Paul's Corner

Wow, it's been a while! So much has been going on that I have too much to say, too many thoughts, too many dreams, too many ways the river may flow. I guess that makes me lucky if not scattered.

In the last couple of weeks I have sold my house and bought another one. I am moving to Melbourne from the country. It is a great city very artsy, very cultural, a great place for my family and me. My wife is from there and has some great friends and I also have some good mates there. It is all very exciting.

They say that buying and selling a house is equal to the stress of dealing with death or divorce. Mmmmmm.....i would agree it has been very stressful but thankfully it seems to have worked out near to perfectly. You wonder why you stressed in the first place? It reminds me of another line in the Desiderata which says....."whether you know it or not the universe is unfolding as it should". I kind of know that but I wish I could be with that feeling more often because stressing and worrying adds nothing positive. I have may own saying about stressing and worrying...... Worry is a wet blanket that dampens your enthusiasm for life.

My daughter Erin - 5.11 years lost her front tooth the other day. Such a wonderful joy over the loss. She pulled it out herself as she has done with all of the other lost teeth. It sparked in me a complete admiration for the innocence of childhood and perhaps a saddness that we as adults have chosen to turn away from that innocence. Why? Are we happier? I think not. I think we view innocence as being childlike. Innocence is about taking delight in ourselves something as adults we are taught and learn to shy away from. Gay abandon, delight, celebration of ourself - great ideas that we shun being embaresed or non deserving. Mmmmmm... a shame isnt it? I was so happy to see my daughter embrace her life with such gay abandonment and joy, I was thankful to be a part of it. Anyone reading this that feels like I am going on and need to get a life might like to consider the way they embrace life and with what out look. I have a life and am pretty pleased with the adventure.

My wife and I turned fourteen years married yesterday. WOW. It has been an absolutely wonderful experience. Not always happy or easy, neither of us are easy, but it has been a journey full of love. Sure we have fought and cried and argued but also we have nurtured, grown and embraced the change that our love brings. I am very thankful for being with Andrea and for having the beautiful children we do. Hey it is not always easy, I accept the challenge and embrace the love.

Do you find being loved a difficult thing to accept? Some people do......strange isnt it? It goes back to loving yourself first so you can love others.

I have come to realise more people are reading this corner than I thought. Part of me wants to write in a manner that is acceptable to you but part of me wants to be me. I want to be liked - who doesnt? - and being an actor I also want to be accepted - it gets me work - but I have decided I am going to be honest. If you dont like or agree with what I might say that is your right and privilege being a human being. My right and privilege is to be who I am - I might just let you know that while I strive to be perfect I also believe that perfection does not exist. That puts me in somewhat of a quandary. I understand that the striving for perfection is what is important or the goal - be the best you can be - the end result is in constant change for as soon as you arrive in one place or at one conclusion you are off exploring the boundaries of who you are becoming.

Basically I will stop being so proper and be more ME.

By the way the beer in the picture is one of my favourites, a Coopers Sparkling Ale brewed by the Coopers Family in Adelaide South Australia. A great beer!! Thanks for asking Tara.

Well there is probably more to talk about but I might play a bit of Counter Stike, a mindless but fun game because it is mindless.

Oh by the way it looks like my lifestyle show has been picked up but I cant tell you more about it because I know that certain press and media organisations are monitoring this site and therefore due to contractrual obligations with the network I am not allowed to speak. Stupid hey, this is my site to be me and talk about my thoughts and feelings and I can't. Mmmmmm...Not a good thought.

By the way I would like to say Hi to Phill in Perth - happy to hear you have read the site, I wish you well.

My last thought is..... It is not always easy to be yourself, especially when most of us dont know who we we are. Being yourself is a journey of discovery bit by bit. Often other people judge you on the bit they can identify, the bit they understand but more often than not the bit you have already moved on from. There fore live to your highest you not to someone elses view of you.

I wish you luck