Paul's Corner

WOW! I appreciate your wisdom, Paul.

Namasté,

Sue L-K

Paul,

I agree. I spent some considerable effort trying to find out who I was, just to be faced with the obvious: I am me.

Peter

Hello Paul,

I've found that sometimes it's hard to figure out who you really are when you have to be so many different personas to the ones who depend on you. Only when you're comfortable in your own skin can you truly be the person you were meant to be. The rest is easy...

Hi Peter,

I remember following your journey to find who you are when I first logged on to the Corner. I'm so glad to know such a beautiful person like you.

Sally

You've got my head spinning around that one. But I agree. I can only be who I am. No more. No less.

For me, being who I am, and trusting in who I am is the only way to peace of mind. It took me a long time to get there. But it was worth it.

Peter, I couldn't pass up the opportunity to say I also feel blessed to know you.

Sally, I agree with you. Wholeheartedly.

Love to all,
Mary

Hello Paul. I found this Blog by luck today! I am a late commer to your talent and literally had to pry the "you-know-what" movie out of my hands today to send it back to Netflix. I watched Strictly Ballroom at least a dozen times...just choosing the chapters with the dance scenes to watch over and over again.
I loved the campiness of the film just as much as the dance scenes, but hey come on, I'm going to say it.....those dance scenes!
I'm so happy I found the film after all these years.
Thanks so much! I'll now have to take the time to catch up on this and other sites about you!
You've got a new fan. ;)

Hi everyone,
Off topic, but relevant, I just got an email from Whitney and she told me that Grandma Mil was in hospital the past few days (??) with some blood problems caused by some medication she's on. She's back home as of this morning, but weak. I had wondered why I hadn't heard from her in a while and was going to call her today myself (and I will later). Just thought you all might like to know that and send out health strengthening and loving thoughts her way, prayers, emails etc. although she's not feeling weel enough to go online. I'll give you an update after talking to her.

Also, great discussions in the last few posts, tied in nicely with discussions I'm having with my sister who's really struggling with things that happened in the past to us as kids, lots of soul cleansing tears on both sides of the Atlantic. This is when it's REALLY hard for me to be living so far away from home. I'd give anything to be able to be with my sister, to hug her, sit there with her and let her cry on my shoulder and pretty much cry with her too. Okay, need to get off, I have a meeting to run to in 13 minutes and stuff to pull together for that.

More later and love to you all!

(((((((((MILLIE))))))))

Get well soon!!! I'm sending lots of healing energy your way for a speedy recovery. Take good care of yourself. I'm sure Ellie's taking good care of you, too!

Love and prayers,
Michelle

I’m sorry to hear Grandma Mil has not been doing well from her medication. That breaks my heart. I hope she’s well soon, to share her wisdom with us.

Get well soon, Grandma Mil.

Sue L-K

I agree because then we live in the present and living in the present means we have the control and the means to drive ourselves where we want to go. Living in the past (behind) or living in the future (in front), how can anyone know where they are suppose to go when they lack the right perspective.

Hopefully, Millie will post and let us know she's ok.

How can you ever truly be certain of who you are? I feel we are somewhat "fluid" if you will. We are not creatures who reach a certain point and then become solid or rigid, to remain that way for the rest of our lives. True, we are all inately who we are...some of that will change, and some won't ..is this confusing enough for you? Can you tell I majored in Philosophy? I think the journey is the whole thing. If you are happy with every experience and learn from your lives, then, hopefully, when we pass from this life, we became our authentic selves. With all our goodness and flaws, we can only be who we are! I love reading all of your posts! :)

Dear Millie,

Please get well immediately!!

Peter

Okay, I talked to Grandma Millie 3 hours ago (in between meetings). I'm supposed/allowed to tell you that she's under the weather. Hmm, that doesn't even come near to what she just experienced. She was in hospital for 5 days after her blood thinning medications caused some hemorrhaging. They caught it in time before it affected internal organs or caused a stroke. She is weak and sounded rather down and tired, but she’s happy that she can move around a little bit with a walker now which she wasn’t able to do while in hospital. Sitting is a problem at the moment, hence she won’t go online and she’s tired of lying all the time :) I’m going to call her again this weekend and will pass on your good wishes to her over the phone.

I am going to read the posts more carefully soon (i.e. tomorrow???) but right now I feel like crashing and sleeping for the next 10 – 12 hours. I hope I do, 3 long hectic weeks behind me and not enough sleep.

Love to all,
Evelyn

Wow Paul,

Some really heavy thinking going on, and making all of us wrap our brains around this deep thinking. It is great to see people opening and expanding their thoughts and ideas and openly accepting ( or not )the shared ideas. I am totally on the same page, and know that even as I am what I am, anything is still possible. Am I less than someone else? Am I more? Is anyone more or less than another? No, becasue we can all grow and achieve, desire and attain. Thanks for the thought.

Hi Again All,

I am really sorry to post again so soon. Dont want to be a bore or an annoyance, but I have been thinking about what Paul said. The whole past and present issue. It made me think intensely on when my baby girl died. I was, at the time confindent of who I was as a wife, a mother, and as an individual. As I look back now, in the nearly 18 years that have passed, I am reminded of how very much I changed, phobias, post traumatic stress, seperation anxiety, etc. As much as all of this has changed me, I find more and more that I am still the same person, at the root of me.....and in an odd way, I guess an improved me. Stronger. More confident. More compassionate. Less critical. I suppose that is why I am so sure that, as Paul has said, anything is possible. I survived.....I continue to grow and change even now. Anyway, just my thoughts. Thanks for letting me share.
Ps. Dont know anyone here yet but Mil, I do hope you get better soon. Cheers from Vancouver, Wa

Dearest Millie,

Please get well soon!! I'm thinking of you over here and wishing you better.

Sending all my love to you,
Mary

To All My Dearest Chickies,

My home care aide walked me to the computer, and although I don't have my old pep back yet, I am trying to get better fast, and all your prayers and good wishes will help.

It's only a week today since I became ill, and dear Evelyn has spelled it out to you as I told her over the phone. The problem started with the use of Coumadin, a terrible drug that is used by millions over the world, with no problem for some
but almost a killer for me.

I needed a transfusion of 4 pints of blood, and I am stronger today, walking around on a walker inside the apt. and being waited on hand and foot
by a wonderful aide. My darling Ellie has been my
strength and comfort, even though its been an ordeal for him also. Two of our daughters, from
Connecticut and NJ, will be coming down next week to see us. I told them I didn't want them to visit me in a hospital, for I wanted to be on my feet when they came. One granddaughter is coming also.

Everything is on hold, but all Follies ideas are safely in my computer, and all the classic DVD movies I had prepared for our community will be shown by a stand in. The shows must go on!

I love you all, and again, thank you for your prayers. I will try to get on PC later in the week, as things improve.

Shalom and Love,

Gran Mil

Grandma Mill ((((((hugs)))))))) I'm glad you're home. I always find that being home helps me feel better. I'll keep you in my prayers. Take care and take it easy.

Jill

Darling, darling Millie...the heart of Paul's Corner...know that I and all your fans here are thinking of you and wishing you the speediest of recoveries! Take good care of you!!

Love, Linda

I’m so glad to hear from you, Grandma Mil. Coumadin is a very scary medication. My Father had to take it. We were all very nervous while he took it. Please enjoy your family as they surround you with love.

Who am I. Boy, I lost that when I was married to my first husband. I surrendered who I was to become the person he wanted me to be. Dumb! After our divorce, I had the best time rediscovering myself. I embrace all that I learned while I was with him, but now I celebrate who my core being is. I now look back at it as an amazing learning experience. Always be true to myself.

Love to all,

Sue L-K

Dear Millie:

You don't know me because I'm new to Paul's corner. I am approximately your age and have been on coumadin since I had a valve repaired 10 years ago.
There have been no problems so far but now I know why my doctor has fits when I miss months at a time to check the statis of my coumadin level.
I have been hospitalized two times because of medicines that did not agree with me. I know exactly what you're going through. I, myself, is now going through a mess of doctor's who are looking for something that isn't there.

I wish you well. Keep strong.

Dearest Grandma,

Get well soon !!!! I am sending you healing thoughts and all my love.

your dutch chickie
Monika

Grandma Mill,

So sorry to hear you're "under the weather". Please take care and know that we're all pulling for you.

Sally C.

Grandma Millie, It’s good to read your post!!!! But please take it slow and easy and don’t over-exert yourself!!! Much healing and many blessings to you! Special gentle hug for you (don’t want to hurt you and your sore stomach!)

Paul, I whole-heartedly agree with you about accepting every aspect of myself and what I have experienced in the past and present in order to move forward, to truly get to know who I am now and who I want to be. It sounds so easy and sometimes it is and sometimes it’s not, but that’s part of the ebb and flow or the circular motion of our lives, at least in my experience. Perception of events plays a key role in how I interpret situations as they come my way, changing my perception from a negative or destructive one to a positive, life-embracing, joyous and constructive one makes a huge difference and I think this is what you are getting at in your post as well. It is so freeing to see life for all it’s worth and all the good it has to offer us, esp. in the midst of challenges and painful situations. Regarding the accepting of the past, that is important, but it’s also important not to dwell on it and let it dictate me, learn from the success and failures, DEFINITELY, but feeling free to make changes to explore and embrace a better me.

Love to everyone!

Dear Grandma Mil,

Glad you are home and recovering! You are in my thoughts, as are all at PC, even if I don't post too often.

I can't remember if I posted that all my medical fun,ie. fainting and possible seizure tests came back absolutely NORMAL. My dr said must have been the blood pressure meds, which she cut back. Gee, ya think? I believe that's what I told her in the first place. Yes, I know, just being cautious, but I'm sure glad I didn't have to foot the bill cuz my deductibles are paid.

Of course, probably part of the reason medical costs are so high anyway. Just being sure. But it does cost in not only $$ somewhere, but anxiety about something you didn't need to worry about.

hugs and smiles to all,
deltalady aka Sally

MIllie,

I just checked in after a week of being off the corner. I am so sorry that something like this has happened. I will call you tommorrow to see how things have progressed.

Much love always,

Julie

Hey all,

I have had a terrible cold lately. MIll I wish you well and good luck recovering !! I know you will be well soon. My nose is so chaffed and is peeling today.

A peeling nose just in time for a big interview at work today!! I really hope I get the job. I hope they can see past the husky raspy voice and peeling nose and bloodshot eyes and just see a great worker and hire me!!!! I just have to get out of my current department or I will have a breakdown. I am still staying within the bank but just a different department.

Welcome new Mary!!

I suppose I cannot deny who I am in order to become that which I want to be, think I am or want to become. ( nice choi=ce of words, Paul).\

I will just go in as myself and if they like they like me. If they don't, it wasn't meant to be. They are interviewing several people so I am not getting my hopes up. But then, I want to think to myself I am the best one and I am deserving and you are lucky guys if you get me.

Yeh, I like that attitude! Let's just see if I accept them. Not the other way around!

Wish me luck

Kelly

I guess for today I will just have to be me and not deny who I am at heart in order to become that which I want to be, think you are or wish to become

Thanks for the nice welcome Kelly!

I think your view point about accepting the new potential employer as much as they have to accept you, is great! I think people like to see a person who cares as much for themselves as they care for others around them. This is balance.

You just never know what will be the perfect fit for anybody. We tend to take it personal when we don't fit the bill just right. It's not that easy to keep our feelings out of it and just see it as a business decision. This applies to relationships in general, ya think?

Hey, I need to change up my name here a bit, since there are more than one Mary! : )

By the way...I thought I'd let all of you great people know that I write to you from Colorado, USA!