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Wednesday, 23 February
Lifes Complicated

It aint easy hey. you dont seem to get it right and you always seem to get it wrong. What you did what you didnt do, what was said yesterday and what was meant for tomorrow. What happened yesteryear and what didnt and why! Sometimes it all seems too hard. I cant deal with the failures and the forgotten success of what was and what came to be, to be what is real today but not what is real back then - although if you look at it the signs where there all along.

Life hey!? Its peaks and valleys, the various roads we travel and backtrack and blindly (and stupidly) follow again. History can be retold one thousand ways and never the same way twice. Me thinks the prophet that tells the same story over is one who has never actually lived. If one lives one loves and loses, one makes terrible mistake and hopefully doesnt lose and one survives the journey but not the lesson. That is how it should be.

I have survived and learnt much but sadly have probably forgotten more but then that is the balance for if I had remembered all I was supposed to I reckon I would be done with this world by now.

I raise my glass to the journey - the glass being niether half empty nor half full though be both - and make a toast:

may your feet fall where god intended
and may your sword be sharp
may your spirit be strong
and your beer draught long
for that is what god intended
be happy not sad
nor sorrow but glad
for tears
are but a cry for the past
tomorrow is gone
and today is long
and yesterdays
lingers to last

So may your feet fall where god intended
and your spirit remain intact
your soul protect
the path you trecked
for that is what makes you
who you are



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Comments

I agree that the path you walk is what makes you who you are, but sometimes I'd rather not be that person and have traveled that path. I don't cry over it, but I do get angry. Angry that I HAD to become this person - even tho I'm happy with who I am. I coulda been happy without this path.

Raising my glass to what I've learned, forgotten and would rather not remember. Raising it for the stinking path I've traveled. Not thanking it or blessing it, but acknowledging it.

Jill

Posted by: Jill on February 23, 2005 09:00 PMfrom IP: 68.187.148.218

Paul, Jill,

Could not have said it better myself. I wish I could share this with everyone I know and maybe they will understand me just a little bit more.

Thank you both!

Beth Ellen

Posted by: Beth Ellen on February 23, 2005 10:09 PMfrom IP: 12.153.125.99

Hey Paul and everybody else. I, instead of beer or wine I'll raise my apple juice glass and have a toast with jelly and I'll wish all the best blessings to every joiner here at "Paul's Corner" and that God bless you now and forever, specially for God to help those who are in need or who are raising children or going through a hard time or just..enjoying life.

Take care and drive safe.
Selena

Posted by: Selena on February 24, 2005 01:07 AMfrom IP: 65.38.194.130


Dear Paul,

Thank you for those very inspiring words. I've printed them out and put them where I can look at them whenever I need a lift. It's good to have someone share the journey with you. Thanks for sharing your journey with us.

"You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try." - Beverly Sills

Be well.

Sally

Posted by: Sally C. on February 24, 2005 06:38 PMfrom IP: 207.239.14.37

Well said Paul--
Well yesterday was the 23rd and now im in my 6th hour so im going to do somthing i should of wrote yesterday--HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME_HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME_HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME-E---HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZEE!!!!woooo im 15!!!
I Have done alot- LAst weekend i went to Orlando and My sister got me my first Coach purse- yesterday i went to the Cheesecake Factory and I got a new dress and shoes--OOOOOO and yesterday was so exciting well kinda-- almost half way throughr fist hour the pricniple made an anouncement saying be calm and for everyone to evacuate the school-- when we were evacuating i heard that there was a propaine leak and my friends and smelled it--so we all =meaning 1700 of us students= were on one street-it was so crazy- an entire high school evacuated.
We were out of the school for a while then the fireman came and they turned off the gas pipes and everything was ok---
So later that day I go to my 5th hour and im excited i have baloons my friend gave me-- and i go to hug my friend who was for some odd reason was standing next to the room closet and the door was slightly open and through the crack i saw a body i asked my friend who was in there and out came my sisters and my mom- they brought more baloons and ice-cream cake for me and my class --I almost cried-
So we ate and then half way through my 5th hour the intercom came on and said there was a delivery for an elizabeth ramirez--so in like two seconds my dada and my stepmom come in the chorus room with a baloon and a basket filled with flowers i screamed--i swear i cracked my vocal chords-- He drove over an hour (he lives in miami) to come give me flowers and a baloon--
And then we went to the cheescake- so yesterday was a busy day-- And coming is my Party on saturday-- So I have been surprised alot and i have alot to prepare- Ok im at a loss for words (for once) so this is my leave
lizee

Posted by: lizee on February 25, 2005 02:02 AMfrom IP: 165.161.3.14

hey paul,how's your blood pressure going? Hope you're better.

Posted by: Selena on February 25, 2005 02:37 AMfrom IP: 65.38.194.130

Dear Lizee,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR LIZEE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

You've had some wonderful birthday, Lizee, and hope you have a diary and will write down all the wonderful events that the day (and days)have brought! Fifteen? What's going to happen at your
Sweet Sixteen next year??? Can you top this one?? You are truly blessed to have such a loving family!

Paul, your toast is truly touching and we can all relate to it. Thank you!

I heard from the woman who works at the Ensemble Theatre in Sydney. She said she saw you on "Dancing With the Stars", and she was very complimentary...good vibes there!

(BTW, Google Alert said that Tara Morice is now the partner of TV actor and artist, Geoff Morrell. She has appeared with him in past TV series. He has two grown children.)

Shalom and Love,

Gran Mil


Posted by: Grandma Mil on February 25, 2005 04:38 AMfrom IP: 4.231.202.82

Hi Paul and everyone

I regret I wasn't able to attend FIF. I really wish I could have experienced it first hand. It certainly would have been a pleasure to meet everyone.

Thanks for the inspiration Paul. I have been blessed for a few months now and trying very hard not to forget where I was. I can't just assume everything will always be like this, but I must take this opportunity to expand (not physically) and regenerate and savor the moments. Good times are good memories for not so good times.

I've learned a lot in the past years. One thing I did to make my life more bearable was to lose anger. I have been beyond angry with my dad. We have had a horrible relationship since my mother died. Since last summer I've tried to just let the past be the past. I've accepted him for who he is and not anything else. I can't change for him and he can't change for me. The anger is gone. My life seems less complicated. My therapist always told me if I could just release the energy spent on anger it would feel amazing and he was right.

The wife and kids are doing well. We put our house on the market last week. Trying to find a 5 bedroom house or one with 4 bedrooms and a bonus room over the garage. Getting right down to it is rough. Talking about it was easy.

Great to read the posts.

peace and love to everyone

Tim

Posted by: Tim Hord on February 25, 2005 09:29 AMfrom IP: 208.255.208.2

I recorded this week's DWTS but won't be able to upload it until next week. Good episode. It's starting to get interesting as we get to know the new dancers better, and form our own opinions on them.

I think Sasha (sp?) has a big crush on Nikky.

Just crossed the Nullabor desert. HOT! on Tuesday we recorded 47.9C in the shade. That's 118.2F! Airconditioner helped but still over 40 degreesC inside the caravan.

Tell me again how bad snow is, will you.

Posted by: Brian on February 25, 2005 01:22 PMfrom IP: 210.84.166.73

hi everyone and Paul,

Beautiful words for explaining a feeling.Even in my language(spanish)i couldn´t have expresed that better.I´m a very optimistic person,i think we don´t have to regret about anything(unless you harm somebody,then we should regret) but trying to learn how to face some situations of the future in a different way.It was a great way to make us think about the life.Thanx,Paul,for sharing your experience of the life.
isabel

Posted by: Isabel(madrid) on February 25, 2005 09:32 PMfrom IP: 213.0.212.109


Hi all,

I'm terrible when it comes to commenting on something deep and philisophical but her it goes...

Its how we walk the path each time we're on it as opposed to yesterdays failures or achievements or what we try to attain to in the future. We will have ups and downs but its how we hold ourselves up through all of it that counts in the end. It's easier said than done!

Not much else going on. Today I'm having a bit of a break. I'll be going back into work on Sunday. Plus I'm participating in the nieghborhoods annual "Cake Walk" on Saturday to raise money for charity. There will be five houses each having a different desert theme. I've been designated to back for the "cheesecake house". I'm planning to make a chocolate cheesecake and maybe another one if I get really motivated today.

Hope all is well with everyone!

take care,

Posted by: Julie on February 26, 2005 12:39 AMfrom IP: 70.146.120.149

Hi Paul, hope you are well. I like the toast you made. Someone close to me died of lung cancer not long ago and some of the things you say in your e-mails are comforting.

Are you interested in the recent surge of interest in England in Ballroom and Latin, following the series "Strictly Come Dancing" -(and Strictly Ice Dancing)- something like your "Dancing with the Stars". This weekend the Mail on Sunday is giving away a free DVD of "Strictly Ballroom" to every reader!

Best wishes

Jill Owen

Posted by: Jill Owen on February 26, 2005 06:18 AMfrom IP: 195.93.21.99

Paul...I clink my glass to yours for a toast to your sentiments! It is not beer for me however. Still haven't found the brew I can like. I have just finished editing and emailing the pictures I took of FIF. In looking through them, I see all the love that you have inspired! What a tribute to you and to your life! Thank you, my dear, for bringing this group together.

FIF'ers...you should have emails with the photo album. Sorry it has taken me so long. This legislative effort takes all my energy of my time away from work. Photos in the theatre are a little dark. If anyone wants this forwarded to them, email me.

Love to all,
Linda

Posted by: Linda Thomas on February 26, 2005 11:16 PMfrom IP: 67.172.80.183

Paul...I clink my glass to yours for a toast to your sentiments! It is not beer for me however. Still haven't found the brew I can like. I have just finished editing and emailing the pictures I took of FIF. In looking through them, I see all the love that you have inspired! What a tribute to you and to your life! Thank you, my dear, for bringing this group together.

FIF'ers...you should have emails with the photo album. Sorry it has taken me so long. This legislative effort takes all my energy of my time away from work. Photos in the theatre are a little dark. If anyone wants this forwarded to them, email me.

Love to all,
Linda

Posted by: Linda Thomas on February 26, 2005 11:16 PMfrom IP: 67.172.80.183

Paul...I clink my glass to yours for a toast to your sentiments! It is not beer for me however. Still haven't found the brew I can like. I have just finished editing and emailing the pictures I took of FIF. In looking through them, I see all the love that you have inspired! What a tribute to you and to your life! Thank you, my dear, for bringing this group together.

FIF'ers...you should have emails with the photo album. Sorry it has taken me so long. This legislative effort takes all my energy of my time away from work. Photos in the theatre are a little dark. If anyone wants this forwarded to them, email me.

Love to all,
Linda

Posted by: Linda Thomas on February 26, 2005 11:16 PMfrom IP: 67.172.80.183

Sorry for the triple post. Ah, the mysteries of cyberspace!

Posted by: Linda Thomas on February 26, 2005 11:18 PMfrom IP: 67.172.80.183

Inspiring words Paul but sometimes, like right now, life gets a bit tough and when you've noone to turn too it can be a bit too much. So i guess i'll just listen to my records, keep the head down, keep your sentiments in mind and hope for the best eh? Hey to everyone, hope you're all well and happy :)
Lucy

Posted by: Lucy on February 26, 2005 11:54 PMfrom IP: 213.94.134.77

Nice toast Paul. I never quite know how to respond to you when you post that way. For the most part I don't think too deeply about life. It just is. I just try to find a place to be happy and deal with the bad stuff when it comes my way. Maybe I should think about the "why i'm here" of it all more but I am here..so why doesn't matter to me.
I suddenly had the feeling that this was coming off wrong...I don't mean to reproach you I'm just saying what I feel.
Linda, I must confess..I don't like beer either. I have never really found a beer that doesn't taste...well like beer. I like my Smirnoff Ice..right Mary and Michelle? I also like the Twisters..they have a fruit flavor...yum yum pigs bum. Oh, that reminds me..all my fellow americans should watch the Late Show with Craig Ferguson, he is very funny!
peace, Inn

Posted by: Inn on February 27, 2005 01:04 AMfrom IP: 24.115.27.215

Hi guys,

Boy it has been a long time since I've dropped by PC and now that I'm back there is so much to take in! :-)

First of all a warm Welcome and Bienvenida to our new PCers!

So our LIZEE is a lovely "Quinceañera"!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOO YOOOUUU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOO YOOOUUU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LIIIIIZZZZEEEEE,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOO YOOOUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!

¡CUMPLEAÑOS FELIZ TE DESEAMOS A TI
CUMPLEAÑOS A LIZEE, CUMPLEAÑOS FELIZ!
So glad that you had such a lovely experience on your birthday with both of your parents going the extra mile to show you their love. Enjoy your birthday and, most of all, the love that surrounds you. Wishing you a wonderful life and may your future be as bright as you are! ;-)

GRANDMA MIL, although I was hardly online, especially the last few weeks, I was thinking of you and your friends and sending tons of chookas ... as well as wishing I were there to share it with you. :-) I am not surprised that the FIF turned out so great, you guys worked very hard on the show.

I am also not surprised that the reunion turned out to be so much fun -- I had a chance to meet a couple of my online miniature friends and it is amazing how in person it was like we were just picking up the conversation right where we had left off the previous day! Reading about your wonderful time together really cheered me up, so I can just imagine how Paul must feel, since this is all happening because of our affection for him. :-) Thanks so much for sharing your experiences, guys!

As for me, life has been filled with highs and lows, as well as one particular low that is now turning out to be high -- namely that my mom fell down, broke her shoulder, needed surgery, and is now recovering. Even in the midst of this trial it was so encouraging to see God's hand guiding things (from the people who helped her at the accident site, to her being operated on by the director of the trauma orthopedics department at New York Hospital/Hospital for Special Services).

Paul's toast further brought forth in my mind the fact that in the midst of this low there is a big high ... and that is that my mom is learning patience while traveling this particular path to recovery. She is a very active person, self-reliant, etc, so I was expecting her to be a lot more impatient with her limitations but, like I said, she's learning patience! I just hope I don't have to learn patience the hard way, though. :-)

Now I'm off to celebrate my mom's birthday (her name is Nertha also) who is 75 today! Nothing fancy, just a family dinner, some cake, and lots of love. :-)

Hugs,
Nertha

Posted by: Nertha on February 27, 2005 04:51 AMfrom IP: 68.161.204.186

Hello Paul, and all, especially Grandma Mil's chickies.
Lucy, someone is always out there willing to listen. I've come to believe that we are never truly alone. Think of the billions of stars in the sky. Who's to say that there are not angels watching from afar and one in particular to comfort you and help you through whatever has made you so sad. I'm learning that there is an energy spirit that reaches out to others and helps us receive communications that offer us ways to get through the thorny branches of our lives. I'm new to Paul's site, and thanks to Grandma Mil, I've had a chance to meet some lovely people who all share an interest in Paul and his career and well being. I hope that while listening to your records you will be able to sing and dance with your head "up" and forget what is making you unhappy. Paul toasts the path that has been chosen whether we know it or not and would we repeat it if we could do it all over again? "Hope springs eternal", but it's your actions that will prevail.

Posted by: Myrna D. on February 27, 2005 10:20 AMfrom IP: 66.119.33.155

CUMPLEAÑOS FELIZ,CUMPLEAÑOS FELIZ,TE DESEAMOS TODOS,CUMPLEAÑOS FELIZ!!!!!

FELIZ,FELIZ EN TU DIA,AMIGUITA QUE DIOS TE BENDIGA,QUE REINE LA PAZ EN TU DIA,Y QUE CUMPLAS MUCHOS MÁS!

ES UNA CHICA EXCELENTE ES UNA CHICA EXCELENTE,ES UNA CHICA EXCELENTE,Y SIEMPRE LO SERÁ,Y SIEMPRE LO SERÁ,Y SIEMPRE LO SERÁ!

That´s what we sing in spain for birthday.

Back from Cuba,Amazing place!.hi Pual,hi everybody in Paul´s corner!i´m glad to be back over here!
isa

Posted by: Isabel(madrid) on February 27, 2005 11:06 PMfrom IP: 213.0.204.57

Paul, I loved the thoughts in what you wrote. They reminded me of these words from Richard Bach:

'Your mission is the luminous path that you follow, no matter how dark the night around you.'

'Here's a test to find whether your mission on earth is finished: if you're alive, it isn't.'

I wish you and everyone here a sure path as the journey continues.

Millie rang me this morning to let me know that her computer has crashed and she won't be able to go online until at least the end of the week. I promised her I would let you all know. Hopefully it's something that can be sorted easily.

Happy birthday to Lizee and to Nertha's Mum!

Hello to all my friends here and to everyone out there.

Love to you all,
Mary

Posted by: Mary on February 28, 2005 02:08 AMfrom IP: 83.70.219.199

Out of the dark, gloomy depths of the secret place steps the one clad in purle, his faithful wolf-hound (Barry the dog) ever by his side.
With a single, steely glance he emerges into the bright sunlight, to once again face the demons awaiting him.

Hi Inn.

Paul, yes, life can seem to be very complicated with all of those little bits having to come together in just the right sequence and balance to carry our dreams and desires through to reality.
Most often, I find, putting all those little pieces into place becomes quite a challenge.
Often it's darn near impossible.
Sometimes it really is impossible, but Ahhh, so good to dream.
Then, we challenge ourselves further.

Congratulations with DWTS. You look to be continually and deservedly further endearing yourself with the audience each time you make a comment.

Peter

Posted by: peter on March 1, 2005 03:12 AMfrom IP: 203.220.147.77

Hello All I hope All is going good--
LAst saturday one of my dearest friends father died--And last night we(my chorus class and i) went to the viewing and I have been to a number of viewings-unfortunately-
And im not "ammuned" to death but i have never "broke down". And I never met my Firends father- Us girls in the chorus sung "I am hi child"- and when we were finished I walked out and lost it-- the tears would not stop coming out and I was loosing it- There was this pain in me-- the most horrible pain and i got his knot in my throat and his father was sick and I know that hes in a better place and that its better for him and thats what I was telling myself.
And when I was leaving I was saying goodbye to my best friend-- And when i hugged him he Told me "I dont know why but hugging you is making me cry"--
And we both lost it hugging eachother--
And he told me over and over that he loved me like a sister and not to forget it--
What is that feeling? I was having such mixed-emotions-sad-angry-and yet never happier to hug my friend--Why is that?
lizee

Posted by: lizzie on March 2, 2005 06:17 AMfrom IP: 152.163.100.196

Lizze,I'm sorry about your friend's father. That feeling was life the good,the bad,the pain so bad you think you can't take it, helping someone you care for deal with that pain. Like Paul said,it ain't easy. This will be another experience in your life that will build who you are. Don't be afraid, the joy will come back, it always does.
I got a little joy tonight..I got my FIF disc from Evelyn (thank you again). It was great to remember the parts I was there for and share in the things I missed (like walking on the beach). I just know that the FIF experience will be a "happy place" for me for the rest of my life.
I can't tell you all how happy I am that I got on that plane and dealt with that fear. I knew missing that would have weighed on me forever.

Hi Peter..hope to meet you next FIF.

Hello Mary, I'm sorry we haven't been able to meet up on Yahoo. I miss you. I miss you too Michelle.
Brian, thanks so much for DWTS! My new cable modem allows me to download the clips finally. Now I have to catch up on last season!
Paul, you are lovely on the show. So warm and genuine. I just found out about the British version and I'm wondering how long until they try it in the US. It's funny how most people think these shows are original when they get here...ha ha.
Whew..that's enough of me. Peace

Posted by: Inn on March 2, 2005 11:23 AMfrom IP: 24.115.27.215


lizee, I'm so sorry to hear of your friend's father passing. Unfortunately, that is a part of life than is the hardest to face, I think, no matter how old, or young you are. The best thing you can do for your friend now is to be there for him.

Peter, I LOVE your opening line! "...steps the one clad in purle". What a great start for a story! Can I steal it? :o) Good to hear from you again. You always cheer me up and make me laugh.

Tim, good to hear from you as well. I'm glad you are well and fortune is smiling upon you. It's hard work, hey, but it's worth it if you can enjoy it.

Brian, thanks for DWTS. You are awesome!

Nertha, believe it or not, I was thinking about you. Glad to see you posting again.

Big wave to Mary across the pond. I'm sorry I couldn't make it to FIF. I would have loved to meet you and all the other PC'ers. Maybe next time?

Hello to all the newbies. Please forgive me for not knowing all your names, but I will soon as you continue to drop by.

As always, good wishes to Paul and all the oldbies!

Be well.

Posted by: Sally C. on March 2, 2005 06:41 PMfrom IP: 207.239.14.37

hi everyone, ive been working and being a little busy with school work, but i'm doing fine. I wish everybody a happy easter remembering what is really important.

take care you guys,
selena

Posted by: Selena on March 3, 2005 01:58 AMfrom IP: 65.38.194.130

Did I catch a shimmer of purle on the way in?

To the man himself...I'm presuming Barry is a wolfhound of the Irish variety? Ah, the stuff of legends. Faithful companions to all our mythical heroes (and current Aussie ones it seems). Is he well-behaved?

Hi Inn. I'm looking forward to catching up with you. I've been laid low with the flu but am on the mend now. It took guts to get on that plane. I'm so glad you did and I got the chance to meet you in person.

Sally, I would love to have met you too! Next time sounds good to me.

Evelyn & Monika, how is life treating you both?

Special hello to my friend in Chicago. Best wishes to you Michelle.

Lizee, sorry to hear about your friend's Dad.

We woke up to heavy snow here this morning. It looked so lovely on the mountains driving home. The good thing is that the days are getting longer already. So while it's freezing, we know spring is not far away.

Peter, do you remember us talking about the balance of the seasons when we were heading into winter here and you were heading into summer? There's something very comforting about knowing that we are holding the balance still, even though we have started to shift positions.

Love to everyone,
Mary

Posted by: Mary on March 3, 2005 02:04 AMfrom IP: 83.70.35.254

Good evening!!
-inn-
-You were right about the joy coming back- My friend came back to school and he didnt seem down-I think he seemed happy to know his father is in a better place without pain or suffering and that just made me happy (to know hes happy) -
-And somthing else that brightened my day a bit is that when I got home I took a little nap- (To fill you in I love writing((stories) and I have been working on one particular one for some time And I have had a liilt bit of trouble-my writing has been slow )- And the way my friends attitude was toward the situation gave me some-what of a kick of inspiration and when I woke up I had ideas coming--like--it was just undescribable--
And incase your thinking how odd I am- That is joy for me -
It is an odd way to lighten sombodays mood-
-But if you add the negatives and the postives in life the positives have a way of overpowering the negatives and theres a quote that just came to my mind--"When in life you run into a closed door there will be on open window"- It comes in different versions-
--Although it is about 20 min till 9pm i think im gonna go to bed-- Who knows I might have another "kick" of inspiration and then I will have somthing else to talk to you all about. Goodnight- And sleep with the angels
Lizee

Posted by: lizee on March 3, 2005 08:38 AMfrom IP: 64.12.116.196

This weeks and last weeks DWTS are ready to upload but I still need to find an Internet cafe with broadband. 8(

Not to worry, I'll find one and I have sent a CD to a mate in Perth to upload as a fallback (just in case)

Paul, When is the car race on TV? I'll try to post it too.

Brian

Posted by: Brian on March 4, 2005 12:51 PMfrom IP: 203.39.81.74

Dear Paul,
I hope you are very well! In the last days I haven't time for write, because I use the computer in other place, no in my home. But today I write for talk to you "I miss you very much and never I will forget you"! In Portuguese "I miss you" is "I fell 'saudade' ". This word "Saudade" exist only in Brasil, and is what I fell in my heart for you!

Caroline

Posted by: Caroline on March 5, 2005 02:25 AMfrom IP: 200.102.28.114

it seems like a lot of people is in love with you,Paul...

Posted by: Isabel(madrid) on March 5, 2005 03:26 AMfrom IP: 213.0.212.170

I have to agree with you Isabel, Paul is what we call in america a "ladie's man". LOL it's what "every girl wants in a man". oh well...paul, i guess this is a reason why not to be depressed or something......hahaha

take care ya'll,
selena

Posted by: Selena on March 5, 2005 06:44 AMfrom IP: 66.50.6.74

Dearest Chickies (and that includes EVERYONE, whether you attended FIF or not..)

I'm baaaaaaaaack! My computer has become a window to the world, literally, and I thank Mary in Ireland for informing everyone of my computer "plight", which was finally fixed by the fourth technical person I had to contact.

That brilliant person, (Jared), was my first computer tutor years back when he was 15 years old, and his father had to drive him to our apartment and wait for him as he did his tutoring. I got him many jobs in Wynmoor (our retirement community), the years flew by, and now he's ready to graduate from the University of Miami, and go to Texas for graduate work, in Computer Science, what else?

Believe me, this young man is a genius, for he got me back on line, something those phone technicians from Compac and Microsoft could not do!

Paul, hope you'll be posting soon, much love to you and your family!

Nertha, glad your mother is doing better, and so good to hear from you! Maybe we'll all meet at the next FIF!

Inn, your sunny disposition belied the fact that you are, like me, a white knuckled flyer!

When it looked like my computer crashed and I lost everything, I bemoaned the fact that all the FIF pictures and websites, like yours and Evelyn's were gone, gone, but Jared found them all, and he is coming back next week to show me how to save everything in case I run into trouble again, and he's not around!

Myrna, Myrna, glad you're posting again! How can I explain to everyone what you mean to Ellie and me? (The chickies that came to FIF met you, and I think they know!) You're a chickie now too, and being you live in our community, I can hug you and kiss you at will...if I can catch you, with your busy schedule!

Evelyn, I owe you a phone call. Forget about video tape. DVD will be fine...we'll talk!

Ellie is doing okay, still going for treatments after his accident. I watch him like a hawk, moreso than ever! He needed a haircut, and I went with him to the barber, and, as they say "watched haircuts."

We made reservations for May to go to Israel, to see our children, grandchilden and great-grandchildren. We haven't seen our eldest daughter, Paula, and her large family since 1999, which makes it 6 years!

We thought it was about time, in spite of the turmoil over in that part of the world. (We'll go from Miami International Airport to London, the same airline (British Airways) that Mary took when she came to FIF!)

In London, we change planes for Israel. It's a 20+ hour trip, just what a hate-to-fly person like me needs, but how else will we be able to see our kids? I intend to take plenty of pictures, and maybe Inn and Evelyn will post them to the websites!

Shalom and love,

Gran Mil


Posted by: Grandma Mil on March 5, 2005 05:38 PMfrom IP: 4.234.102.80

Hello everyone,
Paul, I loved your toast. Thank you! I've read a bit here and there, thought about it and not got around to writing anything. Yes, life is complicated, which sometimes feels like a “bad” thing and then again it feels like a “good” thing. Naturally, I don’t particularly like the added stress that comes with some of life’s complications, and I have plenty of that right now, but I also asked myself, what my life would be like if these complications or challenges weren’t there and I have to admit, life would be very boring or so comfortable that I wouldn’t want to move out of that space and then where would I be. There’s something strangely comforting in your phrase “may your feet fall where god intended” as it reminds me that I’m not alone in it all and that there is meaning or reason behind all the things that make up my life and the life of other people. Sometimes I loose track of that perspective, esp. when things are stressful and complicated and don’t add up to a coherent or sense-making whole.

Good luck to you today at the final round of the BMW Celebrity Challenge and may there not be any rain right before you guys go out there & congrats on making 2 and 9 in the qualifying rounds!!!

Lizzie, a belated Happy Birthday, enjoy the year ahead of you and don’t forget to be a little bit naughty every once in a while, as you have to be sweet for an entire year when you are 16.

Dearest Grandma, it was lovely talking to you on the phone a few hours ago and you are getting both versions, video tape (so I know you will see the FIF & Follies movies for sure) and the computerized versions!!! Too bad that my plan to have the package arrive on Tuesday for your and Ellie’s 52nd wedding anniversary isn’t panning out, well you know what happened and why I didn’t make it to the post office this morning-damn car repair place messing up my car so badly rather than fixing it!!!

Hello Newbies! Hello Fellow FIFers, miss you much! It amazes me that it’s already been a month that we met in person. Time flies! Hello everyone else!

Off to bed for some much needed sleep.

Posted by: Evelyn on March 6, 2005 11:40 AMfrom IP: 216.114.243.254

Darling, Mil...So glad you are back on line! We rely so much on technology now, it is really tough when we are out of touch. It was so delightful to talk with you yesterday!

Evelyn...Super job on the FIF DVD! It came on Friday but I saved it until today. I was working on a right to practice paper that ended up being 20 pages! I kept my concentration on my work by knowing I would today reward myself by watching the video. It was just wonderful to see everyone's lovely face again and remember what a delightful time we all had! Evelyn's editng abilities are just phenomenal! Thank you for documenting this event.

Diane...It was great to hear from you and see your pictures too!

Monika...Koen is such a great guy. Watching the video, he had to put up with a lot and just smiled all the time!

Michelle...Mr. Squeaky was a very popular guy.

Inn...I raise a Smirnoff Ice to you!

Mary...I love what you said about FIF being a happy place.

Hello to Myrna!

Love to all!
Linda

Posted by: Linda Thomas on March 7, 2005 07:59 AMfrom IP: 67.172.80.183

First half of episode three of DWTS is ready:

http://number98.com/out/DWTS203a.mp4
http://number98.com/out/DWTS203b.mp4

At the time of writing this, I am still to upload the following but, who knows, by the time you read this, the following links might work.

http://number98.com/out/DWTS203c.mp4
http://number98.com/out/DWTS203d.mp4

http://number98.com/out/DWTS204a.mp4
http://number98.com/out/DWTS204b.mp4
http://number98.com/out/DWTS204c.mp4
http://number98.com/out/DWTS204d.mp4

Posted by: Brian on March 7, 2005 12:56 PMfrom IP: 202.173.140.153

Thank you Brian!!!! You are awesome to do this, esp. while on the road!!! How is the heat and where are you now? I did check where the N ... desert (sorry name escaped me just now) was that you had just crossed before posting. Hope you can stay sufficiently cool, if not I'll just have to ship some of the cold air we have to you.

Posted by: Evelyn on March 7, 2005 08:50 PMfrom IP: 216.114.247.239

Hi guys,

Checking in on you as soon as I could. Right after I posted we all came down with some sort of flu. My mom usually weathers these ill waves without catching anything, but this time even she came down with it. Thankfully we are all on the mend now. :-)

PAUL: Thought about your words while I was sick and had plenty of time to lay down with my eyes closed and letting my mind ponder things I have read/heard. I totally agree--our feet fall where God intended it, even if we cannot understand why at the time. Lately (in great part due to an economic downturn in my family's circumstances) I am seeing God's hand in our lives much more often than usual. It is so comforting to know that He is watching over us and inspiring loving friends to extend a helping hand when things get tight! Funny thing is that I usually worry but, even though we are facing this trial, I feel calm, because I know that God will see us through. My prayer is that He watches over you and your family in the same way. :-)

GRANDMA MIL: You and Ellie sure are troupers! I really admire your willingness to take a 20+ hours flight to visit your family -- that's mother/father love! :-) Way back in the 70's my husband and I went on a tour of a couple of European countries and Israel. The flight from USA to England seemed like an eternity to me, and it was less than 8 hours! I am like you, not comfortable flying ... I feel that if God had wanted us to fly He would have given us wings (plus the turbulance we experienced over the Atlantic didn't help to change my point of view). Good thing I don't necessarily have to fly down to Florida so, God willing, I may see you at the FIF in a couple of years. ;-)

SALLY C: I am not surprised I posted after you were thinking of me. I feel that thoughts travel and reach the person. Thanks for thinking of me! :-)

EVELYN: I read about a DVD of the FIF ... is it available to all the PCers who wish to buy

Gotta go. Need to do something for my mom.
Take care everyone!

Hugs,
Nertha

Posted by: Nertha on March 8, 2005 02:32 AMfrom IP: 68.161.221.190

Nertha, email me re. the Follies CD I made and we can talk about how I can get it to you. Sorry, I'm too lazy/busy to search for your email on your website. Just click on my name ... Talk to you soon.

Linda, thanks! I enjoyed the editing very much, it appealed to the artisitic creative part of me and by now I even got some of our conversations memorized, simply by checking and testing and exporting the movies into different formats and believe me, I never liked memorizing anything, this one kind of happened by osmosis, the way I like it :)

Hugs to everyone!

Posted by: Evelyn on March 8, 2005 04:59 AMfrom IP: 134.29.30.175

Happy 52nd Anniversay Millie & Ellie!!!! Have a fabulous day and I'll have a toast in your honor later today!
Lots of love to you!
Evelyn

Posted by: Evelyn on March 8, 2005 08:01 PMfrom IP: 216.114.244.251

Thank you, Evelyn, for your toast!

It seems like yesterday when we celebrated our 50th, with Follies 2003 just finished, and our children in Connecticut and New Jersey waiting to fete us with a trip to New York and Broadway for a week. We saw "42nd St." and we loved that show so much, that I used "The Shadow Waltz" in Follies 2005, and will be using other selections in future Follies.

This "Follies 2005" was very special, however, with my chickies sitting in the front row, and all the other memorable moments in the days preceding, as everyone arrived, and became acquainted: "They came as strangers, and left as friends". Of course, we owe it all to Paul and Cat, so toasts to them too!

Nertha, I hope you and your family are feeling better. Yes, the trip to Israel will be marvelous once we get there. Aye, that's the rub, the getting there!

I remember that turbulence over the Atlantic Ocean! It doesn't seem to faze the flight attendants, however. They are trained to look calm and cool, while people like me are sitting with eyes squeezed shut, gripping the arm rests, and praying!

I agree that if the good Lord wanted us to fly, he would have given us wings...however, there are times in life when we feel like soaring anyway, and I think the FIF weekend was one of them! (Maybe that's why I love chicken wings so much.)

(For our anniversary dinner we are going to that Italian place, where we took Michelle and Mary that first night when they arrived for FIF.)

Definitely no chicken wings there, but Ellie loves the shrimp marinara!

Shalom and Love,

Gran Mil

Posted by: Grandma Mil on March 8, 2005 09:47 PMfrom IP: 4.234.57.60

Millie & Ellie,

Many congratulations on your 52nd Wedding Anniversary!! I hope you are both having a wonderful day.

Hi to everyone else. Hope you are all keeping well.

Love to all,
Mary

Posted by: Mary on March 9, 2005 02:57 AMfrom IP: 83.70.233.232

I deeply want to congratulate all the ladies in this corner, this is our week and it's hard being a woman in our society, but I want to congratulate all those who effort to survive and sweat their heads off in their life. Only a real woman knows how hard and how proud it is to be born a woman, because it's a Godly beautyfull gift.

CONGRATULATIONS LADIES. HAVE ALL THE FUN YOU CAN HAVE AND BE COOL, CALM AND COLLECTED.

With love, Selena

Posted by: Selena on March 9, 2005 03:13 AMfrom IP: 65.38.194.130

Congrats Millie and Ellie!!!! 52 years!!! That is soooo impressive. I hope you had/have a great day.

Jill

Posted by: Jill on March 9, 2005 05:47 AMfrom IP: 68.187.148.218

Grandma Mil, Please contact me. I tried to email you, not sure if you got it.

Thanks!

Posted by: Michelle E on March 9, 2005 07:23 AMfrom IP: 209.239.3.120

congratulations for all of us(women).and happy birthday Millie and a Ellie.
how are u doin´ Paul?A long time without posting...hope u are doin´ great.we miss you in here!.
kisses for all of you!
isabel

Posted by: Isabel(madrid) on March 9, 2005 07:25 PMfrom IP: 213.0.207.163

Mazel tov Millie and Ellie! Biz hundert un tsvantsik. From one white knucker to another, I hope your flight is a smooth one.
Hi Linda, a smirnoff right back to you!
Hi Michelle. Thanks Brian. Thanks Selena and happy woman's week to you too.
peace

Posted by: innussiq on March 9, 2005 11:33 PMfrom IP: 24.115.27.215

Hi All!

First and foremost I wish a very Happy Anniversary to Grandma Millie and Ellie. May this year be the best year of your life together!
And I'm going to call soon don't worry.

Work is going well. It's been really busy at the spa. Season's been jamming despite the rainy days we've had lately. A month ago I was begging for work now I need a break. Tommorrow I have a day off and then I work the entire week-end. Hopefully next week they'll slow me down.

Last week it was my husband's birthday and I dragged him to Gap to buy him a pair of jeans. For those who don't know, my husband lost 30 lbs since last January. It's great yes, but he still insisted on wearing all the same pants as before so you couldn't see what shape his body was in still wearing the baggy pants that were two sizes too big for him. And believe it or not the last time he put on a pair of jeans was ten years ago. Despite his protests on I managed to get him into the Gap store to try on pair of jeans and a fitted t-shirt. He looked at the shirt and told me to put it back but I convinced him that if he didn't like it we wouldn't buy it. "Good enough" he said convinced. What a great trick! I overheard a woman say that to her young kid in a department store one time. When he opened the dressing room door a ray of light shown behind him and he had a smile on his face. He looked...sexy? He was unrecognizable. It was now possible to see what muscles he was working on at the gym. Excuse me but who are you and what did you do to my nerdy husband? Saturday night he wore the outfit out to dinner and I could see when we were being escorted to our table a few women at the bar gave him the once over. Maybe baggy dress pants weren't so bad after all.

but who could beat the purle suit guy!


Take care all!


Posted by: Julie on March 10, 2005 12:46 AMfrom IP: 65.10.200.75

Jill, Isabel, Julie, and Mary, thank you for your anniversary wishes, and Inn, I detect a Yiddish phrase, wishing us 120 more anniversaries! I'll drink to that! (How'd you learn that?)

A manila envelope arrived at our doorstep today, the day after our anniversary. In it were loving messages from Evelyn, the DVD of the weekend activities at FIF and a video tape of same!

It was so beautifully done, with actual video scenes at the beach, in our house during the supper, intertwined with stills from all over, the "Follies", the beach, the gazebo at the Marriott, in the Marriott, etc., all done with music from the paso doble from SB, "When You're Good to Momma" and other upbeat selections!

Ellie and I have already watched it twice, and were enthralled, especially with the live action in our house and on the beach. No wonder everyone was so busy with the cameras!

Evelyn, I am impressed with the creative work that you put into this project. It will be a keepsake for the rest of our lives, and for our children too. THANK YOU FROM OUR HEARTS!

As for my chickies, seeing you, and hearing you again made me slightly teary! My "Fabulous Nine", you are truly beautiful!

Shalom and peace,

Grandma Mil

Posted by: Grandma Mil on March 10, 2005 03:45 AMfrom IP: 4.234.105.52

Happy anniversary, happy anniversary, happy anniversary,and happy anniversary to Millie and Ellie! That about says it all. You two with your love and devotion to each other for 52 years are an inspiration to us all.

Love to you both,
Linda

Posted by: Linda Thomas on March 10, 2005 04:13 AMfrom IP: 67.172.80.183

Thanks, Linda, for your happy anniversary wishes!

A friend was once asked "what is the secret to a long marriage" and the guy answered, "Just say 'yes,dear!' "

Shalom and Love,

Millie

Posted by: Grandma Mil on March 10, 2005 06:17 AMfrom IP: 4.129.107.72
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