Paul's Corner

As an artist myself I can tell you that a painting is never finished.

nor is the journey.

Maybe I should go further and say that a painting is always a work in progress and so is a human life no matter what stage you are in.

I thought when I reached 30 life would be over. Then I figured when I reached 40 life would be over. This year I turn 60. Things have not been exactly as I planned them (actually nothing has turned out as I planned it). You have to sort of play it by ear and do what makes you happy. I sincerely hope that you do have another 40 years on this earth, but what if you only had one year. What would you do with it? Do what makes YOU happy.

I'd stop thinking and start bloody painting!!! and get really messy too!

Well, then go for it!!!

I tried to post this story on another one of your sites, but it wouldn't post. I will make a long story short here though. My husband wanted to teach college. He went to school for 10 years. I worked and put him through school. It was a very lean time emotionally and financially. His last year, or what we thought would be his last year, his committee decided he needed to do more work on his disseration. He had passed everything and they wouldn't let him graduate with his Ph.D. so he couldn't teach. Instead he went to work for NASA. Had he actually gotten that Ph.D. when he had his heart attack five weeks ago we would have been living is a little college town without the facilities to save his life. All of life has a domino effect and everything builds on everything else. Where you are is where you should be.

"All of life has a domino effect and everything builds on everything else. Where you are is where you should be."

AMEN TO THAT , JO ! I AGREE!! there are no accidents, no coinsidences, everything happens for a reason, we think WE control things , but we do not. It goes so much higher than us. I guess we can control our attitudes, but not the final outcome.

I though by the time I was 30, I would be completely established in life with my dream job and the perfect family, living life to it's fullest with lots of money in the bank. Well, I am 35 and I was more established when I was 25 than at 35. I have 0.00 money in the checking, wondering how to feed my family this week.(but not worried as I know it will always work out, it always does!).

My life is nothing like what I thought it would be. What MY perception of what my life should be. My prior dreams didn't include 2 beautiful children with morals and respect for others, a strong marraige, a secure job and always the ability to make ends meet, .... somehow. I think I am pretty lucky. I hope I am just as lucky 10 years from now as I am now. It can only get better form here. (well, lets hope I can put the kids through college, at least)

Gotta go to bed, big baseball tournament tommorrow.

Love to all,
Kelly

I had been harboring a deep resentment over that University and those professors that he had for nearly 30 years now. Last month I was able to let it go. I have Joe, who could ask for anything more!

"What's past is prologue."
- William Shakespeare

I don't think life never goes to plan, how can it when you don't know what is round the next corner. When I was in my early 20's I always thought I would be married with children living a very happy life, how wrong was I. I'm now 34, single, no children but that's the way it is meant to be for me at the moment. I'm hoping that one day soon that will all change it would be nice to have someone to share everything with and not feel so lonely at times. Is there such a thing as the perfect man? I just don't seem to have found mine yet. I was treated very badly in the past so that has made me very wary and hard to completely trust someone, but hopefully that will all change. Life is one long roller coaster, sit back, enjoy the ride and see what life has ahead of us.
Live for today as you never know what tomorrow will bring!
Kim

When I was a freshman in high school, one of the first assignments we had was to write our autobiography. We were to write it as if it were 10 years in the future. I found my essay recently when I was cleaning out some boxes, and what a joke life has played on me! The innocence I had when I wrote it is gone. All my dreams did not come true, but one - I did marry and have a wonderful family. As I age, I try not to think too far ahead. It's frightening to realise that your life is more than half over and if you're lucky, you can have maybe 10 years left, and you don't know if they will be good ones or not. I am just happy now to take each day as it comes.

"Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday".....

Love to all here at the corner.

Sally C.

Paul, when you looked ahead twenty years ago, (when you were half-way to this point) what did you see?

The memories that you talk about now from those times may seem more solid than the 'fluffy dreams' you can make out for the future, but back then, that is exactly what they were too - imaginings. The achievements and the stuff of consequence that you can now see looking back were only possibilities then. Maybe they seemed more solid because some of them, at least, are common to what most of us would hope for during those years from twenty to forty - a loving relationship with the right person, the joy of children, building a career etc. They were more easily defined. That doesn't mean that they were more likely to happen. Many people don't achieve them, for whatever reason.

I think that this stage that you are at now is a natural point of the journey when you are drawn to look carefully at the canvas of your life. I think by the very nature of its place on the journey, it is more open-ended. The slight anxiety you are feeling, I reckon would be familiar to many people when they reach your age. I'm a few years ahead of you and I certainly recognise it. The future is a blank canvas. For all of us, no matter how settled or secure we think aspects of our life are. The only constant is the fact that we are the ones holding the paintbrush and choosing the colours. And I think the pictures we paint are not the circumstances of our life, but our attitudes/reactions to them. Your instinct has always come across to me as being a total embracing of life. I'd say the future canvas of your life will have the same underlying theme as the one you have painted up to now. The patterns may be different but the colours will be just as vibrant and clear.

I think that as long as we are experiencing this life - living and learning - the future is always better than the past because we bring into it all the lessons and wisdom that we have managed to collect along the way. And the present is the best of all. It's the only moment we can actually experience fully.

Two quotes about time that I love:

'Time is the force that brings every new experience to the door of your heart.'

John o'Donohue

'We think in eternity but we move slowly through time.'

Oscar Wilde

Love to everyone,
Mary

Dear Paul,

Since you are an artist, you can always call yourself "a work in progress"!

Take care,
Claire

I have been thinking about this since you posted it and even talked to my husband about it. (He is a big fan of yours too by the way.) You can't "reinvent" yourself like so many people claim to do. You start with what you have and go from there. You have a hell of a lot going for you so you wouldn't need to "reinvent" yourself anyway. You say you have lived half your life, but you have only lived 1/3 of your adult life.

There was a broadway play and then a movie starring Robert Morse called "How to Succeed in Business Without Really Trying". There is one scene where he is in the executive men's washroom and he is singing to himself in the mirror the song "I Believe in You". (By the way I have thought this would be a great roll for you in the movies.) I believe in you Paul. Your fans believe in you. All of us believe in you. Now you have to believe in you.

Words to the song:

I Believe in You

You have the cool, clear eyes
Of a seeker of wisdom and truth
Yet there’s that up-turned chin
And the grin of impetuous youth

Oh, I believe in you
I believe in you.

I hear the sound of good, solid judgment
Whenever you talk
Yet there’s the bold, brave spring of the tiger
That quickens your walk

Oh, I believe in you
I believe in you.

And when my faith
In my fellow man
All but falls apart
I’ve but to feel your hand grasping mine
And I take heart

I take heart.

To see the cool, clear eyes
of a seeker of wisdom and truth
Yet there’s that slam, bang, tang
Reminiscent of gin and vermouth

Oh, I believe in you

How I believe in you.

I believe in you

I believe in you …

After seeing Strictly Ballroom again I am, once again, struck with your talent. After finding this website, I am struck with your honesty & openness. I feel the opposite of one of your thoughts: I fell it is a slow road we walk away from our birth & we go towards our death with stealth-like speed. Fourty-one is a good age; the fourtys are good years. You are blessed with a god-given talent of a very unique & creative dance style. You make it look effortless when all of us dance wannabe's know how hard you have had to work to dance so beautifully. You must be strong of character to cultivate that talent. Harness your anxiety! Pick the brush up and paint that damn canvass. Time waits for no one. Memories are lovely (I spent 4.5 years on Bill Shatner's Rescue 911 as a dispatcher extra, had a re-enactment done on one of my 911 calls & made the Rescue 911 1995 wall callendar); however, yesterday is a cancelled check. When we fall off of our motorcycles, we get back up, dust ourselves off & get back on for the love of the ride. Rest assured, you still have a lot to offer the arts. Good luck to you & your family!

I guess this may not be in relation to the topic, but in a way it is, given that our lives are not always lived as planned.

Yesterday we attended the celebration of a niece's graduation from college. She got a degree in Public Relations with a minor in Marketing. Doesn't have a job yet,(has not had one in 2 or 3 years, she's been doing an internship with a local hockey team) lease is up on her apartment in June 1st and doesn't know where she will be going. Back home to live with her father(my younger brother) or stay here and live with her mother(and stepfather)? Her ideal job right now is to get on with the Dallas Mavericks(Pro Basketball) but has had no definite offers or interviews. NO PLANS!!!

The end of May we will attend the HS graduation of another niece(18 in March) who is currently working 2 jobs so she can move out of her biological father's house where she chose to go after a disagreement with her mother over a $500 cell phone bill. Is she going to college, no one knows, she won't talk to any of us about her plans. Her 20 year old brother, can't get a job but he has applied for several credit cards, I shredded the evidence of denial(thank god) for his mother last night.
All three of these kids have their lives before them and have no clear cut plan for their immediate or long term future, talk about flying by the seat of their pants. At least Ashley does have a college degree( the 1st of 7 grandchildren - not mine but my mom & dad's).

I'm 54 and guarantee you that I'm not where I thought I would be when I graduated from High School. I too have gone back and reread my prophecy from my senior year book and I too missed the mark. But I would not want to have to go back and live the last 48 years over(don't remember much before age 6).. I will just try to live out the next 20 or so years the best I can with the love of a wonderful man and knowing that I have raised a very successful son.
I think that's the best I can hope for.

Paul, your talent so exceeds anything I might have ever done or hope to do I know your future holds something spectactular. Go, Paint your canvas, brew a little beer, make some sausage, enjoy Andrea and the girls. Remember: " A life lived in fear, is a life half lived."

Hugs to all at PC
Sherrlyn

**getting up on the soapbox**
(I don't mean to sound like an all knowing oracle here) A person can live two years and have lived half of their life. You can never know what the halfway point is until you know the end point. You can live to be 40 and still have 60 years left to go. You can't measure the life you are living in time, you can only measure the life you have lived. Are you happy? Are you doing the best you can? Maybe it's not as much a philosophical question as a practical one. My 2 cents 1.3 canadian.
**getting off the soapbox***
Dez is eating solid food! She still hasn't been moved from critical care but we are hopeful.
Peace

Easy topic to understand. I've looked back at my h.s. yearbooks and college books as well. What a hoot. Nothing has turned out as planned. I did obtain a degree. Whoopee...It's been completely useless for the most part for the past few years. When I went to work for Deloitte haskins + Sells after college, I expected to be a partner in my early thirties earning in excess of $100k a year and living exceedlngly well in my 40's and retiring comfortably in my fifties. So, I'll be 44 July 6th and I start grad school on July 5th. Success? Financially? NO, Mentally? I have discovered over the past 20 years what screwed me up so bad. The last few years have been the hardest but I think I can consider myself on an upswing. The 7000sf house and beach home, with aloft in NYC is not going to make me Happy. Only contentment is going tomake me happy. You don't know what the next day will be like, so you MUST smile each day, hug your family and tell them you love them. Read something that lifts your spirits, Avoid unnecessary negativity and deal with it if must.
My mom's sudden death really provoked in me the need to say things the day you intend to. Let procrastination be part of your past.
Paul you say half at 41...People in my family barely make it past 65. If that's the case I may have 20 years or so left. My daughter would barely be out of college. To me that is a horrific thought. For now, my preparation for that is to get myself in great shape. Act and feel as young as I can. It can't hurt and it may help.
One thing I am doing for future work is not set time limits. No hard and fast rules on time. Either it will or won't happen. I guess that's the reason I don't wear a watch now. Haven't worn one in 7 years.
I hope we get to see the mini series here in the US.

I finally got to speak to Whitney on the phone the other day. She is really sweet. I've got to call Auntie mil this week.

peace and love

Tim

Tim,

Good time for a birthday! Mine is July 6 too. It was supposed to be June 6, but my mother always blamed the European invasion in 1944 for not being able to give birth on time. She said it frightened her and I didn't want to come out.

Ours is not to reason "Why?", ours is but to-- drink beer and laugh until we cry!

Peace in that in-depth brain of yours,
Dhi

Hey all, long time no me!

Well I guess I should start with commenting on Paul's latest post. Hmmmmmm....

It's difficult to say goodbye to yestday and hello to today if yesterday was a fabulous experience. But if we were to discount tommorrow, we would have never accomplished what we did yesterday. Make sense?

WHen you're young the life seems easy and we dive into risks. But as responcibilities change, and we learn from a portfolio of past experiences we then become...hesitant. But is being hesitant good? Not at all! We need to get out of the comfort zone, get our hands dirty once again, and feel alive as we did when we were children.

School is going well. The anatomy class is kicking my butt (or glutes as we say in class). Three people have dropped so far and I have managed to get A's on the first two tests. Now we're on to bones and muscles, yikes. I have a ton of studying to do this week. In our clinic class I have messaged five people so far and my prof for clinic (drill Sargent Mike) told me that I was doing well. I take it as a complement b/c he is ruthless with the students. A few students that I've practiced so far told me that I had good hands. I'll see what happens for my first evaluation in August.I cross my fingers.

Hello to Grandma Millie, Timmer, Kelly, Paul, and Andrea!

I meant to say massaged.

Jeez ya think I'd spell that one right!

Jo (Texas) I'm having problems with my e-mails at the moment so I can't contact you direct. Thanks for the photos they were lovely. Once I'm up and running again I will be in touch.

Hi to everyone on PC I hope you are all very well.

Take care
Kim

I suppose the news I'm about to give relates to this post. I took a pregnancy test yesterday and the results were positive!! I even took another this morning because I just couldn't believe it-it was positive,too!! I'll have my first doctor appointment on June 3rd. This will be baby #3.

I'm feeling a little anxious about whether or not we're going to be okay and I mean financially. My husband has reassured me over and over that we will be fine. And, then my thoughts go to this.....I am a third child and my mother was a single mother, her mother had 4 children and practically raised them without a second income, too. I plan to continue working. And, this was a planned baby.

So-how does this relate to the Paul's post/question? I know what I'll be doing for a great deal of my life....and that's raising a family. Talk about not being able to paint a picture!! I have no idea what my life holds in store. I just know that I'm going to do as much as I can so that I don't have too many regrets. And, NOT having a third baby would have been a regret.

Hellos and hugs to everyone at PC!!

HUGS!
Abeth

wow...everyone's so introspective of late...
im enjoying the posts very much!!

Kelly (UK)...i could relate very much to your post. I find your outlook very refreshing!

Hugs and smooches to all at PC today/tonight.

wow those brisket recipes made my mouth water and my eyes tear in sympathy from the chilis! sheesh! I love it!!

latte luv from
Katalina de Seattle

ps extra special hug to Inn and well wishes for your friend.

Congratulations, Abeth! Nothing holds quite as much promise as a baby. Here's wishing you a glowing pregnancy, and an easy birth! (When is the due date?)

Vicki

http://www.vineyard.org.au/index.htm

Hi Paul,
I really enjoyed your dancing in Strictly Ballroom. You have so much talent. Not to throw religion on you but from reading your "Tonights Question," I feel that you are searching for what you are supposed to do in this life. If you ask Jesus, he will tell you. He will also provide you with joy, happiness, and love. Please look at the above link. It's the church that I belong to in the USA. This church is nationwide and there are many churches in Australia. This church is awesome!!

If you believe in Jesus there is no death but eternal life so the journey doesn't end but continues in heaven. You can dance on the streets that are golden!!!

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his is only begotten son. That whomever shall believe in him, shall not parish but have eternal life."

Arminda,
Not to throw religion you sure hit everybody in the face with a pie.

Thanks! :-)

Arminda,
That was not a compliment.

Abeth - what wonderful news. Congratulations. Take it easy, treasure and enjoy every moment.
Love Kim

Yes, I know but coming from you I'll take it as a compliment!

I don't normally like to talk about religion I think it can cause too many arguments and I think it is a private thing and each and every one of us believes in something different but I was curious to read that if you believe in Jesus you go to heaven so does this mean that if you don't you won't? So what if you are a good person but don't believe where do you go?
Kim

Arminda,
I don't know how to take that. I am not a Christian and have no intention of being one. Like Kim I think that religion is a personal thing and this is not the place to discuss it.

Yes, you're right. This is Paul's website. What I wrote was for him to read because I was concerned. My intentions was not to offend anyone. Take care.

Yes please. Religious talk ...please reserve it for a religious chat room. This is for self improvement, friendship, and mutual respect. Not downloading one theological legalistic point of view on others.

# 3 huh? We planned 3 ourselves, but the fourth was a complete shock. But we love her to death. She is spoiled rotten by her mother and I and her 3 older brothers. She's charming and beautiful.
Best of luck. You'll be fine. The 3rd one just fits like a glove...No real changes like you noticed from 1 to 2.

peace and love everyone.

Tim

Tim I liked what you wrote about this being a place for self improvement, friendship and mutual respect, the world would be a better place if there was more of it.
Take care
Kim

Abeth, best of luck! I hope the whole experience is a joyful one.

Monika, how are things with you?

Best wishes to Paul.

Hi to Michelle, Peter, Evelyn, Millie and to all PCers.

Love to each one of you,
Mary

What's with people in today's society that when God's name is whispered everybody gets offended?
All she was doing was responding to Paul's concerns and issues in his message. It's not up to you to decide what should or should not be written on his website. Obviously, if Paul did not want to express his thoughts to us, he wouldn't have done so. She has every right to respond just as much as the rest of us do. Remember, it's only someone's thoughts based on ones life experiences. Lighten up! Folks! Being too politically correct is not a good thing.

There are two things that I do not discuss with people. That's RELIGION & POLITICS! Yes I go to church, I am in the choir, and in a small bible group. But I do not push religion and my beliefs on anyone. I do feel the need to pray for those who are hurting here on PC.

Boohoo, the kids left today for home. What a hoot the last two weeks have been. Even though Logan is a Downs baby, the tharapists look to see him go to college, have a job and live on his own. Although his hearing is perfect, they are learning sign language with him. They are starting to teach babies signing from age three months on up. Logan has learned, "I hungry, & more". They learn the signals then gradually pick up the words. Everyone around him has to buy into the program. It has given many Mothers a tool to communicate with their infants, when they are crying and they don't know what they want.

Now I am on to our church's annual garage sale this week. All the proceeds go to the youth ministery for their annual trip to Mexico. They bring in anywhere from 5k to 7k each year. I am in charge of the jewelry. It's keeps me out of trouble. Stuff will be coming in all week for sorting and such.

I have canvased the neightborhood and they are filling up my horse trailer, with all their junk that will be someone else's treasures. We found two antique crystal serving dishes in the bottom of a box that we thought was just junk. What a find!

I thought our horse show was a May 29th & 30th. Wrong? It is this weekend. After that I think I am going to the store to get a bottle of Whidbey's Loganberry Liquer, and kick back for a couple of days. It's made right here on Whidbey Island, Washington. Alana took back a bottle for a member of her knitting club, as it is not sold anywhere but here.

Jeff (my son-in-law) makes miniatures of medievel warriors. They are only about an inch high and very detailed. He had two cases with him. One was with his figurines and the other had all his tools in it. Ooops, he took the wrong case as a carry on and had to have it shipped. At least they did not conviscate it. There is about a hundred dollars worth of miniature tools in it. I got some of them for his birthday which was May 5th. I've seen some of these setups and they are spectacular.

I've rambled on long enough.
Those who bring sunhine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves.

Take care love to all.
Marge

Abeth
See if you can find out more about the sign language programs for infants. Everyone who has contact with your new baby will have to buy into the program to re-enforce it. It sure has been a great tool for my daughter with Logan.

Take care
Marge

Perhaps the past and the future make us what we are in the present? The old and the new join in a painting to define the artist himself. Goodness, Paul's thots always make me philosophical! Hmm.

Well I don't think the new things ahead could measure up to what I've already accomplished. Somehow I'd like to think that when my life is over, I can look back and see the beautiful finished product. Then the doubts come and I say, "I hope!"

Marge, so you show your horses? Certainly sounds fun.

Love to all...congratulations Abeth. here's to a good pregnancy!

Maile

Paul, In response to your question: "...will I, can I, do better?"

You don't have to do anything "better".
Perhaps "differently" will be enough.
It's up to you.

Peter

Mary, re songs that bring on full sensory immersion: I know I've gushed and enthused about it before, but The Cranberries' "Linger" does it for me. It's the combination of those haunting tones, and the sheer (dare I say it) sensuality of it that takes me right in. I love the vocals.
What more can I say?

I guess it's different for everybody.

Best wishes,
Peter

Well, a heart attack six weeks ago, no stress test yet and this morning my husband rides off on his motorcycle without the doctors approval. So this afternoon I am getting fitted for a device to keep me from grinding my teeth. I figure I will wind up with really strong jaws and no teeth otherwise.

Peter, it is different for everybody but I agree with you about this one. It's a complete experience and I think the opening bars entice you into that experience. Good choice.

Yes, the full body immersion wouldn't be possible without the sensuality. One that does that for me is Sting's 'When We Dance'. Gorgeous.

Take care,
Mary

Mary,
I really want to thank you for your words.
I'm sorry for not thanking you sooner, but I really had to think about what I did...I mean, I've never been so open (like my previous post) before. I first wasn't sure if I did the right thing, by throwing every word of pain and fear that I have "on the corner". I felt a little ashamed of it, for being so open, but now I realise that it really did make me feel better!

Your words really mean so much to me and yes I hope and believe too that this is the end of one path for me and the beginning of a new one...
Ofcourse the fear is still there, it isn't just gone by talking about it, but knowing that I don't have to carry this by my own anymore, makes me feel more secure...
Thank you for making me tell my story....

Kim,
I also want to thank you for your words.
No, I really don't mind that you wrote it, I am very glad you did, words like that mean so much to me...
I tried to thank you personally by sending you a email, but it's undeliverable.
Maybe next time...
thanks to you too!!

To answer 'Tonight Question'????
I don't know, I quess maybe I'm too young to talk about it, I mean when I look back 10 years, I was a 16 year old girl, ofcourse I had dreams back then, but I really don't remember what they were and if they came true....?

What I do know is that today I am happy about the way I live. I have a boyfriend how I love very much, we live in a beautiful house, we build just by ourselves, I love my parents, my brother, other family and friend and they love me...

And the future:
The only dream I have for the future right now is being able to stay alife as healthy and as long as possible and enjoy the love of my boyfriend, parents, brother, friends and family.

I think that each morning I wake up again is a gift, I live from day to day at this moment and try to enjoy it as much as I can.
I know it's not really positive, it isn't the right way of living and I'm sure those thoughts will become better with a little help, and more time, but that's just the way I'm thinking about it right now....

Love to everyone,

Monika

Paul, the following paragraph :” Has the best already happened or will I, can I, do better?”
A lot of that depends on your definition or perception of what "the best" is or is supposed to be or perhaps even can be. I personally don't think there is just one version thereof. The best keeps happening all throughout life, taking on different forms and shapes as we too change and alter our perspectives, views, thoughts, person, body and mind. I guess you have experienced a lot of bests in your life and will experience a lot more as you continue to journey along your life's path. And why succumb to the pressure of expecting to do better than you already have and do? Unless you can let it happen naturally, unencumbered, unforced, that would be different. I think taking stock about the past and the future is also a very normal and natural occurrence in everyone’s life at different points in time, especially at those when we seek new direction. Perhaps the answer to your question lies in doing a little bit of all the things you’re contemplating, taking the lessons and wisdoms from the past with you into the present and remain open minded and positive about the future.

Abeth, congratulations on baby #3, I wish you a happy and healthy pregnancy!

Thanks to all of you for your support and love on the previous post. I still haven’t talked to my boss (that’s now rescheduled for Thursday at 2 pm) but instead I talked to my dissertation advisor (who’s in the same department) and that was much better. He’s such a great guy, mentor, colleague and friend and so much more supportive and understanding. He had great advice, made me express my anger and hurt and made me feel okay about it. He’s completely freaked out now, because he’s never seen me like that—this angry and hurt—but he also told me that I’m not a quitter and face problems head on and solve them and that I have the strength to deal with this as well. We will see, but I know that I REALLY don’t want to give up my career because of her. He also told me that I need to tell her how her words and criticism are shutting me down in the classroom—because they are—that will be very tough. But I feel much better and calmer at the moment, taking lots of deep and calming breaths and am treating myself to a (mini) vacation at home.

Nic, ever heard of Linkenheim? That’s home to me and since you are from the same area, at least from an US perspective :) you might actually know where that is. Thanks for asking me to shift my focus and perspective on the students and away from my boss. Usually, I get along fine with the students, but I also don’t expect to get along with everyone of them in terms of being their best friend.

Jo, I’m sorry that you and your husband had to experience this arrogance from his Ph.D. committee. I so often find myself stunned into disbelief by what is going on in academia. I sincerely hope that I don’t end up like that. Glad you found a way to let go of the anger and frustration. Good for you!

Kelly, how is your recovery going? Inn, glad that Desiree is doing better & Diane, I hope you are doing much better as well. You all continue to be in my thoughts and I’m sending you more healthy, healing energy.

Monika, as I told you in my email, I’m so proud of you for putting your story out there and being this honest with yourself, thus freeing yourself of the fear of hiding behind fear and allowing others to support you.

Mary and Peter, I know what you mean about being transported into that other space through music. It happens to me often and it’s fantastic! How are you doing?

Marge, glad you had such a wonderful time with your family. Logan (and everyone else of course) is so blessed to have you in their lives.

Hello to Michelle, Inn, Katalina, Dhiana, Vicky, Maile, Kim, Tim, Sherrlyn, Sally, Claire, Julie, Mary Ann and everyone else who stops by here. Looking forward to Grandma Mil getting back into the discussion when she gets back to FL, I think today. Special Hello to Paul, Andrea, Elise, Emilie, & Erin. Wishing you all well!

Hello

Monika I am having a lot of problems with my e-mails at the moment, sorry about that. Once it is back working again I will contact you if that is OK.
I think what you wrote on the bottom of your message is so true. Every day is a gift and all any of us can do is live day to day and try to treasure every moment of it.
Take good care of yourself
Love Kim

Hello Evelyn I hope you are also very well and to every one else hello to you all.
Love Kim

Maile
My horse is retired now, and I will be taking him to a farm where he can live out his life. He is 25 yers old, and I have had him for 18 years. We have had quite a lot of adventures together. He has what they call Wobbles. It is caused by a pinched nerve in the spine above their kidneys. When he canters, his hind end swings out and he gets scared. So he is no longer really reliable to ride. It can be corrected, but is very expensive. If he were younger I would consider it.

I have been in horses since 1975. I did some showing, mostly in english, but my daughter did most of the showing. She did English, Western, 3-day eventing and medievil jousting with live steel.

I am getting out of horses, as I turn 65 in June, and it is time to move on to other adventures. I still have friends with horses so I can go clean out a stall once in a while and groom their horses.

Monika
Each morning when I wake up, I say the following prayer. "God whether I get enything else done today, I want to make sure that I spend time loving you and loving other people--because that's what life is all about. I don't want to waste this day. Why should God give me another day if I'm going to waste it?

Take Care everyone.
Marge

Evelyn,

Don't let anything stop you from getting that Ph.D. My husband and I were physically, emotionally and financially drained after 10 years. The world lost a great teacher, don't let it lose another one.

HiYa everyone!! I am amazed at such a prolific and diverse group! Very interesting to read everyone's comments. I just stumbled onto this website and am really enjoying it. Like everyone else that walks this wonderful earth, I have had my share of ups & some serious downs. I lost a very high-paying job that I absolutely loved in 1996 due to a lay-off and really changed my ways of living since then. I always had to earn the almighty dollar to support myself, house, lifestyle...needed to know that the security of a paycheck had to be there. The journey of the last 8 years has taught me to no longer fear the future nor long for the past. I know I'm blessed to have come out of the struggle intact (with my home.) Instead of the security of a long-term job and regular paycheck, I moved around to different types of work trying to find my place in life again. The temporary job I loved the most was driving a towncar...that was a total hoot, met the nicest people. I guess I'm sharing this info. because 5/13 was my one-year anniversary at a job that has such promise in my old line of work. I am fortunate to experience life's silver lining. That saying "one day at a time" is so true. I think I can withstand any storm at this stage of my life now. My best to everyone... M.A.

Hi Monika! It's great to hear that you're starting to feel better. Seeing every day as a gift is a pretty good way to approach things, I reckon. Wishing you lots of good days. Love to you.

Hi Evelyn! I'm doing great thanks. Sorry to hear you're still being challenged at work with your boss. You must have earned some kind of medal at this stage for endurance under pressure! Your advisor is right. No-one could accuse you of being a quitter. Hang in there and keep believing in yourself. I'll be thinking of you on Thursday and taking some empathic, deep and calming breaths on your behalf to add to yours! Good luck.
PS I don't suppose you're getting any time for CWG?

Hello back to Inn!

Welcome to Mary Ann and hi to everyone else in PC.

Take care all,
Mary

Arminda -

Wonderful post. Thank you for telling it like it is.

Everyone has the right to speak their mind on these boards - at least that is what I keep reading in all the posts.

Robin

Mary Ann welcome to this great place. I am quite new here but I have been made very welcome by everyone. They are all a great bunch of people and I am sure you will enjoy contributing to this site, I do. Happy 1st Job Anniversary. I think you are doing the right thing by taking one day at a time, that is all any of us can do. Be happy in what you are doing
Take care
Kim

Jo (Texas) How did you get on at the dentist? I hope it wasn't too uncomfortable for you. My e-mails are working again so I will be able to write later today.
Chat later.

Hello to every one have you all had a good day?

Marge Happy Birthday for June, I hope you have great fun in your new adventures, enjoy every moment.
Kim

We're baaack, everyone!

Grandma Mil here, basking in the aftermath of a marvelous visit up north for the Bat Mitzvah (Jewish confirmation of a 13 year old girl) of one of our granddaughters.

The week was filled with great pleasure and a chance to spend time with our two daughters and their families, and other family members, like nieces and nephews. Our daughter in Israel with her large family was not able to attend.

I cannot go into much detail, for there were so many memorable moments, especially of pride and joy, on seeing our family. Of course, we were treated with the greatest respect and much love, befitting our age and stage of life!

One story I have to relate, for it truly is a Mil
story: During the elaborate luncheon and dance following the religious services, our granddaughter called friends and relatives up, one by one, to a table where candles were lit in their honor. It was supposed to be a quiet and lovely moment, as our granddaughter mentioned each. Ellie and I were the first to be called up.

Our granddaughter told everyone, "I call up my Grandma Millie and my Grandpa Elliott from Florida...I remember when I was in Florida as a kid, I saw my Grandma lipsync during a show, and I thought she was Barbra Streisand...."

With that, the disc jockey put on the rendition of Ethel Merman's "Everything's Coming Up Roses" in order to introduce Ellie and me...I bounded up to our granddaughter, and started lipsyncing to that one, (which I knew very well!) The kids went wild, and the adults were on their feet, cheering and clapping, and the disc jockey played the whole song through! It was an incredible, unrehearsed, (and unplanned) moment, and was caught by the video guy.

Our daughter and son-in-law were very thrilled, and assured me later that everyone thought it was one of the highlights of the affair.

A business associate of our daughter told me later, "Millie, when I grow up, I want to be just like you!" A very tall man shook my hand and said, "Millie, you rock!" What can I say? I thanked them, and hoped the video tape doesn't show this Grannie making a fool of herself...at least I was sober! (I don't drink anyway!)

Peter, our granddaughter was adopted at birth, the only child of our daughter and husband. She has grown into a beautiful and self assurred young lady. She does well in school, but also, she is a swim champ (the breast-stroke is her specialty) on her swim team which has sent many of their stars onto Olympic competitions.

When all you "chickies in my pen" come to the Paul Convention in February, I promise to be as
outrageous as possible...(on stage, anyway.)

To all the newbies, I am now directing a large variety show to be on stage in February, called "Follies 2005" and about 15 people here on PC have professed interest in coming to Florida, spend the weekend meeting each other, and then seeing the show at the end of the weekend.

Even Paul has said he would love to attend, if he could. Now, that would be a major event here in our retirement village, for I have shown "Strictly Ballroom" here 5 times on our large screen since 2001, and all the seniors that come to my shows know about Paul, and yes, about the plans for a Paul Convention, and you should hear the ohs, and ahs.. Tim is hoping to do a tap routine during "Follies."

The dates are (approximately) Febr. 5th, 6th, and 7th, 2005. The weather in Florida is generally beautiful, even swimming weather in heated pools, and I have contacted some hotels about rates, two in a room. If anyone wants more information, let me know.

Paul, special love and best wishes on your newest project. Meryl Streep and Sam Neill starred in the movie made in 1988..."A Cry In The Dark" filmed in Australia..what a story!

Warm thoughts to Kelly and Diane...

Peace and Love, everyone,

The Mil

Robyn:
Thank you. I appreciate your support. I usually don't post things online very often but after seeing Strictly Ballroom I wanted to find out more about Paul and to see what other movies he might have been in. So, I did a Google search and I found this website and I found out a lot about Paul. After reading some of Paul's thoughts, I felt that I should write because he sounds like he is at a crossroads in his life. I can remember being at a crossroads in my life but then I found Jesus and my life changed for the better!

Thanks again.

-Arminda

Will "Through My Eyes" be televised on USA television? I understand "A Cry In the Dark" was very slanted against the mother. The acting was great, but the evidence against her was so thin.

Well……………. I went to the doctor yesterday and they diagnosed me with SARCOIDOSIS, its an Auto –Immune disease.You have very few white cells in your body fighting infection. It is basically too much protein build up in your lungs. No know cause and no cure. They said they have never known of a case that cause lymphnods in the neck like mine. It is usually lymphnods in the body that are infected. (I’m special) It makes you fatigued a lot, and you get sick a lot and very easily. (boy, this explains why I am always sick and tired and my chest and lungs hurt all the time) So….. no dairy products, msg or sodium and no sugar substitutes like equal and no diet pop. (I will lose weight for sure!) I went for all kinds of tests and chest x-rays and blood work yesterday, but there will be more in the future. Nothing is changing for me except I have to make time to rest. I can’t go go go go like I am used to. I missed last night’s baseball game in Niles and I am not going to baseball this weekend. (did you faint?). A gal from work found a kick butt web site that gives a lot of info , all the things I have been experiencing are in there, headaches , short term memory loss, dizziness, metal taste in mouth, irritated eyes, the runs (yuk), my chest hurting, my lungs hurting, cant breathe. The “worried, or panicked or paranoid” feelings are normal, depression , and oh yeah,, this makes you cry easy. HELLO!!!!!! I cry at the drop of a hat! Now I know I am not crazy. My neck is very sore and my nerves are trying to regenerate, I still have droopy mouth when I smile or laugh or talk, but it could be worse, it may get better over time.
Nothing to complain about.

My cousin died yesterday from AIDS related illneses. I found out when I was at the doctor. He was suffering so bad, it is a blessing for him.
My aunt was actually telling me "sorry for what you are going through". I couldn't belive she could think of me in her state of mind. I could not imagine losing a child.

Clay is in his cast for another 3 weeks then if it has fully healed, he can be out of it walking around but not playing. 2 weeks later he can start playing a little, get some at bats and first base but no pitching for the rest of the season. The way he is going, he will be out completely the whole season. I caught him swinging his team mate over his head like a wrestler! The kid never learns.

Mil, how are you?
Diane, How are you feeling? How are you recovering?
Tim, hows the job?

Paul, how is your "summer job" going? the acting , the beer, the restarant/pub?

Love to all at the corner.

Kel

Hello All,

Kelly-Wow-you have had such a time of it but now you have an answer. Is there any manageable treatment available to you? I am sorry to hear about your cousin

Monika-How are you doing?

Jo-I cracked up when I read about your "dental device"!

Welcome to anyone who is new!!

Mil-Welcome back and glad to hear that that trip went fantasically!

Thanks for the congratulations from everyone. If I'm calculating properly-my due date is the end of January 2005. I've had a scare though-I've spotted some. Went to the doctor and had blood checked and will go again tomorrow. Now that we have a baseline of pregnancy hormone-the next test will hopefully show a double in numbers. No spotting today. She thinks that it just was probably implantation...go figure. My heart is beating so quick right at this moment. But, I've done some self talk and have come to the conclusion that I will take this pregnancy day by day and enjoy it. I know that religion was a hot topic in some earlier posts but here's my two cents....whoever is in charge will see fit to guide me and my husband through this pregnancy.
The other good news is that I haven't spotted all day!

To anyone that I missed-I'm sending hugs and hellos!

Abeth

Abeth,

CONGRATS TO YOU !!! I SPOTTED TO WITH MY SON, AND ALL TURNED OUT WELL.

THE ONLY TREATMENT FOR ME RIGHT NOW IS STEROIDS WHEN I HAVE FLARE UPS. HOPEFULLY ONCE I EMBRACE MY NEW LIFESTYLE, I WILL GET BETTER.

CONGRATS AGAIN TO YOU MOMMMY!!

KEL

Grandma Mil,
It's great to have you back!!

Abeth,
I am feeling pretty good right now.
Ofcourse I am still scared, but I finally can talk about it, and that makes it easier to carry.
Thanks for asking.
Concratulations on having a baby!!!
My best friend is also pregnant, she's having her baby in October.

Jo,
How's your husband doing???
Hope he's going to be alright!!
Guess what I did yesterday???? I took a ride on my motorcycle. I've said ones before that I didn't ride that much, because the weather wasn't that great, but the only reason I didn't ride is (ofcourse) because of my fear....
but I really took a ride on my motorcycle yesterday!!!!
I DID IT!! AND IT WAS GREAT!!!!

Welcome to Mary Ann,
You'll find out that this is a wonderful place with wonderful people!!

Kelly,
It's good that you finally know what's wrong with you!!

Kim,
You said in your post that you were having problems with your email and if it is working again you would contact me if it's OK with me.
Ofcourse it's OK with me!!! Just let me know if it's working again, so I can send you my 'undeliverable' email.

Evelyn,
I truly hope that the meeting with your boss was ok. I thought about you a lot this day.

Peter,
How are you doing??
Haven't 'seen' you for a while.
I hope everything is ok!!
I am still thinking about the way you explained/talked about Australia...wonderful!!

Hello to Mary, Marge, Paul and everyone I've missed.

Love to everyone here on PC...

Monika

Welcome back Millie! It sounds like you had an amzing time. The 'Mil moment' I can picture clearly in my head. You're a natural! No doubt. Looking forward to FIF!

Kelly, it must be a relief to finally know what the problem is. Now that you know what you're dealing with, I hope you can find some kind of equilibrium with it. Staying positive has to be beneficial and when it comes to that, you're an inspiration. I hope your neck starts to feel better soon. Wishing you healing.
Sorry to hear about your cousin.

Diane, I hope you are doing okay. Thinking of you.

Hi Monika! Best to you.

Janice, I miss you! Hope you are well. You too Lori.

Peter, I'm guessing you are busy with work. If you are - wishing you some peaceful, non-thinking moments in between.
BTW, do you like any Van Morrison songs?

Abeth, I hope all continues to go well for you.

Michelle, best wishes to you, as always.

Love to Paul and to all of you here,
Mary

Monika my e-mails are now working correctly so you can send me that "undeliverable" e-mail now. I'm looking forward to chatting with you.
Take care
Kim

Welcome back Grandma Mil it sounds like you had a wonderful time.

Hi to everyone else on PC. Have a nice day!

Kelly, I wish you the best. You will find your way and you have a strong support team with you.
Abeth, congrats on the the baby.
Hello to Evelyn and Mary and a special hello back to Katalina. Drop a line will ya?
Dez was moved today to a rehab facility near home. She is doing well. Thanks everyone for caring.
peace
Inn

Monika,

GOOD FOR YOU! You ride that motorcycle girl! Keep it up and ride all the time.

My husband is doing great. It is hard to believe that he actually had emergency heart surgery six weeks ago. The stress test has finally been scheduled for June 3. I will be glad when that is done with.

Hello to everyone.

Paul,
Read your most recent post and can relate. There are certain points in everyone's life which require periods of self-reflection. Which make us look backward to see far we have come. Which make us look forward and wonder how far we still have to go.

I find this poem helpful in putting things in perspective.
As preface the following:
Ithaka was the beloved island home of the legendary Greek hero, Odysseus (from whom we get the word odyssey). After playing a leading role in the Trojan War, Odysseus roamed the world for 10 years, having adventures, meeting challenges, and learning lessons that profoundly changed him. Today, an odyssey means a long (often exhausting) exhilaration and/or excruciating transformative journey.

For me, the essential meaning is that life is what we make of it. Ithaka may be the destination but, the journey is the reward.

Ithaka
--Constantine Cavafy

When you set out on your journey to Ithaka,
pray that the road is long,
full of adventure, full of knowledge.
The Lestrygonians and the Cyclops,
the angry Poseidon - do not fear them:
You will never find such as these on your path,
if your thoughts remain lofty,
if a fine emotion touches your spirit and your body.
The Lestrygonians and the Cyclops,
the fierce Poseidon you will never encounter,
if you do not carry them within your soul,
if your soul does not set them up before you.

Pray that the road is long.
That the summer mornings are many, when
with such pleasure, with such joy
you will enter ports seen for the first time;
stop at Phoenician markets,
and purchase fine merchandise,
mother-of-pearl and coral, amber and ebony,
and sensual perfumes of all kinds,
as many sensual perfumes as you can;
visit many Egyptian cities,
to learn and learn from scholars.

Always keep Ithaka in your mind.
To arrive there is your ultimate goal.
But do not hurry the voyage at all.
It is better to let it last for many years;
and to anchor at the island when you are old,
rich with all you have gained on the way,
not expecting that Ithaka will offer you riches.

Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage.
Without her you would have never set out on the road.
She has nothing more to give you.

And if you find her poor, Ithaka has not deceived you.
Wise as you have become, with so much experience,
you must already have understood what Ithaks mean.

"Life is not meant to be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming.............WOW, WHAT A RIDE!!!!!"

Jo:
LOVE your quote on life! I must add it to my favorites as it is very true and pretty funny if you think about it. Thanks for the pick-me-up!

Arminda:
You have me mixed up with our other Robin. I did not respond to you and I don't agree with all your views.

Abeth:
Congratulations on your pregnancy! I'm sure you must be so happy. Good luck and good wishes.

Grandma Mil:
Glad you had a nice time. You are so lucky to have so many loving and special people in your life. We should all be so lucky!

Kelly:
So glad you finally know what your diagnosis is. At least now you know what you're dealing with and can tackle it head on.

Where is Janice and Hanh???

Peter:
I was watching a show recently wherein an Aussie priest was assigned a job in Ireland. Many people did not take well to him and one of them called him a "kiwi". The priest responed, "I'm not a kiwi, I'm an Aussie." Do you know what they meant? I have not heard of this term before.

Paul:
How are you doing? Did Andrea do her guest appearance at the ballet yet? You must tell us all about it.

Hello to Tim, Mary, Michelle, Kat, Evelyn, Monika, Inn, Mary and all others here I might have missed.

Love to all,
Robyn

hi to all at PC today.

Welcome back G. Mil! I loved reading your post.
I'm definitely planning for Feb 2005 Follies. I have a friend in Orlando that I could visit at same time...that would be my first trip to that part of the country.

Hugs to Inn, Kelly, Abeth (wishing you the best as a new mommee), hi to evelyn and diane and lady Dhi and Marge and Mary, Tim and Peter and of course hi to Paul and family.

Special "hi" back to Inn.
How are ya dahlin?! Miss you!
I'm going to have lots more time now...things are settling down and I can get back online more often post work hours. I'll PM ya.

I'm house/doggie sitting for my sis and hubbie in Maui (again). That time of year again.
One of these days I'm going...lol

general shout out to anyone here on PC that either is thinking about or has gotten their massage license? I'm considering this to supplement my day job and may go to evening school but am wanting to talk with people who have done it or are in the process of doing this.
My area of interest goes along with sport-training arenas and massage and/or naturopathic areas and holistic treatments...maybe coupled with someone who does nutrition or acupunture...Im just exploring options at moment, but again, would love to hear from someone with experience firsthand....

Hugs a latte,
katalina de seattle (or rather Edmonds)
*wink n a grinn*

Jo...i loved your idea about the sliding in at full blast in a hurting, wornout body saying Oh WHAT a RIDE! that made me really smile.
oh to really fully live LIFE at full blast!

gonads (or female equivalent) to the wall, petal to the metal..lolol

Hugs,
Kat

Katalina, on the last day of our visit up north, our daughter took us to lovely old shopping center in Norwalk, Ct., and we browsed in the antique stores area called SoNo...then, our daughter asked us if we would like some coffee in an antique coffee house, and we said, of course.

Latte was on the menu, and I thought of you, ordered one, dietetic, of course, and enjoyed it immensely. So, you can see, PC was not out of my mind at all! You are on my FIF list already! By the way, Julie is studying massage therapy, and she's off to a wonderful start!

I told Ellie just this afternoon that with the Bat Mitzvah over, we will now look forward to the FIF ONLY nine months away...I could have a baby, (yeah, for sure, Grannie) but glad Abeth is the expectant mother instead! Congrats, Abeth, and be sure to take your calcium, and stay off your feet whenever you can!

Robyn, yes, Ellie and I are very fortunate to have been able to attend our granddaughter's confirmation. I worried needlessly about hitches that could have arisen, but none did, thank God. I guess one could say we were truly blessed.

Peace and Love,

The Mil

thx for the memory G. Mil! lol *grinn*
i love to go antiquing out here....i live in a cute little part of town that has quite a few antique malls...i could (and do) spend hours there at a time, and every time i visit a new place i like to check out the antique malls. I have a blue/creme Currier & Ives winter dinnerware set too from my Dad's mother and I'm always looking for new pieces to add or replace the cracking ones... I have a small collection of ruby red Avon glass and milkglass. i started collecting a few teasets too...i have a secret girly side i guess...lol

thinking of you and curious about Florida. My buddy wants to take my to the (sp?) Epcot Center. I would love to see it. I'm a beach baby too. Was a former lifeguard/swimming instructor - infants - adults (~7 summers) and swim teamer (from age 4 on up)and taught water safety. I learned to windsurf, waterski, kayak and am curious about kiteboarding...do you have any favorite beaches out that way?

Hugs,
Katalina

Hi everyone,

Marge,
A little late respond, but I liked your quote about (not) wasting days!!
I am finaly realising now that that is exactly what I did this year: I've wasted my days by letting that fear controll my life.
It's very hard for me to admit it, but I am happy now that I did...

Mary,
I like Van Morrison!!

Inn,
It's great to hear that Desiree has moved to a rehab facility near home. I'm still sending her healing thoughts!!

Abeth,
How are you doing?
Aren't you sick???? I had a colleague how was pregnant and she was sick her whole pregnancy. I told you that my best friend is also pregnant and she isn't sick at all...Hopefully you aren't sick eiter!!

Jo,
I am glad your husband is doing great!
btw, what is a stress test, I mean what are they doing than?? Is that a test where you have to run and ride a bicycle while they put you on monitors/machines??? Hopefully everything will be alright!!

Rob"y"n!!
I also wondered (in a few post ago) where Janice and Hanh are. I miss them too!!

About that "kiwi" I might be crazy, but isn't a kiwi a little bird from New Sealand?
I've heard ones that people from New Sealand call themselves Kiwi's???
I don't know if that's true...

Kim,
Did you receive my email now???
I think you have, because it didn't came 'undelivered' back to me.

Evelyn,
How did your meeting with your boss go?

Hope everyone has a great weekend
Love to everyone here on PC...

Monika

Hi Robyn,
I've been thinking and reading again what I've said about Kiwi's and New Zealand...
If you this about it this way, it does make sense:

- I'm not a "Kiwi", I'm an Aussie...

* I'm not a New Zealander, I'm an Australian....

Maybe I was right????, Peter, Paul, please help us out here!!!

Monika

I ment: if you "think" about it this way

Monika yes I did get your e-mail, thank you for your lovely message. I have also e-mailed you so I am hoping you got mine too.
Yes I think New Zealander's are Kiwi's and fruit, very nice!

Hello to everyone on PC I hope you are all well.

Paul I hope life is treating you well and you are finding work. I do wish we could get more of your films here in the UK, I'll have to keep watching Strictly Ballroom :)

Take care
Kim

Monika,

The best that I understand a stress test is that they take pictures of your heart sort of like a catscan before, during and after the test. Then they insert an IV in your arm and put you on a treadmill to elevate your heart rate. I don't know if they take pictures again before they inject the thalium (I think that is a dye), but at some point they inject the thalium through the IV. I think the point of the whole thing is to tell how well the blood is actually flowing through your arteries and if there is a blockage. A woman that my husband works with was going to take an aerobics class at work, but they said that she had to pass a stress test first. She started the test and they stopped it and sent her immediately to the doctor. She had to have two stents (pieces of wire mesh that are inserted through the groin to the artery in the heart) put in her heart for blocked arteries. They actually make a small puncture in the groin and run a small hollow wire all the way up to your heart. Then these stents are released with sort of spring like action that locks them in place. This was the way the doctor explained it to me anyway. You are completely awake during the whole operation.

Hey Katalina! Looking forward to your PM.
Jo I love your quote too, I guess that's how I did it up to this point. I've had to slow down a bit now though.
Monika, thanks for the continuing support. She was doing well tonight too.
Grandma Mil, I so hope I can make it to FIF. I'm still planning and god willing I will be able to make it. It's going to be so much fun.
High hopes.
Peace

Monika,

I meant to add that my husband didn't actually have a blockage, he had a tear. They told me the term for it is "the widow maker". It is what that Russian ice skater Sergei Grinkov had in 1996.

Hi everyone!
I am tired and cranky.

The kids are gone. We got the garage sale off to a great start. They had so many donations this year they had to quit accepting donations on Wednesday.

Now I have a horse show office to work this weekend. Thought it was next weekend. I think I will sleep all day Monday. I deserve it.

Monika
I'm glad you liked the quote. I say it every day.
I know what your are going through with your boss. I too have had my share of stinkers that made my work life hell. My attitude was that I would be soooo nice and sweet to them that they would want to throw up.

Gotta Go, Love to all, and take care.
Marge

I came across this site a couple of days ago, expecting some pictures maybe a bio, instead, I found something that I really needed to hear. I'm about to go to college... i don't know what I want to do, or how to begin. Right now the only emotions/life I feel are from reading books, watching movies.. i'm living vicariously and I hate it, every day seems like it's the one from yesterday. I don't what path i will take, i don't know what will make me happy. i don't want to be stuck in materialism, lose perspective, become something typical and useless. so hello everyone! thanks for helping me wake up out of a rough day.

Hello Marge,

I think you mixed me up with some one else, because I don't have a problem with my boss, nor at work, I love my work and my boss is really nice to me!! Yes I had some problems in the past with my previous boss, but that's 3 years ago.
Maybe I said something that caused the misunderstanding??? I don't know, and if I did than I am sorry because I didn't mean to cause misunderstandings...

Jo,
It sounds very painful and awful, that stress test!!

Kim,
Yes, I did get your email too, thank you!!

Love to everyone,

Monika

Katalina, the Epcot Center in Disneyworld could be the eighth wonder of the world! Go to Google and type "Epcot" and be mesmerized! Disneyworld is 185 miles north from our area, which is near the Ft. Lauderdale area, and the airport.

You, as a swimmer, would appreciate our granddaughter, who just celebrated her Bat Mitzvah.

She too, started as a mere child, and many times she complained about the swim practice after school and on weekends. The years flew by, she persevered (and so did her parents), and today she is the breaststroke expert on her team.

She is self-assured in all parts of her life, and that could be part of the discipline that swimming brought to her. If I sound like a proud Grandma, you're right!

The beaches in south Florida, around Miami Beach, are deemed the best in the world. The sand is soft and white, and the water sparkling blue. Further north, where we live, the beaches aren't bad either!

Julie, who lives closer to the beach than we do, is planning a day at the beach and a visit to the surrounding shops with all our FIF guests. I don't think there is too much surfing like in California, but who knows?

(We old folks are just content to use the heated and sparkling clean pools around our condos.)

Inn, you have been on the FIF list since its beginning. The list of wanna-comes is growing! Right now it is 17!

Peace and Love,

The Mil

Jo and Monika:

I had a stress test a few weeks ago because I had "dyspnea on exertion" (fancy term for shortness of breath when you do stuff like going up the stairs)! It sounds more frightening than it really is and if you have heart disease, it can induce chest pains. I had the one where they put you in this machine to map your heart action first. Then they inject a dye into your arm and you have to wait while it circulates through your body. Then, they put me on a treadmill and watched my heart rate as I walked. That was hard for me, especially towards the end. I was SO out of breath and had some chest pain. After I rested for awhile, I went back into the machine and it traced the dye through my heart. Then I went home. If you can't walk the treadmill, they will inject something to make your heart rate increase, just as it does when you walk the treadmill. Then they give you something else to get the rhythm back to normal. I could've had my choice of test and opted for the treadmill. There is a doctor there with you through the test, so if anything happens, you can be treated right away. My test came out positive for coronary artery disease, so I will have to watch so it doesn't get worse. If it does, then I will have to have the angioplasty as you decribed with the needle in the groin.

But, enough about me! Glad to see some familiar faces who have been gone for a while, and glad to see some new ones.

Hope all are well and are enjoying the weekend. Tomorrow my twin granddaughters turn 9 years old and I will be finishing up last minute decorations, pick up the cake and finish wrapping their gifts. I'm like a little kid myself when I'm with them. They make me smile and keep me young...

Smiles to all today,
Sally C.

Sally C, enjoy every moment you can with your grand daughters they soon grow up. I hope they have a wonderful birthday.
My sister has 4 gorgeous girls from the ages of 3 - 13 but sadly I don't get on with my sister any longer so I now don't get the chance to see the girls. The last time I saw them was nearly 2 years ago so they have probably grown and changed from when I last saw them. I always try to keep in touch but my sister stops them from making contact. I had some great times with them so I am thankful for that.
Enjoy tomorrow
Love
Kim

Thx for the rundown of Florida beaches, G. Mil!
I can't wait! I think the highlights will be meeting you and watching your wonderful Follies and putting faces and smiles to the PC gang finally. BTW: your granddaughter sounds like a jewel. Yes, swimming is a fantastic allover body (and strong mental discipline) sport. Congrats on her bat mitzvah as well. :-)
thx for the info on Kelly is it? for the massage...I have narrowed the choices down to 3 schools. I'm getting some good information thus far. We shall see where I end up going. I'm definitely trying to go for a school that has its accreditation. I'm looking at Seattle Massage School (Ashmead), Brenneke, or the Brian Utting School of Massage. So far those seem to be the top 3 here from what I've gathered. Now it comes down to grant/loan decisions...:D

Hi Inn! I'll try to write today...
Seattle is getting some light misty rain again...It has been quite a while....we have needed it. I may go for a run with one of the dogs I'm watching and just feeeeeel the mist cooling as I burn off some steam and try these muscles again...push to the limit.
Wishing you and your family well dear Inn. Big hugs, Kat

Sending out warm wishes for a lovely weekend to all of the PC gang.

latte luv,
Katalina

Katalina, Julie is the one that is taking beginning courses in Massage Therapy. She lives in Florida, not far from us, so when I hear from her by phone, I will tell her to contact you personally.

BTW, last year, on our 50th wedding anniversary, our kids gave us a paid-in-full trip to New York, and we chose to see "42nd St." on Broadway, which was just fabulous.

Greg Miehle, who used to write to us here on PC learned that we were coming, and arranged a private backstage tour for us. One of the dancers from the show gave us the tour.

Greg happens to be a massage therapist to the Broadway stars, and was working as the therapist for the cast of "Hairspray" the last time we heard from him, which proves that a career in massage therapy can lead one to very interesting jobs!

I had a full rehearsal for Follies today, and everyone in the cast seemed to enjoy watching the acts get better and better...still lots of work to do, but the costume lady has already found a pattern for my costume as Momma Morton in
"Chicago" as I lipsync, "Ask any of the chickies in my pen, they'll tell you I'm the biggest.....mother hen...." etc., etc.

Peace and Love,

The Mil

Monika,

I don't think the stress test is painful (just the IV, I hate those) and my husband said that he couldn't feel anything during the surgery because they had given him a local to deaden the puncture area. The only pain he had was back pain and he said that laying on a hard table during the surgery was unbearable.

Grandma Mil thank you for all of your help you are a treasure. It is hard to decide which one to do. I would love to see more of your posters, thank you.
I will be in touch very soon
Love Kim

Monika,
Sorry!
Haven't had much time to catch up on everyone's posts, and probably did get you mixed up with soneone else.

I am tired from today's horse show, but not cranky anymore. It did not rain so the show ran for 10 hours. Lots of office paperwork. Tomorrow we start all over.

Now for a hot shower and bed.
Take care everyone, love to all.
Marge

Marge,
It's okay, you don't need to apologize, there are so many posts, it's sometimes hard for me too to keep up...

Love,

Monika

Ah, Paul...Life's journey - what a trip, eh! I am person who likes structure and makes plans of action. Yikes!! Things NEVER turn out the way I plan. So I make a plan so I can have piece of mind, then let it go and hold on for the consequences. Is this fun? YES!! Is it scary? YES!! Is there any other way for me? NO!! Waiting for things to happen is the toughest part. Right now you are in a holding pattern which is boring and frustrating. I know you will break out! But it may be something in completely different direction that does it for you. Keep the faith.

Millie...Glad you had a great time with your family and that the Follies are moving along - can't wait to see what you cooked up.

Evelyn...Rock on, girl!

Hello to all in PC-land.

Linda

Hi to all PCers! Hope you are all feeling good today. We've had blue skies and sun for the last few days and it has given everyone such a lift. Roll on summer!

Hi Inn! I was so glad to hear about Desiree's progress. Like everyone else, I'll continue to think of her and send her healing thoughts. Wishing you the best too.

Jo, I LOVED your quote too! I hope that's how I feel at the end of the journey. As it stands, I'm trying to catch up on lost time, but it's never too late to get it right. Thanks for that. Wishing your husband good health and healing.

To whoever posted the poem on Ithaka - thank you. It's wonderful.

Robyn, I smiled when I read what you wrote about the Aussie priest in Ireland. Was the show called Ballykissangel by any chance?

Hi Katalina! It's great to hear from you. Good luck with the massage idea. I always think that any holistic therapy like that has benefits not just for the person receiving them but also for those giving them. I hope it works out for you.

Millie, I can't believe FIF is only nine months away. I can't wait to see that costume! Love to you.

Hi Monika! I got to see Van Morrison when he made an unexpected appearance at a Bob Dylan concert many moons ago. He came on at the very end (after the encores) with Bono from U2 and another Irish singer, Leslie Dowdall. They jammed with Dylan for about forty minutes. It was amazing! It made such an impact on me, I can still remember how I felt when it happened! He tends to be a bit unpredictable these days in concert but some of his songs really touch some deep part of me.
Hope you are feeling good Monika.

Sally, hope you enjoyed your time with your granddaughters.

Michelle, hope all is well with you. Love to you.

Evelyn, how did the week go?

Paul, wishing you the best as always.

Welcome to Cat!

Hi to Peter, Tim, Marge, Kim, Linda and everyone here.

Love to all of you,
Mary

Monika & Jo (Texas) Thanks for your e-mails I will be in touch within the next couple of days.

Grandma Millie I have e-mailed you but I think I forgot to reduce the picture, sorry if it takes you too long to download.

Love to everyone else here on PC, I hope you have all had a wonderful day.

Kim

Hi Guys

Well I am in sunny gulf coast Florida. Inlet Beach to be specific, ironically is directly adjacent to "Laguna Beach" you'd think I was in California (NOT).
Anyway the water is crystal blue with no seaweed, no jelly fish. The weather is perfect even a little cool in the evenings.

Auntie Mil, glad your trip to NY was terrific. Everyone needs a super time once in awhile.

School starts in a couple of weeks. A huge committment. It will pay off though.

I'm reading an incredible book, I thought it wouldn't be, but it's actually helping me with all my other issues. Dr. Phils Ultimate Weight Loss Book. He delves into the psychology of weight loss/gain and it corresponds directly to a lot of personal issues. I really like it.

I hope everyone is having a great day and starting a wonderful week.

Well checking out..

The Timmer

Paul writes:

"Has the best already happened or will I, can I, do better? Or is it time to take stock on who I am and step back from the past and go forward anew. And what part of me must I need let go of - if any - to do so."

My aunt once said to me, "you can do anything in life as long as you have energy." I've since resolved to answer this ultimate mid-life question for myself by the measure of energy I feel remains in me for the things still left undone on the blank canvas of my own journey.

Aging -- that harsh and inevitable passage -- has a rhythm and a tide which becomes increasingly stronger as time passes. There are those who are strong and those who are not. So the question becomes: even if you have the will, can you summon the energy to swim against the tide?

Still, what is the worst thing to endure if we drift with the tide?

For myself, I find that the only unendurable thing in life is emotional isolation. It is trite, but Love IS the answer.

Paul writes:

"I would be honest with you and tell you I am a little scared it may not be as good as the past."

That's you, yourself, and you, giving yourself a whole lotta Angst there, Paul. I know that's 3 against 1, but don't let the odds overwhelm.

The truth is: noone who loves you will love you any less if your achievements in the next 40 years do not exceed those of the last. And noone who admires you for the work you have done in the past will admire you any less even if you don't do anything else in the future.

Basically, you have nothing to lose. In the words of a wise existential philosopher (my 14-year nephew): so what?

Sorry if that sounds rude (I don't mean it to be), but so what if what you do in the future do not overpass what you have done in the past? Do we say about Einstein: that loser! He came up with Theory of Relatively but could never developed the Unified Theory!

Now, I'm not saying there's nothing left for you to achieve in life, you old fart (kidding!! kidding!! all you crazy fans reading this, put down your knives! I don't mean to say Paul is old!), but achievements of historic measure are standalones. They are a permanent part of history. Generations will love them over and over again, as we do, but measure not your future against it -- it is a standalone, as all true achievements should be. Let it be and go forth.

Paul ponders: "what part of me must I need let go of ..."

Hanh suggests: All of it. Let each day begin anew. Bring along only the Love that sustains you -- that is all you need (quoth the Beatles), everything else is excess baggage.

I was digging through some old cross stitch work that I did when my husband was in college. (We didn't have a television and I had to do something at night to keep my sanity.) I did one for him concerning his doctorate. It reads "Maybe I'll Make and Maybe I Won't and What If I Do and What If I Don't." Well, he didn't - so what!

Why you should never post your picture on the Internet ...

http://www.smlinks.com/sotw/why/

Keep scrolling when the page loads, it gets better.

Hey Paul,
I am writing from San Francisco, CA. I am sorry to say that there isn't enough of your work over here in the states to enjoy, but I've seen most of it.
You and I are the same age and yet I feel the walk to death could be a swift one so I am filled with the fear that there will never be enough time to do all I dream of...even if I'm lucky enough to have another 40 years. I spent the first half of my life being a nomadic, bohemian looking for one adventure after another. It's been excellent and I don't regret it. Now, some 18 years after I left college in design (costume) I am moving to New York City to follow that dream working on any stage for any wage just to be a part of the magic that is theater...at 40! Fashion still excites me after all this time. Success is determined not by the fame and fortune that might follow your actions in life, but just by the pure joy you get in doing them. I will have to color and cut hair to support my dream and maybe work 16 hours a day or more, and yet it will be a priveledge if I can pull it off, even if it's Off Off Broadway.
You know what thrills you I am sure... That must always be the answer to your question. It's important that you also know that what brings you joy personally, brings joy to millions of others as well. Thanks for sharing of yourself.

Oh, I should say...hello to everyone else. I enjoyed reading many of your posts here. I can see you have kind of a little, online, family and it's charming.
In keeping with the current thought I want to say this and I hope it isn't too sappy, but it this thinking keeps me young and happy.

I can get depressed sometimes and feel like life is more of a struggle than I expected, when this happens I first think about how I have two eyes, a nose and mouth all pretty much in the right spots, then I think that I'm farely cute and that's a blessing, then I think how lucking I am to be born in a First World nation with healthcare, decent jobs, oppurtunities, comfortable living,and equal rights... if that isn't good enough I remember I was born and raised in Southern California where the sun shines most the time, in a home where parents loved me, where we had comforts, food, laughter and friends. I'm surrounded by natural beauty all the time' I can come or go as I please and I get to do what I want career wise or in any other way pretty much. I know what it is to be in love and to be loved back in that way, something many lonely, socially challenged people go their whole lives without knowing.
These may seem like ordinary things everyone has and yet in this world it is a small fraction compared to the impoverished, the sick and starving, the repressed and the damaged, the majority of people on this planet still live in the Dark Ages and suffer greatly because of it. Just to be able to sit down and say...What dream should I follow now? Is something they will never know, much less the dream itself. We have so much already, everything else is glitter in your hair.

Leslie,

I don't think it's odd to have all the blessings that you do, and still be depressed. Sometimes , we have no control over it. I have learned SO much about myself since being diagnosed with my Autoimmune disease. I know why I am the way I am, why I have such a high threashold for pain (because we don't feel pain like normal, It waits and hits us later) depression, ours is not emotional but physical(does that make sense?) I cry at the drop of a hat, I'm parranoid all the time, wel not paranoid but I do worry alot. my body aches all the time,(my husband always said it was because I am heavy, It's not I find out) I have headaches all thetime, I get dizzy and my vision gets blurred. But I have always considered myself blessed. I still do. While I have 1 disease, My mother has 6. 5 of them being Autoimmune diseases with differeent consecuenses. It's hard to feel sorry for myself when she has it so much worse. She fell alst week landscaping and tore up her body pretty bad, Of course I went over and finished hauling the bricks and soil and planint everyting, but she sprained her ankle and broke her foot in the fall! She didn't feel the bad pain till Saturday. 4 days later. I was at her house yesterday cleaning and cooking a weeks worth of food for her and dad. As long as she is around, I consider myself very lucky. But feel bad you get down. I thinks it's normal. I really don't think we can control it. We can try to make it better, but we can't really control it. I am not down that I have this disorder, it is arelief finally knowing "whats wrong with me" why I am the way I am the last 10 years. I have been more down about Clay not being able to play baseball with his broken foot. Yeah, Baseball IS that big a deal in our house. His team continues to lose and the boys continue to greiv the loss of aclay, even though we are still there every game and Clay is on the bench, Its not the same. Just one more of life lessons.

Sounds like your life is pretty good, Keep thinking about the great and positive stuff. It will keep your spirits up, and when you pray, (if you do) praise him for the good things you have and thank him for all the blessings. I try very hard to do this and not requewt anything. I feel like I already have alot.

Love to all on the corner, gotta go get my half aleep daughter out of bed.

Kelly

Mary,
I'm the one who posted Ithaka. Glad you liked it. Seemed appropriate for Paul's self-relective mood.
Hope he finds it helpful.
--Richard

Sorry.
self-relective = self-reflective

Farts and Poops!

Is this a comment on the comments or a comment on the commentators?

Jo,
I think that he/she how posted it is just scared. Someone how give's a anonymous comment like that is just a chicken.

I think everyone has a right to have his own opinion an posts whatever he/she wants, but this is (in my opinion) a post to make us ridiculous.

We shoudn't even react to it, just ignore it....

Monika

Monika,
You are right.

>>Farts and Poops!

I think this is just his/her way of saying that he/she has bowel control problems.

Thanks Richard. I got a good belly laugh out of that!

Gr. Mil, thx...sorry about that...I should re-read posts more...thx for the info about Julie and Greg doing massage.
Yes I'm excited about this...I am looking into this very seriously now and am plotting my grant/aid options. I meet with some ppl in diff schools over the next few weeks and will be going to open house and maybe taking introductory workshops offered for a fee... I am really interested and am contacting others who are doing this or are interested in doing this. I just learned that a coworker has her license and was thrilled to learn that I may be going into it....hmmmm..maybe a future collaborator or potential partner...we'll see....but it sure doesn't hurt to know others in the biz.
I LOVE that Greg does this for VIPs...how KEWL is THAT?!! WheeeeHooooooooo!

Hugs n luvs to all at PC today.
Hi Inn, Hi back to Mary...big *grinns*

ps..i need virtual hugs today...xoxoxoxo to the PC.

latteluv,
Katalina

thx goodness there's FIF to look forward to..
:-)

Kat

You're welcome Jo.

Kat: What is FIF

Hi to all!

Tim, you're right about the commitment, but you're also right about it being worth it. Wishing you huge amounts of positive energy to launch yourself into the course. Good luck!

Hanh, good to hear from you. I really enjoyed your reflections on Paul's post. Very thought-provoking. Thanks.

Kelly, your bravery and positive outlook continue to inspire me. I wish you the best as always.

Hi Richard and welcome!

Leslie, you're so right. Having the freedom to ask 'What dream should I follow now?' is something that can never be taken for granted. BTW, welcome to you too!

Katalina, sending lots of virtual hugs across to you!

Diane, thinking of you and hoping all is well with you.

Love to Paul and to everyone. Hope wherever you find yourself, there is harmony and peace of mind.

Mary

Hello Mary. And thank you.

Richard,
Hello and welcome to PC.
Loved your post about Ithaka.
Laughed about that bowel control problems...

Tim,
It sounds really great, the place where you are now. That beautiful beach, clear blue water.... Enjoy your time before school starts...
Good luck to you!!

Hahn,
It's great to 'see' you back!!!

Katalina,
I am also sending you virtual hugs!

Peter,
are you ok?
haven't heard from you for a while...

Love to everyone,

Monika

Hello to Leslie S. and Richard - two more new additions to Paul's online family!

Hi Hanh,
Glad to see you posting again. You always crack me up!

Mary,
Yes, I had a wonderful time at my grandaughter's birthday. I must confess that I spoiled them terribly, but what are Grammys for anyway?

Tim,
Wish I was there! Get plenty of rest so you can charge full force into school. I just got Dr. Phil's book on weight loss, and he has so many good points that I never thought about. I like him a lot. Do you ever watch his show? LOVE it! Wish he was my shrink!

Kat,
Here's a bunch of virtual hugs and kisses for
you... XXXOOOXXXOOO Take as many as you need.

It's way to hot today for May - 91 degrees for two days in a row. We're waiting for thunderstorms to roll through to cool things off a little tonight. In fact, I just heard a HUGE crash of thunder!! Made me jump out of my seat, so I guess it's here. Gotta get off the 'puter.

Hi to everyone, and as always, a shout out to Paul. Hope things are going well. Anyone heard from Janice Duke? Miss her.

Smiles for everyone,
Sally

Richard, might I ask if you are "Richard Armitage" that posted several months ago? Either way, welcome to you! I've always loved Ithaka.

Big Hugs to Katalina from Chicago!

Monika, I haven't been keeping up with the posts lately, but as I read about your TIA I knew I had to respond. I had a TIA back in 2000! I was walking into a bookstore and felt my right side peripheral vision go fuzzy. The next thing I knew I was unable to speak. When I tried to talk only garbled words came out of me. I remember picking up a book and being unable to read. I focused on the letters and tried to remember what sounds they made, but nothing made sense! I was so afraid and alone! I couldn't have told anyone what was wrong and couldn't remember my phone number to save my life. Finally, after about half an hour it wore off and I felt normal. I saw a neurologist who did every test known to man and they found nothing! The only conclusion they felt comfortable with was that it was probably caused by birth control pills, which I promptly stopped taking. I've had no further symptoms since that day. It was suggested that I take an aspirin every day, so I do that as well as TRY to eat right and stay fit. That's all you can do! I've since found three other women who have had TIAs that were thought to be caused by birth control pills. Who knew? Anyway, please don't let the fear overwhelm you. Do what you can and then just LIVE! My best to you, Monika!

Hello to Jo, Kim, Hanh, Mil, Tim, Leslie, Marge, Kelly, Diane, Dhiana, Peter, Linda, Sally C., Evelyn, Inn, Maile, Abeth, Robyn, Cat, Vicki, Sherrlyn, and all who come to PC!

Mary, thanks for being Who You Are.

Paul, I hope you're loving the journey!

Love to you,
Michelle

To Everyone: Thanks for the welcome to PC.

To Michelle: No, I am not Richard Armitage. I only happened upon PC a week or so ago. Glad you like Ithaka. Seemed an appropriate message for Paul to get at this milepost. Too bad I made a couple of typos, but the message is still intact.

To Paul: Hope all is well and you haven't posted for awile 'cause you're acting/dancing your days away.

xoxoxoxoxoxxoxox to Katalina!! latte love babay! Now I'm really looking forward to FIF...free massage..lol! I know you will be great, who could be more personable?
Hello Grandma Mil,Mary,Monika,Kelly (my best to Clay)Diane,Peter,Timmer and Paul and the rest of the clan.
Welcome to Richard and Leslie.
peace

Sally, I had also been wondering about Janice . I've been in touch with her tonight by email and all is well. She is busy looking for a new job and sends her love to all in PC.

Michelle, likewise to you my friend. Love to you.

Hello back to Inn and hi to Monika.

Richard, if you scroll back up near the top of this thread you'll find Grandma Mil's post where she explains FIF beautfully.

Got sidetracked from an early night but to bed now for sure.

Take care all,
Mary

awwww shux..*baskin in delubbade PC...*
and of course...as soon as i know what i'm doing i will be happy to oblige Inn -free backrub - i know i won't have developed Shiatsu strength for a while..so everyone's safe! lolol

oh mi goodness...i have to say..the other day when i was treated to a pedicure by my sweetheart of a sister Julie, i was so embarrassed...i got super duper Ticklish when the person was massaging and scrubbing the underside of the soles of my feet..Yikes...i was seriously cracking up and unfortunately (red face and all) so was the rest of the salon...oh jeez. Wonder if masseurs/masseuses ever experience cases of the giggles....lol ( i have a feeling they might...)

Hi back to mary, michelle inn, Kelly, Timmer, Marge, richard, and all those sweeties who hang at the PC.

Here's wishing ya'all a happy week...
Muah!

what can i say...from a gal who knows Rain..,
the sun's always out at PC thx to the whole FamDamily! *wink n a grinn*

Katalina

Paul
Your journey is still evolving. You have so much to look forward to. Your daughters graduating from high school and college, getting married, having children and becoming a Grandfather. Wow! Isn't that scarry!! I thought I would never like being a Grandmother, but I am loving it. I am sure Gran Mil can validate this.
Take care & love
Marge

I always loved being a grandmother, Marge, maybe because I was only 44 when our eldest daughter gave birth to her first child in Israel, and went on to have 8 more kids! Now, she's a grandmother herself, and Ellie and I are great-grandparents of 4. We have 12 grandchildren in all, here and overseas, and cherish each one, even though we don't know some of them too well, because of distance, but what the heck, they're ours and we're grateful, and we love them all!

Richard, perhaps you would like to join the Paul's Corner people who are hoping and planning to come to Florida where my husband Ellie and I reside in a large retirement village of 9,000 retirees. Our village is only half an hour from the Ft. Lauderdale, Florida, International Airport.

This "convention" is called "The Paul Convention".

It is in honor of our Paul, who is our guiding light, and whose work and generous spirit has made it possible to bring us all together in friendship.

Kudos also to Cat Connor, who built this site with Paul! Paul has written that if he could, he would love to attend also, but...

Here's the information: The convention is slated for February 5th, 6th, and 7th, 2005. We nicknamed it the "FIF".."Florida in February", or "Follies in Florida." 17 people have written that they would like to attend, and meet each other for the first time. I seem to be the only one that has met 2 already, in person, Julie, who lives nearby in Ft. Lauderdale, and Whitney, from WV, who came in 2003 to meet us and see my "Follies, 2003." Those in-person meeting have been marvelous, and we've drawn close, as if we've known each other for ages!

Now, "Follies 2005" is in rehearsal, and already looks like a real hoot. I am the director and producer, and my cast is made up of 40 seniors, ranging in ages from 65 to 93. They all sing, dance, and emote, and some had professional careers in their former lives.

"Follies 2005" will be final entertainment during the convention, for it will be presented on the last morning, at 10:00 a.m. on February 7th. The show will be in our big 970 seat Theatre. I promised Tim a spot in this special show, right, Tim? Keep practicing, the show is 9 months away!

After this morning matinee, the participants would be able to leave for home for the Ft. Lauderdale Airport is only a half hour away. The ticketed shows for the village residents will be the evenings of Febr. 8th and 9th.

I have chosen a lovely Marriott Courtyard Inn only 15 minutes from the airport, and 10 minutes from our "village" as the headquarters for the convention. Julie is in charge of taking everyone for an excursion to the beautiful beaches around Ft. Lauderdale where she lives. Besides the beaches, there are the the trendy beach shops.

Also, I was asked to show "Strictly Ballroom" on our huge 9 ft. screen in our multimedia auditorium as part of the festivities. Then, there are the heated swimming pools and workout rooms here in our village, plus golf and tennis, and I am sure I can make arrangements for my "chickies."

Richard, if you need more info, please contact me.

Thinking of you all, the 17 that told me you would like to attend, and those that are newbies and may want to attend also. You come from all parts of the United States. Diane from California, and Mary from Ireland said to count them in also, and now, if only Paul and Cat could honor us...

Peace and Love,

Grandma Mil

Grandma Mil,
Thanks for the info and the invite. Unfortunately, I live in Europe so it's not very likely that I will be able to attend.

Used to live in Florida, actually--St. Petersburg/St. Pete Beach, to be precise. I highly recommend the Gulf coast beaches to anyone visiting the state. Clean, soft, white sand and as a rule less crowed than on the Atlantic side.

Again, thanks for the invite. Hope all goes well with FIF preparations.
--Richard

Thanks, Richard, will keep you posted on the FIF
doings anyway!

Grandma Mil

Hello everyone, like Richard I also will not be able to attend FIF (very sad). Living in the UK makes that very difficult. I hope to hear all about it when it is over. Maybe you could all come to the UK and do one!
Hello and welcome to Richard, you will like it on here every one is really friendly.

Grandma Millie, a big thank you to you. I am using one of your pictures you sent to me, now I have to get stitching! I'm looking forward to seeing the end result and will keep you posted with my progress. I have appreciated all the help you have given me, big hugs to you.

Love to you all
Kim

Thanks to everyone for the kind welcome.

Kelly,

I too have an auto-immune disease, but that was diagnosed over 12 years ago and I have beat it into submission if not remission. The trick is lots of exercise and a very healthy diet (organic, low beef, lots of greens and fruits...)as well as keeping your stress levels low (tricky), but things like Yoga, reading, gardening and stuff like that help.
I really don't get depressed anymore and if I do it lasts a very short time. Partly because I have changed the way I think, I stop myself from feeling self pity immediatly, It's a sign of being self-absorbed and I hate that. I did have some therapy which saved me really and the truth is that even though this kind of depression is chemical, your capable of changing your chemical balance through the diet and exercise and if needed medication, (if you prefer not to go that route there are organic supplements like Sam-E, or St. Johns Wart and other things that boost your Seratonin behavior). Just because you now know what you have doesn't mean you need to surrender to it. Read all you can, there are tons of books on the subject and they lay it all out for you and how you can get the best of the situation.
If I ever get depressed anymore, it's about other people or the state of the World, war, child abuse, things like that and the best way to deal with that is to be a part of change and give of yourself in any way you can. For me, I am going to become a Foster Mother. It's something I have thought a lot about and really want to do.
I'm not a Christian, but no one can deny that Jesus understood humanity and how to live in this world together. I do practice his principles which is more than I can say for many of my "Christian" friends.
Thanks for you thoughts and support.

Leslie S.

Hello All!

I just came home after a long day of school and I thought that unwinding here on Paul's corner and drinking a bottle of volvic water would be a good idea. Plus I have to recover from a lousy message I had from a new student.

School's going well. I passed my bones test and I'm onto muscles. As much as I like school i can't wait for it to be done in October. Six hours a day of lecture and clinic is killing me. And I have developed a new respect for week-ends.

For all those thinking of comming for follies next February I highly encourage it. Fort Lauderdale is the place to be during that month. The weather not hot but just right with cool ocean breezes so outdoor activities are a pleasure. The hotel that our dear Grandma Millie has choosen is absolutely outstanding! It's very Florida and very classy as well. Seeing follies and a tour of Fort Lauderdales hot spots will be a blast. So when you think of fun, relaxation, and memorable times think FOLLIES 2005!

Good wishes to Grandma Millie, Peter, Timmer, Kelly, Diane, and everyone else whom I forgot. Paul, Andrea and family!

Take care all

Hello PC,

Richard-My husband and I honeymooned in Clearwater and we explored St. Pete's-loved it!! And, welcome!

Millie-Since baby #3 will be due at the end of January-it looks like I won't be making the FIF. I'm sure it will be a huge sucess. Keep us posted on how it's coming along.

Tim-Or should I call you "superstar"!?! Hope you're doing well. I'm starting to get used to the idea of having 3 children. And, I've gotten better at not caring what people think about it either!

Monika, Kelly, Diane-I hope you're feeling well.

Kelly-The spotting has stopped-huge sigh of relief!!

Peter-Where are you?

Kim-The Cicada invasion has happened but not at my house-thank goodness! But, I did take my girls to the zoo the other day and saw and heard plenty. In fact-when I asked them what animals they saw at the zoo-they told me cicadas!!

Hellos and hugs to Michelle, Jo, Mary, Marge, Inn, Robyn, Maile and anyone else that I may have missed! I now get to blame my "memory" on pregnancy hormones, ha, ha!!

Vicki-My due date should be the end of January. Since I'll be having a c-section-I don't have an exact date yet.

Katalina-Sending an extra hug to you-hope you're okay.

Leslie-There certainly has been alot of interesting talking on this board. The most recent thing that I can relate to is the depression. I am bipolar and it has taken many years to get my life in order and on track. I do take medication but not while I'm pregnant. The medication that I take has not been deemed safe until after the first trimester. But, I have an excellent doctor and have learned soooo much about bipolar, myself, and life in general. I'm like you-things that make me sad/down are child abuse cases, war news, the atrocities that people are capable of inflicting on other human beings. But, I've learned some self talk, too. I felt like I spent my teens and 20's in some zone that I'm unable to identify-maybe hell?!? But, today, life is good. I could go on and on and on....I had a major set back about year ago and my view about people and life changed for the worse. It's gotten better though. Coming here and being part of group has helped. But, that's another post for another time.

All is going well for me. I'm alre