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Monday, 01 September
Good to be Happy
I was doing a radio interview the other day as part of my press tour for the Full Monty with Ernie Sigley. At the end of the interview Ernie said it was good to see me happy. I had spoken to Ernie a few months earlier when I was not so happy, still working as a computer salesman and wondering what was going to happen next. So now I am happy. It is wierd you know. I am happy, I can feel it in my bones, I can feel it in the spring in my step, I can feel it in my more confident approach to each day and to life in general. It's weird because over the last few years I have fought to be happy, I have struggled to find that happy place with in me. I have meditated, read and written in attempts to purge my unhappiness and tried very very hard to come to grips with being happy. It was tough and I dont think I actually succeeded in the way I wanted. I had moments of happy but generally surrounded by large moments of anxiousness and non happiness. I dont know why I feel surprised at how easy it feels to be happy, perhaps because I know how hard it is to be not happy. Being happy feels like I have just had a wonderful full body massage and all my anxiety has been rubbed away never to return. It also feels like it is going to last for a while. So YES, things are good at the moment. I am working in an environment I love, I have a job and I also have another job after this one. I could find things to be not so happy about but what a watse of time that would be. Things arent perfect but then I dont believe perfect exists so I dont know why I would look for things to be perfect. It doesnt actually stop me from striving for perfection which is - as I have said before - where perfection does exist. I may be feeling complete because I have just seen my beautiful wife Andrea and my wonderful girls Elise, Emily and Erin. I my be feeling happy because I have just finished the press launch fo The Full Monty and done heaps of press where people still seemed interested in me. It has been a long time since I have felt genuinely excited about something that I know is going to happen. Complete. I feel complete and am looking forward to the journey ahead because I know I am going to grow and if possible - and it is - be and evolve into even more completeness. Now I am sounding weird but I did tell you it is weird. What I am doing is sharing my inside feelings with you and I am happy for the fact that after years of struggle together I can express my joy with you. I can tell you - I am happy, and it feels good. And for now I am going to enjoy it. Note: comments on old entries are closed. Please comment only on the current entry. Comments Full Monty opens in Melbourne with previews from 31st Dec and openning night is 6th January. As is the way PR monsters weave their magic - I have top billing on the poster, but a very talented and bloody good bloke - Matt Hetherington plays the lead role of Jerry. I am playing Ethan. Posted by: Paul on September 1, 2003 04:53 AMfrom IP: 208.181.96.231thank you for sharing your joy with us at the corner... it's a special corner, all of us drawn together by you and one simple movie... Posted by: bluedog1200 on September 1, 2003 05:18 AMfrom IP: 4.63.133.196Paul that is great news that you are feeling happy. I am proud to be one of the people you share those inner feelings with, and not because you are a "famous actor". I am proud to be a confidant to all members of this list. It makes me happy to connect with all the wonderful people in my life. Even when life really sucks...it's still pretty good. Your happiness is such a wonderful sign that you're doing what you love. The anxiety you felt was your mind's way of forcing you to struggle even harder to get closer to what you really wanted and you did!!! You moved out of your "comfort zone" as they call it and it's paying off in so many ways. Thanks for letting us be a part of your journey. Most of all thanks for being a part of ours. ps Good night Millie and Ellie Posted by: Whitney on September 1, 2003 07:43 AMfrom IP: 129.71.186.250Dear Paul, Mazeltov! You are definitely on your way to a comeback, doing what you love! Even though that guy, Matt, has the lead, it is you that has the name recognition! Once the programs (playbills) are read, people will again be acquainted with the Paul Mercurio that we love and admire! "I told you so" and grannies are always right..it was just a matter of time, and your time has arrived...stay happy, and as for me, my heart is happy too! Peace and love, Grandma Mil Posted by: Grandma Mil on September 1, 2003 07:43 AMfrom IP: 63.183.121.209Paul, I'm happy for you and I'm happy that you have chosen to share your personal happiness with us. Thankyou also for sharing all the other thoughts, happy or otherwise. They have never failed to stimulate something that is at the very least thought proking. From sharing can come understanding and a sense of belonging, and from there can come joy. I'm more glad reading this post than any other that I have previously read. Oh, by the way, if we get down to Melbourne in January, we will be sure starters for the audience. Posted by: Peter on September 1, 2003 10:28 AMfrom IP: 203.41.31.108Paul, as they say, it takes more muscles to frown than it does to smile and so it goes that it is easier to feel happiness than it is to work so hard at feeling blue. Paul, Wow, your happiness just jumps out from the computer screen!!! And it is also very infectious and greatly upped the level of happiness I already woke up with this morning. This is so totally exciting!!! And I’m so VERY happy for you, this was long overdue!!! And no, you don’t sound weird one bit, just very happy, thriving on the professional recognition after a long time of being overlooked, and free because a heavy burden has lifted from your shoulders. Thank you for sharing your innermost happiness with us, as well as the path that it took you to get there and I’m looking forward to the next stage. I’m very happy for you and I hope that this happiness, completeness and ever-evolving completeness will be at your side and inside of you for a very long time (actually always). Enjoy it! Posted by: Evelyn on September 2, 2003 12:25 AMfrom IP: 128.101.248.199I think the only way I could be happier is if it was me. Love ya man. Dennis Posted by: Dennis on September 2, 2003 04:19 AMfrom IP: 68.85.153.77To a bloody great bloke. Paul. peace and love Timmer and Paul Goodonya!!! Posted by: Tim Hord on September 2, 2003 09:49 AMfrom IP: 216.78.45.225Paul - I am so happy for you. There's no better feeling than the one where you realize that you are truly happy and that the world really is your oyster. Having gone through a similar epiphany myself relatively recently, I can completely relate. It's like each breath you take reaffirms that life is good. Good on you! Krista Posted by: Krista on September 3, 2003 03:14 AMfrom IP: 207.229.4.8Thanks guys!! By the way the rumour is that we open in Sydney around March 18 and will probably be there for 6 months. So there is plenty of time to catch me somewhere. Long day doing MoCap - motion capture - and am awaiting my take away Thai to be rready and also for my washing to finish it's cycle so I may put it in the dryer thereby ensuring clean undies for tomorrow!! You didnt need to know that but there you go! Posted by: Paul on September 3, 2003 11:16 AMfrom IP: 216.232.12.59Paul, I guess we will probably see the show in Sydney then. That'll save some petrol. Thai, huh! I'm about to make a sandwich. Hmm. Planning is important. Clean undies are paramount. Ya never know! Posted by: Peter on September 3, 2003 12:20 PMfrom IP: 203.41.31.248Dear Paul and Peter, We were taught as children that one should always wear clean undies in case we had to go to the hospital! Now, that's a sure way to promote anxiety... Love, Grandma Posted by: Grandma Mil on September 3, 2003 11:18 PMfrom IP: 205.149.232.180Good to know we have a larger window of opportunity to catch this show. Sounds like you're making like Elvis and taking care of your business. Embrace responsibility; good for you. And I'm with Peter: one never knows! ;) Can you tell us more about "motion capture"? Good morning Mil and All! Hello Paul, I am glad to hear all of the great things that are going on with you. I am brand spanking new to this site. However, I've been a fan of yours for a while now. Your poetry is awesome! Love it.
Hello, If anyone read my post on 'stopped walking now sitting' you'll know that I feel just the way Paul is feeling at the moment and I really hope it stays that way I'm really trying to live life to the full, I went out the other night and thought I was going to have a really bad night but I thought "no way this is going to be the best night out" and it was, I had a great night and I plan to on friday When I go out, theres no point in worring about it you just have to enjoy yourself, life is for living and you only get one chance at it. Paul I really wish I could come over to see you perform but its a long way from where I live, one day I hope.x.x speaking of hospital gowns..I was looking for a card for a friend in the hospital and one I thought was cute said "do you know who invented the hospital gown? Dr. Seymour Butts" ha ha. Nothing like a good, bad joke to make your day. Yippee, Paul!!! So glad to read your happy, happy words. Thanks for sharing the highs, the lows and the laundry. It's wonderful being able to visit you and of my new friends here. I'm sure your family was ecstatic to have you home. Are you performing with those motion capture gizmos? I thought you were just instructing/consulting on movement. Geez, I told my husband I wanted to go to Hawaii for my 50th next August. Hmmm, gotta put in a new request for Sidney. (Oh, please, please, let the business take off!!!) I'm wrestling with moving out of my "comfort zone" as my commission work gets harder and we launch our business. I know it's mostly growing pains, but it still hurts. But, hey, my Yahoo horoscope said it will work out in the end. And so it will. Welcome, Kei. Hello, miniclare2, Krista, and the whole gang! Love, Diane Posted by: Diane on September 4, 2003 08:50 AMfrom IP: 24.130.221.100Glad to hear about Sydney in March. Just checking the ticket prices for Melbourne in January..$3400 round trip. Yikes. But then again...can't think of a better way to spend $3400. The Sydney flights are a little less and maybe since it is spring here in March the costs will go down. peace and love to everyone. The Timmer PS luv ya Auntie Mil and Whit. Welcome, Clare, from UK...oh, how I love the Aussies! I've struck up a correspondence with a few, besides Paul and Peter, all due to a certain wonderful film..when "The Full Monty" opens in Sydney, I'll remind my Aussie buddies to buy tickets! Tim, the fare to Australia IS costly, I know, for at one time 2 years ago we investigated the cost ourselves. If the trip had not been so long, we might have gone, but old folks like us have health issues that make long flights questionable...from Florida, 24 hours! We are planning to visit our children in Israel in January, but at least that flight goes to London first, and we have a layover of 2 hours, so we can walk around a bit. We haven't seen our eldest daughter and her large family since 1999, and that makes it 5 years...where did the time go? Glad to hear you are back to tapping, Tim! Fred Astaire, move over! Diane, best wishes as you launch your business! Peace and love, Grandma Posted by: Grandma Mil on September 4, 2003 05:05 PMfrom IP: 63.183.121.124Correction, everyone! I welcomed Clare from UK, and I had a senior moment and intimated that she is from Australia...how dumb of me! Close though..sometimes when I watch movies made in England, the language sounds Aussie! It's OK, though. I have been writing to Hannah from Withington, Manchester, England, and if we have a long stopover in London in January we may meet, if her schedule allows it! She is such a special young lady, only 18, and interested in the theatre and classics...I have added her to my "adoptee" list! Love again, Grandma (Good morning, Whit. I just came back from the gym, and it's only 8:00 a.m. in Florida, and the sun is shining for a change.) Hello all! Thanks, Diane, for the warm welcome. This is one of the coolest sites that I have been to yet. I find my self reading, and reading, and reading..........inhale/ exhale\oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! reading, still reading, reading,reading Hey Tim! I really wanted to travel just like you, but after Grandmw Mil said, "It's about 24hrs from Florida", I'm going to think about that a little longer. Ah.... I going any way. I want to see Paul dance some day in-person. I've been visiting site after site, hoping to find a good place to start my stay there. Hey, but you know what? I haven't got a clue.(ha ha ha). Perhaps I should just close my eyes and drop my finger some where on a map. Hey, if anyone has any ideas about how I should go about this, I am all ears. If you can believe, I just turned 30 yrs old on the 4 of july, and at that time I pretty much figured that I have already lived my life. I was so bumed out that I decide to live my life systematically everyday without change. well you know, that only lasted two weeks before I shook myself and said, " hey kei! "you get it together girl"! Then I began to give myself the pep talk. "You are too talented to sit here on you hind parts". And then when I came here, and saw the support and the encourragement here. I really belive I can do it.You guys helped me encourrage my self even more. Thank you!;-) I have got this erge to get out and move about.That's where this trip comes in. I've been here in the (US) all my life. Now it's time to see the world. And it is also time for the world to see me. I was reading one of Paul's earlier messages about when he was working with note books, I think, and pcs. He didn't like it much. But he did what he had to do and moved on with it. Now look, things are movin on up. Way to go Paul!:-) Paul, I hope all continues to grow with you! Iam still cheering for you and your handsome family. I know you will do well. Can't wait to see more of ya.
Ps Glad to see the light back in your eye, friend. (Although I must admit, the more morose postings had so much DEPTH to them as well...it's funny, that...the extent of the depths, the caverns and passages and little lights that make us keep putting one foot in front of the other...) 24 hr flight, eh? Ah...hell, what's a day? I've spent many longer days heading towards worse ends I am certain. The $$$ though...MAN! Guess I'll HAVE to get a teaching job with summer's off so I can bartend and make up the dough, eh? smooches, hahahahahahhaaaaaa... Coffee run...gads. My veins must be mud. Hello to all our new listers! ps. Dhi, I still think I'm freakier but I'll share the title with you! :-) Posted by: Innussiq on September 5, 2003 12:38 AMfrom IP: 65.206.79.248latte tax dang it. Happy yer happy Paul! Inn: latte tax....ye....sux eh? They're getting all our fun vices! Hugz to all at the PC! Kat Posted by: Katalina on September 5, 2003 06:56 AMfrom IP: 128.208.106.124"My crown is in my heart, not on my head. Billl knew what was important. May we all wear this crown in our hearts forever. Diane, I'm with Grandma. If you've comitted yourself to this venture 100% how can you fail? I'm learning that success has a lot to do with our attitude. As we face inevitable fears we grow stonger. And even failure leads to eventual success if it helps us make the decision to succeed: cherish responsibility , seize opportunity and have concrete, measurable goals. Keep us posted. Tim, I'm so glad you're dancing still. I can only imagine what wonderful side-effects this is having on every area of your life. Way to go on the workout Mil!!!! I'm still getting some aerobic exercise, but haven't started lifting again and I miss it. It's starting to show! I'm procrastinating because I have so little space!!!!!! I need some kicks and nagging please. Evelyn that means you too. And don't forget Mil, muscle weighs more than fat so you've surely lost more than 16 pounds. Hang in there. You're my inspiration. Peter, how's your workout going? I'm hoping your back is strong and less painful. Sweet dreams to all the lovely Corner dwellers, new and old. Hi Whitney. My workout is NOT going. My spine and other bits of the nervous system are still playing tricks on me. I'm back to limping, for the moment. Sometimes I think: Hey, I don't want to play this anymore, but then that eternal optimism kicks in and I have another go. I wish I had the gift of healing and could reach out and fix your back. If it can be done with the human mind, I'm giving it my best shot. I'm sure my little back inconvenience is nothing compared to your pain. I know you've located the physical source of this health situation, but stress can aggravate anything. I'm reading that the back is one area where it tends to manifest in the form of additional suffering. I've been bugging poor Ev to read "From Panic to Power" (not that she's in a panic). In my opinion, it's just such a great book; I recommend it to everyone. Lucinda Bassett is the author. (her book was the source of the Shakespeare quote). I'm betting your local library has it and they likely have a homepage online that would allow you to check. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Here's another quote for Paul. I might get this a little wrong. My homebrewing friends love to repeat it , but I've never seen it in writing: "Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy.". -Ben Franklin A great day to everyone! "Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy.". Oh! Truer words, where they ever spoken? ;-) Ithaca Pale Ale in the 'fridge. Date with the hubby over the laser disc "The Dirty Dozen" tonight. Is my life BLISS, or what? ;-) GET TO IT, Whit! No time like the present! ;-) Ciao, babes... Great news guys if you just keep pushing and putting your mind to it...sometimes things begin to work out. I started at this really upscale salon about a month ago. Just walked in and presented all my luggage on the table. The cheap place didn't let me stay because I was still doing clients at home. I don't know how they expected me to pay my mortgage. Anyway, as of today I've been promoted to Salon/Business Manager. I'm going to be responsible for all financial aspects of the salon and the photography studio and I will still do hair 2 to 3 days a week. The cool part is...MONEY. Finally!!! Now we can plan a little for the future. We're already planning on finishing the projects that are open on our house and putting it up for sale next summer. With the amount of money I'll be making...I won't know how to act it's been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooolong. Paul...it's coming in waves. Everyone is on the upside now including you. I owe everyone on PC a big Thank You for listening and caring and pushing me on especially during my suicidal days. I'm enjoying my family like I haven't in years. I owe a lot to PC. I just want to make it down to the show to meet you Paul. And Andria and the girls. peace and love and many thanks Tim Great news Tim. You just don't know how pleased I am to hear of your news. I am in the salon industry as a pro too. I've been doing it for about16 yrs now. Well actually 15 legally ( ha ha ha). You know what I mean I'm sure. I hope to open my own salon some day soon. Working for some one else is getting to me. I was in tears today because the struggle lately has been so hard. I was feeling really lonely until I came here. If I dare, I didn't realize how many people were out there who feel so simular to the way I feel. Human ya know! I am so happy for you. I know everything is going to work out for you. I've got my shears crossed! ha ha ha! Hey Tim! When you do get to see Paul in action, please give him a squeeze for me too and say hey to the gang You know, his family.(Andrea and the girls) :-) Not to change the subject,but you know what. after reading Pauls postings and the comments you guys made, including your advice. I have made it my business to get back into my gifts.( talents) Yesterday I finished 2 songs fully. Thank the lord! woo hoo! :-D
KEI Posted by: Kei on September 6, 2003 11:14 AMfrom IP: 65.129.100.154Timmer, it's bloody early here in Florida (don't I sound a little Aussie?) but your good news warmed my heart, and I think I have a smirk on my face, thinking, I knew it would happen! You are such a talented man in what you do, it was just a matter of time.(Oh, m'gosh, I think I told that to Paul too!) You're on a roll, guys, terrific! Kei, now we have two salon experts on PC..how lucky can we get? Do you hand out free advice for senior ladies? At one time I thought I might dye my hair a sandy blonde, like a lot of the older ladies here in Florida, for I heard blondes have more fun...however, I decided that with my white hair, I have enough fun, so I think I will forget it! Have a good weekend, everyone...Florida is going to have a wet weekend..hurricanes all over the place, but not near southeastern Florida..yet! Peace and love, Grandma Posted by: Grandma Mil on September 6, 2003 05:17 PMfrom IP: 65.179.8.112I think you could do it Grandma. Not that you aren't already adorable:) You're just so vibrant. Work it girlfriend! Besides, it'll grow out. Kei, you sound like a true Corner convert. This must be the place you need to be right now. Everyone on this site is an inspiration to me: a friend and mentor. They give great insight when they can and you can't go wrong with a whole passle of caring people. Tim, Tim, Tim!!! Finally some recognition!!! Not to mention the money that comes along. This could bring even more contentment to you and your family. I read somewhere that most family difficulties are cash related. Clearly, not having financial security can lowers our sense of well being. Congratulations!!! Good day to all. I'm watching Steve Erwin on "Discovery Kids". I'm so glad he gets to do what he loves. He just showed us the poisonous snakes of Australia. Seems they're harder to get bitten by because it's not easy to find them; they avoid you. You litterally have to be trying to kill them or accidentally step on one. Now he's on spiders. I'd better pay attention to this part so I'm signing off. Good morning Mil! Way to go Timmer! I think we should all make a trip and get our hair did. Lord knows I could use some advice on how to deal with my unruly mop. Dear Inn and Whit, Well, if I could lose the last 50 lbs. I would have a complete makeover...I would then look just like a bloomin' Marilyn Monroe, but you know what happened to HER! Cheers, Grandma Posted by: Grandma Mil on September 7, 2003 01:06 AMfrom IP: 65.179.8.112Hey Tim & Kei I work with hair too been doing it for 6 years, I only do the mens side now and I absolutly love it, its a wonderful feeling as you must know to make someone else feel good, my sister is a hairdresser too, mobile but had to give it up as she had a little boy but will soon get back into it, maybe one day we will both open a shop together but im happy doing what im doing at the moment, I work with some great people nothing like the ladies side ohhhhhhh I was running a shop at the age of 15 my boss was soooo horrible even if my client was happy she would still come over and brush it out so I had to do it all again, what was it like for you two? Welcome to the new posters, as always I am so happy that you have shared a little bit of yourselves with us and look forward to more sharing!!! Tim - Fantastic!!!!! Yessirreebob - "Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy." Posted by: Paul on September 7, 2003 04:21 AMfrom IP: 208.181.96.233Grandma Mil- If you decide to become adventurous with your hair just dont dye pink like I see so many little old ladies with, pink hair and really deep red lipstick, hah very frightening. I think you look fine the way you are. Kei- I agree with Inussiq I could use some hair help myself, welcome to the corner by the way. Tim, may more positive things come your way, your posts sound so happy lately. Tapping is so much fun. Posted by: Mercedes on September 7, 2003 12:50 PMfrom IP: 12.250.189.119Hello all! I see we've got so much in common. Hey Grand ma!Did you think of a New style yet? I need to get a better look to see what we can come up with. Ya know,give you the hook up! :-) Speaking of hair, I think Paul has had some pretty interesting do's in his films. Not flirting, but You do have great hair Paul. Tim You have any great tips for grandma?
Good day all in pc land! Kei From the pictures of Auntie Mil...she doesn't need a makeover. She's perfect just the way she is. Her smile tells everything one needs to know about her. She's not 40 anymore, but that doesn't mean she won't have 40 more... Tim Posted by: Tim Hord on September 8, 2003 05:26 AMfrom IP: 216.78.40.8Tim has something there. Mil is wonderful the way she is. It's fun to explore options though. Posted by: Whitney on September 8, 2003 06:50 AMfrom IP: 129.71.185.140Tim,Whit I love grand ma the way she is too! She is everything that makes her her. However, there is nothing wrong with a little spice in your life:-)
Ps. Mil To my pc fam. Love as always! Posted by: kei on September 8, 2003 07:30 AMfrom IP: 65.128.228.150Hi Kei, getting into that kind of trouble is fun, don't you think??? Oh and a belated welcome to you and miniclaire and anyone else that I'm blanking on (nothing personal, just a very long day ...) Love, Hi Evelyn, Thanks for the welcome! I am so happy to be here. I look forward to meeting new people and making new friends. Hey! I just wanted to know if any one in here was connected to the chat room in yahoo for Paul. I'd really like to chat with you guys, but something really crazy happend while I was trying to join. I would really like to share that with someone, but no one emailed me back. I'm sorry, I think I only emailed Cat.OOOps Well, if any one could help me I'd be sooooooooooo happy. Just Got another one of Paul's films yesterday! Paul You are really good at you're work.I know it must be loads of fun. How do you think you will compare this project to film, or will you! Keep up the awesome work! Go get'em Paul! Love ya!
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