in the movie. I remember your pictures with you in flamenco costume in an actual performance.
    Paul you are such a great person and you pay special attention to the important stuff. I am just wowed by your personal get well wish to Grandma Mil. I’ll sign up to be your biggest fan anytime but I already am.
    Evelyn, I hope you continue your search under those layers and layers and find yourself surfacing. There are times when you just need to be in a quiet/angry less social mode. Just like Paul was talking about a dormant mode in his poem–the field has to lie fallow for the next planting.
    Sarah glad that you got rid of the cables bec I do not want you to trip on Mina and Fluffy and the cables.

  59. Melody says:

    Hi Evelyn–it’s good to do physical work that helps to release what you’re feeling. Some of you will recall when I was painting my condo two years ago–gets cathartic with the wall washing, furniture moving, so on. Be careful not to overdo!
    Liz, thanks for remembering the photos. The singer in SB only does a bit of salida (the ay-ay-ays prior to dance or a song) for Antonio Vargas to enter into the paso doble tocaneo (footwork). Gives a nice atmosphere with the Moorish tonality.
    Grandma Millie–wishing you the best and a quick healing.
    Wishing a good weekend to Paul (with a “hi” to our hero!) and our PCs! For myself, more rehearsing and sewing–maybe a break for a movie tomorrow evening.

  60. maria horos says:

    Hello pcs. I’m missing the Grand Mil, is she sick? I read some time ago, she had a surgery? I love when she tells of his stories with Tara.
    Health for all.

  61. THE GRAND MIL says:

    Dear Paul, thank you for your good wishes; Maria
    thank you for the new name and for asking for me, and to Melody, Evelyn, and Liz, I’m okay now, just waiting for next Friday when I have further surgery on my eyelids.
    It is not a cosmetic thing; my eye tests show that droopy upper eyelids are interfering with my sight, therefore the surgery.
    I am not a happy camper; Ellie is very supportive; we will have a woman in to put cold
    compresses over my eyes for 24 hours after surgery. I shall try to be brave; with new eyelids, and some new duds, I will be unrecognizable, thank goodness…new girl in town!
    Everyone, have a good weekend!
    Shalom and love,
    The not so Grand Mil

  62. MaryS says:

    Millie! I have been very concerned or curious or whatever you want to call it but have been so preoccupied with life that I didn’t find my way to call you to see how you were doing. I was missing you ALLOT though! You’re going to look like a new woman with the eyelid surgery. It may be a tad of a pain, but you should feel good within a few days, hopefully. You are a strong, go-getter and I am confident you will heal quickly. Just don’t get up and move too fast. Any time you have anything done above the neck, it can have strange affects on your balance, etc. Be careful and go slow for a few days!
    Why do you stay away so long young lady. Your absence is felt.
    Liz, I agree that Paul is so very attentive to his friends on his corner.
    Love to you all and have a great weekend.
    p.s. my family is now bracing for the worst days in the process of my sister’s illness. The cancer has spread to her entire body. She is still a fighter and I now know why they say “long battle with cancer”. It sucks so bad. We are dealing, bracing, accepting, praying and crying allot. Please keep my sister Rebecca in your thoughts and prayers. We would appreciate the positive energy coming her way. She’s ill but not letting it stop her yet.

  63. Liz says:

    MaryS will keep your sister and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

  64. О. says:

    Sorry for invading. I’m here for the first time, and… may I ask a question? Have you ever experienced when every word someone say reflects in your soul? You don’t know each other well, and nobody even thinks about love, you’re not even friends… I’m truely sorry, but it seems so important for me now!Can it be for real? I mean, are these true emotions? Or is it only my imagination? For some reasons, I have no one to ask, and it seemed to me that you can help me. I don’t want to make a mistake if I trust someone… I wanna believe, but… Sorry again for my invaiding. And sorry for my english – it’s not my native language…. Thanks in any case.

  65. Evelyn says:

    O. I’m trying to understand what you mean when you say ‘every words someone says reflects in your soul.’ not really sure what you mean, but you may not want to go into further detail.
    I think emotions are always true, a natural response to a situation coming from a deep place within you, perhaps your soul, but feelings can be imagined.
    Trust is a tough one, but ultimately, you will have to trust yourself in order to trust someone else and take that risk of being disappointed or the chance of being rewarded for your trust. That’s part of life’s experiences, learning and personal growing. there is never fool proof guarantee that your trust will be rewarded favorably. But there’s also no point in always living in fear either.
    Mary S. you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. How are you doing yourself? I know how tough this is. I spent the last few days with my father when he fought cancer 12 years ago. Don’t forget to take care of yourself!!! Hug!

  66. Liz says:

    Without much detail to go on, “when every word someone says reflects in your soul,” that is an experience of a tall order. Same as when a poet speaks his words or when you are moved by the beauty of music or of a dance, or if someone’s act of kindness moves you. Or cruel ugly things or the suffering of others can stir your feelings as well. So I am not sure this is just limited to a romantic relationship. Artists have that power to show what is true and beautiful. The pain and suffering of the everyday can also do that. Is that what you mean?

  67. Melody says:

    Grandma Mil–all the best with the surgery. You’ll pull through with flying colors and will be ready to get the next Follies coordinated and running!
    MaryS–my thoughts and prayers to your sister Rebecca and all your family. Sending positive energy to Rebecca and all of you!
    O–welcome to PC! I have had many things touch my soul, from dialogue in a movie, to poems, to Mass at church and Communion, and even our Paul and PCs here. Certain things connect more than others, not sure why and won’t even attempt to try to ration and explain. We have have certain moments that bridge our souls together, and it hits just at the right time.
    Providence?? πŸ™‚
    Happy mid-week to all!

  68. Liz says:

    For those looking for works by Paul there is a wealth of it in this site and I just forgot to look esp the Dance and Poetry sections and the articles are all put together by Cat. The more recent articles are spread out as links on each blog. So to those wanting to learn more about Paul (I have seen entries from around the world seeking more info), you are in the right spot. Thanks to Cat!
    To the Grand Mil, best wishes and a good recovery.

  69. Liz says:

    Classic Paul Mercurio from years ago:
    I am experiencing writer’s block, not that I am a writer, just that I have to write this long projection/plan and have not done that before and I am stuck so I watched all of the links on the PC site.

  70. Liz says:

    I looked at several years worth of July blogs. I noticed that the blog has changed so much–it seems that the site has evolved over the years; back then bloggers seemed to have a more real conversation with Paul and the other PCs. I see a trend where we are now overly cheerful and quiet down any subject that is not nice or that is not happy. This is just a guess as over time the conversations are less and less authentic as we have just been saying nice things and small talk…so a lot of the original spirit of the blog has dissipated over the years. This is just a self critical look at the blog as it is and I am very much part of it; you may think otherwise. So safely pleasant and cheerful versus real, at times unpleasant, but always respectful of others, it can be a choice.

  71. Liz says:

    Thoughts are just that, thoughts. Do not take them seriously.

  72. Liz says:

    Hello PCs, just wanted to share some news. I just learned that a friend passed away. I look up to him as a mentor–in many ways I would have wanted to do what he was doing. He was 76 and was doing high jumps and javelin in the state olympics 9 years ago. He taught me a lot of things like how to work, and how to fight and stay healthy–he was old but younger than any of us. This year, as he is to turn 86, he was not part of the olympics as he passed away that month. He had prostate cancer. As the years passed he had less and less competition in his age group as his peers have died. He was survived by his wife and children. What a remarkable life.

  73. Sarah says:

    Grandma Mil, it’s good to see you post here. Thanks for adding me on Facebook too. πŸ™‚ I’m sure the eyelid surgery will go well… and think how much better you’ll be able to see!
    O. – “every words someone says reflects in your soul.” In one word: Yes. Welcome to PC!
    Liz, I never had a wired network. I use only a laptop, so to have it wired to the printer at all times would be a bit against the mobility of the laptop. I’ve been taking the laptop into the room with the printer and hooking it up when I need to print. Sadly the print server I have just isn’t compatible with my printer. My options are to purchase a different one (that is $135) or just get the “new” version of my multi-function that is wireless (and only about $150). I just hate to discard a piece of equipment that still works fine.
    Melody, I’m sure your performance will be great. I remember when August seemed far away as well.
    Mary, your sister and your family are all in my thoughts. I’ve lost two family members to cancer so I know what you are experiencing. (((HUG)))
    Evelyn, I hope your surgery goes well. Don’t forget in your “digging” to remember that at times it’s good to connect with those who care about you as well.
    We’re keeping fairly busy this summer which is why I haven’t been around much. Today is a bit of a lazy Sunday though. We may cook out later – burgers and fresh veggies on the grill. The little pool I put up for my “niece” may get used today as well. πŸ˜‰

  74. GRANDMA MIL says:

    Hi, you youngsters, thanks for thinking of me.
    The eye surgery is over, and let me tell you, the 24 hours after were the worst. After the doc finished, a net was snapped around my head, and bandages were placed under the net, and I was totally blind for 24 hours. I needed the help of three people to get me out of the office and into
    the car; when we got home 2 people were there to guide me into my new recliner, where I stayed for
    24 hours.
    We hired a wonderful young woman to put on ice
    compresses every hour on the hour throughout the night. At 23 hours I couldn’t stand it anymore, and the bandages were removed…ta da! I felt like something out of a Bette Davis drama!
    I was not scared at what I saw. I look like a raccoon, but today, 2 days later, I like already what I see. I took before and after pictures, and
    almost wanted to post them on Face Book…now that
    would be ironic, no?
    I have made before and after shots with my webcam. Tomorrow (Monday) the doctor will take a look, and I think (I hope) that he will be pleased. Many weeks of ice, applying medicinal stuff is ahead, but now I have already gone grocery shopping with Ellie, wearing my sunglasses and no one paid attention.
    I did not have this done on a lark. Medicare paid
    for it, because my eyesight was compromised by
    drooping skin over my eyes.
    Now, if things go well, I will lose some weight,
    and with these new peepers, will look like Sophia
    Loren…(yeah, yeah, Granny, dream on.)
    Shalom and Love,
    Grandma Mil…………I’ll be “seeing” some of you on Facebook soon!

  75. Evelyn says:

    Grandma, I’m glad it went so well and I dare you to put the before AND after racoon eye pics on Face Book πŸ™‚
    And you can expect me to be kind of grumpy come Thursday evening, stupid benign cysts on my head will start to be removed then, not sure how many rounds it will take to get them all off.

  76. Liz says:

    G. Mil glad that it went well. I also would like to see the raccoon eyes to dreamy eyes transformation, just like Fran in Strictly Ballroom after she took off her glasses. The raccoon eyes I guess would be from the bruising post op (That movie was very good acting as Fran was exactly the same, she just acted like an ugly duckling and then after the glasses were off was transformed into a swan, also by her acting. The glasses did not have anything to do with it.)

  77. Melody says:

    Grandma Mil–glad to hear that your surgery went well and that you’ll have the “eyelids of a 16 year old” soon! πŸ˜‰ I could only imagine those first 24 hours! That would certainly drive me crazy, too!
    Liz, I feel that Fran always had her voice–the fact that she went up to Scott and asked about dancing with him–that’s one strong woman! I really enjoy Tara and Paul in SB–typing as I hear “rumba de burros” in my head.
    I’m finishing up my last student costume and will start working on my own. I’ve had this fabric almost a year and it took all these months to finally decide how I wanted the dress (will be a 2 piece, top and bottom) to look. Everytime I decided on a design, something else would catch my eye! Definitely holding on a wind and a prayer here!

  78. liz says:

    To Cat, congrats on the Ipod and your husband with Calypte. Congratulations!!! I did not know that we have a biotech industry right in Tigard, on my side of the river. Still doing the startup but slow. Liz
    (responding here as comments off on frytopia)