Paul's Corner

Paul...What a ride life offers us! The emotions that rear themselves - happy and sad, joy and despair. I join with the rest of the Corner in sharing your exuberance of your present path and wish you the best for the rest of your journey. Yours has not been without some very tough bends.

Thinking of you,
Linda

Well said, Linda. Emotions can really whip you around. Glad the tide is high for you, Paul. And for you too, Tim. Success is yours again!

Love to all,

Diane

Paul,

I am happy to know you're doing well. As always I keep you and your family in my prayers. Here's a hug and a squeeze for you.
mmm.......................................................................................mmmm! There! feel better? I hope so. I am not surprised that things are going great for you. A talent like yours never goes unnoticed. For it is the very essence that leaves such a mark on the world so embedded as a finger print. All things happen for a reason. I share your Happines and your pain in depths that you many never know. You have touched the hearts of many by your passion for what you simply luv to do and inspired us all. I know you will continue to do it well. Hey!Picture it! One day I may actually get the opportunity to be the one sitting out there in the audience looking at you peeking through the curtin looking at me looking at you. (giggles, ha ha ha). And I know I will be eagerly anticipating your performance. Know that we all are always cheering for you! Bravo, Bravo! :-)Just do you! :-D

Hey Grand ma,

I'm here for ya! Any tips on the hair, just ask, you got me, but I like your hair. It suits you.
:-) I think between Tim and I we got you covered. Right Tim? :-)
However, my motto is "Change is good!"
Look at me, going on and on. My hair has been 4 colors this past summer! he he he! Oh well, I'm true to my motto! ( still cracking up, ha ha ha)

And you too Tim
Keep moving buddy! I'm happy for ya!

Hi cat! Hope you got me email. Let me know.:-)

Take care, my new little pc family! smooches :-D

Paul- What a sad and strange moment for you but your strength within shows itself. Maybe this is one of those quirky and strange moment that somehow produces some kind of closure. Keep enjoying your positive moments and go knock the socks off the audience.

Hello to Grandma Mil, Katalina (love your name), Peter and Tim and Kei and the rest of the cool people on this corner.

Hi all!!

Long time no type! Just finished college and have decided to take a year out to concentrate on being an actress.

Paul-I hope you're well luv! The excitment you felt when envisioning the thousand excited faces must have been amazing. An auditorium with only 200 people gets me excited!

Also, i was thinking about what you said about your dear brother. The sad memories, the ones that stir the deepest emotions only take the smallest catalyst to bring them to the surface. I don't quite know what I'm trying to say, just that i understand I guess. Many hugs to you.

Hi Grandma! Hi Tim! Hi Whit! Hi Linda! Hi Katalina! Hi Mercedes! And Hi to everyone else i missed! Hugs to you all!

Hannah* xxxxxxx

So wonderful to hear from you Hannah. Congratulations.

Paul that little tug at your heart will always be there no matter how long it's been. September 2nd was the anniversary of my mom's death. 6 years. I could never imagine 6 years without my mom. I used to talk to her daily. To go 6 years with silence?? Are you crazy? But you have meetings..you know those. You had one on the ocean Paul. You become stronger. You really do. God knows I've had my extreme lows, but I'm still here as are you. I'm feeling positive. I have something to offer this place and I'm going to make some money like I haven't in YEARS. I did a client yesterday. Color, Cut, Hilites and Baliage...$315. She tipped me $60. It was wonderful! She walked out feeling exuberant. I'm on weight watchers. I'm not smoking. Although last night while I watched Chicago...I was getting the urge. Which by the way...just didn't measure up to SB or Mouling Rouge, or The Sound of Music. There are moving movie musicals and then there are just movie musicals.

Paul I know you're happy and you're family is happy. I hope I hope I'm there in March in Sydney.

Whit...thinking of you always.

Auntie Mil...You don't need a makeover. As I said at the bottom of the last thread. Your smile says it all. You're not 40 but that doesn't mean you don't have 40 more. Your hair tells all your stories of life. And all your successes. Don't hide them with everybody elses blonde or pink or blue or brown. You're a lovely lady just perfect as you are.
43 on the other hand. I change my haircolor a lot too. But I'm still changeing. Although lately I've gone through some really interesting changes. I "love" my wife again. We've been working onthis. I hold her hand. We make real love. I can't wait to see her, smell her or hold her. I don't like sharing my kids when they want to spend the night with a friend. My wife, She really is my best friend. We're different than we were 17 years ago, but we're so connected now. I want to make things change. I have the desire and will and energy now to do it. I've been given a window of opportunity and I'm going to launch.

Another interesting thing was the feed back from the mothers back at tap. I still can't get over them telling me I had a "Presence" on stage. I appeared happy and calm and was totally enjoyable to watch. Since I always wanted to be on stage but just didn't pursue it this was such a huge personal success for me. I know it's not The Full Monty or a part in The Titanic, but I made a small audience of about 300 people laugh and enjoy themselves when I was on stage with my buddies/mates from class.

Here's to everyone in Janet Jackson's words, "I love you much."

We all deserve a big hug and a kiss. Go kiss your partner or spouse and tell them you love them or tell them on the phone (Paul).

love and peace always to my adopted family at PC

The Timmer

It’s been a very long week, totally overwhelming and oh so much fun! I could totally get addicted to this rush I get from being in the classroom again. I seem to really thrive on the energy in the classroom, no matter how bone tired I might be, the tiredness just falls away. :-) Very interesting dynamics too, in each of the three classes I have about 75% guys in them, mostly in the 18-23 age group, lots of hormones flying around … :-) Yikes! And then there are the totally cute ones as well … hmmmm ...

Paul, I think that the sting over the memory of a loved ones passing on will always be there. These moments sneak up in the oddest moments and situations and being confronted with the pain and memory head on hurts but it contributes to more healing and the letting go of a bit more sadness. I’m glad you were able to laugh and cry both. In my experience some uplifting memory always follows the spilling out of sadness caused by a painful memory.

I’m glad you had these meetings with Matt and the excitement it brought you. Hearing the whispers and excitement from the invisible audience, very cool! Oh, in what way are you Aussies a different kettle of fish?-always wanted to know and get it from the Aussie perspective as well. Oh, and what's up with having coffee with Matt???? What happened to having beer? Isn't that your preferred choice in beverage?

Tim, I’m so glad things are picking up for you, professionally, personally and in your marriage. Your joy and passion leap out in your messages as well and they too are infectious. Congratulations!

Whit, here’s your KICK per your request. Get off the computer NOW and go on your exercise machine!!! Don’t come back until you’ve been on there for at least 30 or 40 minutes and enjoy it too!

Dhiana, how was your date with hubby on Friday (dare I ask???) and yes, do go to glamour shots, but take your kids along, it’s more fun that way! And then send me the photos, I do want to see them!!!

Congrats Hannah on finishing college and enjoy your year off. I hope you find in acting what you are looking for.

Dearest Grandma, just be yourself! You are gorgeous the way you are, inside and out, but if you want to go blonde, do it, and have a kickass attitude with it.

Hello and hugs to everyone. I’m off to curling up in bed with a good book and my cat! Tomorrow is a very long day, 9 am until 9 pm with about 2 one hour breaks that I will have to use to prepare Tuesday’s classes. >;-(((( Who gave me that schedule ??? NOT me!!!

Ps.. Just noticed it is /was Father's Day in OZ and NZ, so "Happy Father's Day" you guys!

I understand how you felt when you saw the car scene. I really do. It's good to know that I'm not alone in feeling that kind of sadness when I see something that reminds me of my brother. This weekend, my husband and I were watching "Chicago" on DVD, and the scene where "uh-uh" gets hanged came on. About a year ago, my younger brother hung himself in my parent's closet. So I just hate scenes like that. Every time I see a noose, I get a sickening feeling in my stomach, like I've been kicked. It's not like when I remember the happy times. Even when I see a regular suicide scene on a TV show or a movie that is not by hanging, I just feel so sad and sick and empty. And I too think of the pain that my parents go through because of what happened.

Please stay honest, I really appreciate it when you tell what is in your heart.

Wow, so many interesting posts!

I'm glad to see things are still on track with the upcoming production. I imagine it helps immeasurably to see it in advance, especially so you can desensitize yourself to that scene.

My dad took the same path (exhaust) and it was hard to accept that his emotional pain was so great he couldn't be comfortable in life. I wish he hadn't gone because I still hold out hope for a cure, but maybe that was too much to ask.

My sister died the year before. It was her death that opened my eyes to the grief that others must experience under the same circumstances. Until it happens, we can't even imagine the pain that comes with the loss of a close friend or family member. I found that I became more sensitive to Everyone's loss and more aware of the effect it would have on them. We are all altered by such an event. That scene will move many. I think it could have a theraputic effect on you most of all. Think of the happy times. This will be a fantasy of the way you wish it could have gone. There's a reason it happened as it did, but allow yourself the chance to imagine it a different way. I think Michael would want you to.

Gosh, Tim!!! How cool!!! What can I say, you've blown every other post away with your awesomely great news. And when you got the urge to smoke watching "Chicago" did you try to recall what you'd previously been thinking or just push forward to a new thought? That compulsion doesn't go away easily. I'm so proud of your accomplishment. You must be getting Big help from somewhere ;) I have a theory that I recently formalized (translation: I bored someone by explaining it to them): it takes three days to make a habit and three days to break a habit. You've done it!!! If you chose to, you can smoke right now. Just keep chosing not to. You're already there!!! Three days is as good as a lifetime. Be warned: you'll have some very vivid smoking dreams for awhile, but they go away after a couple of years.

I'd better stop now. Evelyn wants to hang on to the trophy for longest post 2003 and we're friends so...you understand ;)

Mamma Mil, I love you and Elli too!

Love and peace to everyone,

Whit, you are not even close .... you aren't even trying ... :-) so the trophy is still mine, but I'll gladly hand it over, if ...

Good night and love to all!
Evelyn

Paul...I did not knew that you have yor own blog!! I thought you never will answer me again...so...I´ve a blog too, is all in my language(of course)...but I invite you to visit me..or send a email...pleaasssseeee

From your fan so far from you....

Carol...

OOh...those twingy moments that open up oceans on the Emotional Front. SO good to be able to feel, but they feel so ROTTEN at the time. Bare naked parts of us, totally raw. BEING 100% emotion is so difficult. Thankfully--although we shun it--the physical world is here to remind us that if we were to concentrate on that Emotional World, 100% of the time, we'd ceast to exist here...as they did. Hmmm...

My friend here at work (another one whose business card reads "Requirements Analyst" but whose essence begs to differ!) has just opened a new salon/day spa called "Choose Life!" and shows a ball of fire dropping into/and coming out of at the same time, an open palm. VERY cool.

TIM, dammit, man...isn't it AMAZING how, when you feel good about yourself, you are able to LOVE and SEE and FEEL again? Incredible. Awesome. Keep at it, man. You've obviously found that avenue and are willing to stay on that road for as long as it, and you, can. Good luck!

Oh, Whitney...your sister AND your father? That's a tough row to hoe. Thankfully, my mom and brother are still here, and with Instant Messenger and email, I am in there lives almost daily. It's so wonderful. I "talk" to my Dad alot too, but since he's on the Other Side, I have to interpret his answers so isn't AS satisfying as, say, seeing it typewritten or hearing the physical voice. *sigh* BUT...he's still there. ;-)

Ok, well **I** have work to do, so Kat and Eve can just continue to vie for the trophy of longest post. ;-)

Anon!
***poof!***

I've never done anything like this before and I never expected something like this on a celebrity web-site. But I have enjoyed your writings, poetry, and those words that spill from your heart, about, career, family and life in general. That's the way writing should be and its refreshing.

I happen to catch this web-site after watching one of your films on Sunday. I was looking to see what other films you have made and I see that there are plenty. So I look foward to seeing your other work. I admire your dynamic presence and energy that you bring to the characters that you portray. A job well done.

The first time I saw Strictly Ballroom I was seventeen years old and accompanied my mom to a foriegn film festival in Sarasota Florida rolling my eyes wondering what sort of silly film she choose this time. I not only enjoyed the film emensely and its message about letting go of fear and keeping hope in your heart but it also recieved a standing ovation at the theater (which I had never seen at a movie theater before). I saw Exit to Eden when I was home from my first year of college. I was 19 years old and as as my strict Italian American mother forbade my to go see it (she expected me to stay pure until marriage, sure like that was going to happen) I walked out of the house one evening after dinner telling her calmly, that I was going to the movies, and that was that. I never stood up to my mother before that moment but it interesting that that particular movie had become a symbol of my rebellion. Not only did I go with a few friends of mine that night googling over, ahem, the Aussie heartthrob, but we went again the following week-end and saw it for a second time. A great memory of my late teens.

It was funny to think that on my 29th birthday on Aug 29th the only thing I wanted to do was sit at home with the dog and cat order chinese food and watch the two movies that rocked me when I was ten years younger. Instead of reliving my youth as planned, in the mist of the previews, a good friend of mine called crying telling me that she had broken up with her fiance and asked me to come over and " oh by the way happy birthday". Believe me no suprise party was there when I arrived and in the mist of giving her councel I made a note to myself that in the future if I rent any movie staring Paul Murcurio I will shut off the cell phone and disconnect the main telephone line. Knowing one's priorities are an important part of life.

Thanks for letting me blab,

Julie
of Fort Lauderdale, FL

That would have been cool: a surprise waiting at the end of the trip, but you made the right decision, helping your distraught pal despite the fact that there wasn't a celebration on your special day. You may never know how much that meant to her, but she reached out to you and got a supportive response. I'm sure Paul would encourage you to put his movie on hold in that sort of emotional emergency. I commend your sacrafice.

Evelyn, I was being nice, but if you want a fight for the trophy I feel a long post coming on. Who knows when it could happen? Beware!!!!!

Hi Julie. Over and over I read notes like yours. Mine was worded very similarly. I hope you continue to come to the Corner as we all do. Welcome.

Good evening G-ma!!! I love you Mil.
Love to all,
Whit

G'day to all at PC today/tonight.
Hi back to Mercedes, Kei. :-D
Morning Mil, Whitney!
Hugz to Paul & family, Inn, Tim, Dhi, Diane, Evelyn, Peter & halloo to the new posters & anyone else I forgot here :)

Paul: just wanted to say, i find you most brave in meeting that mixed song-scene and memory head on like that. that's difficult, but again you show your strength, tenacity, compassion and courage as you seem to bring to all areas in your life. you let yourself feel and be in that moment (to remember, to heal, to grow?)- awkward or painful nevertheless. Again...you are an inspiration to many. it's kewl!! In principle and in general, you "live out loud" in honest ways that some only dream about, and because you show ppl through living example (not only in your artistic expression, passion, interests, but in life values/choices and life experiences shared too..), you inspire others to try & translate that in their own personal ways to fit their lives. Thanks!
ok..no laffin at the "kitschy-Kat"(Evelyn: did i spell that right? hehe)...lol (ok I'll laff at self first:hehehe LOL, rolling eyes!)...but seriously...I mean it...Paul, you're a great guy and we all know it and you keep proving us right - over and over...Amen! *grinn*

hugz a latte
Katalina

....durn tax! espresso is not a vice!
or is it????????LOL

Good evening, Whit, how come I can't get messages through on your regular email?

I have changed my name from Grandma Mil to Queen Mum...it seems since I write to our "Princess Hannah", that doll, in England, I decided to take on one more "Princess" at her request..."Princess Evelyn" wants to join my dynasty! Being my Hebrew name is "Malka", which means "Queen", I have elevated myself from an ordinary Grandma Mil to Queen Mum. If anyone objects, too bad! (See, Tim, I can kick ass too!)

Julie, how lucky can I get? I never had anyone near me from Paul's Corner, and now you are in Ft. Lauderdale, and my husband and I live in Coconut Creek...Whit had to come to Florida to see us from WV, and here you are, maybe a half hour away! I loved your letter, learning about the pleasure you have gotten from our dear Paul, through his writing and his work. We welcome you! My email is under my name..please contact me!

Paul, I just heard some gossip from Oz. It seems there is a rumor going around that Tara Morice and Geoff Burton are an item. Could it be that she and Craig Pearce are finished? I was especially interested in Burton, for he must be one of Australia's greatest cinematographers, and I see he worked on your film "Sydney: A Story of a City".

Peace and love to all,

Queen Mum

Queen Mum it is dear Mil, until instructed otherwise. Your messages are getting through Your Highness. I'm getting a big, I mean a little behind. Can't we keep our personal titles for Your Highness? Otherwise, that would put an end to Tim's Auntie Mil and he enjoyed you in the aunt capacity. We loves ya no matter what you calls yourself. A rose by any other name... and all that.

Special hi to Kat. A morning hello is a treasure. This little Corner grew so busy that I've become afraid to take on the challenge of addressing everyone. It's impossible I think. But it isn't impossible to care about all of us and I do.
Love,
Whit

Dear Queen Millie, I hadnt heard the news of Tarra but whatever is going on in her life I hope she is happy, growing and enjoying the love that she deserves.

Geoff is a very nice man and I certainly wouldnt mind working with him again.

As for your new title - it befits you as you are a queen to me and many here but to be true I love my Grandma Mil the best!!!!

indeed to be true, i loves the granny mil the best

Queen Millie, I wish I had a grandma just like you!

From a young bloke downunder.

Hi everyone

Its been a while since I have written. Business has been picking up again and things moving around a lot. Reading Paul's posts two things made me think a lot. I know how it feels with the movie scenes. My brother had a really long ugly time with heroin, so every time a drug scene comes up, with needles and all of that - I turn it off. I guess because most of what builds up is anger and I don't honour my beautiful brother in anger. When the tears flow I do feel that I am honouring him, the tears being a connection between him and me. Those sad, hard to cope with emotions are the ones that move us forward in life. They are a part of us all that is so beautiful, so real and so courageous. Most people don't allow themselves to feel their feelings, including me a lot of the time. Yet when we feel our feelings, really allow our bodies and minds to just feel them and not judge them, we learn how to be with them, we learn that we are beautiful shining stars, no matter what we are feeling.

The other part of Paul's writing that interested me a lot - about feeling bad when he was selling computers. When we aer not doing what we THINK we are supposed to be doing, we get sad, frustrated, feel horrible. But maybe all of that is in the plan. When I quit the Bar, I had weeks and months of nothing to do. I filled my days running around pretending to be busy while I was miserable. Then I got busy coaching and it was okay. BUT BUT - the busy feeling did not actually make me feel happy, it just helped me avoid feeling unhappy. Now my coaching practise has been slow and I again went into a massive decline of feeling worthless, needing money and getting anxious. I have learned now - the universe looks after us, we just have to allow it in. I am working a lot on cracking this, so that I can teach my clients - that those times that feel low, have a purpose. Learn the purpose and get the lessons and then you can move on having experienced your love for yourself and your own courage.

Thanks, Paul, for getting me thinking. That is what I love about coaching, I am always thinking and then I get to share it with my clients.

Hi Grandma Mil and Evelyn

Love Sara (Sydney)
xxx

I too had a difficult time with the suicide scene in The Full Monty here in St. Louis. It is hard topic, as I think we've all been touched by a close friend or loved ones suicide.

The rest of the show is definitely uplifting.... oh how I enjoy the piano player jokes!

Went to see The Lion King with my guys this weekend. Andrew, at 6, was a bit too young to get totally lost in it, unfortunately. The bathroom and concessions had a much greater appeal. I thought it was interesting how they put it together.

The Cirque de Solie (not sure of spelling) is also in town and it is absolutely incredible! It is definitely for the child in all of us.

God bless the actors and entertainers who take us away from our "normal" lives for a few hours. These people are very special and very appreciated!