Paul's Corner

My wife is watching a real womans movie. I love films but sometimes those womans films make me feel a bit ickie. I am a bloke in touch with his feminine side but perhaps these movies scare me because of my inability to understand the feminine or, they make me understand the mistakes I have made as a man all too clearly.

Or perhaps they just show me as being typical, normal and run of the mill........eeekkk how frightening!

Its a bit late, I'm having a glass of wine - quite possibly not my first and I am wondering what I want to talk about. Making a mark on the world is something important to me. It doesnt matter how big or how small the mark is. It is important that I do it. That somehow I make the world a better place. Hey I am as weird as the next bloke - thats what makes me special :) IN making the world a better place I dont want to make it a place that I imagine is right for my sense of God and All That Is...or what ever else you may think of being utopia. But I want to make it a place to share with all of you out there. A place to share our differences and our similarities. A place where we exchange, share and support the growth that we has Humans, as Souls and Spirits seek to achieve and share.

As the Desiderata states: with all it's sham, drudgery and broken dreams it is still a beautiful world. Be careful, strive to be happy.

It's a good thought for the evening.

Just a thought to end the night on:

Take time everyday to look for the good in you.

We spend too much time looking at what we don't like about ourselves, those around us and the world we live in - Eventually we start to live that reality.

Imagine if you started to live the reality of what was GOOD ABOUT YOU :)

By the way part 2
I was rung up at 6pm Friday night by a casting director to check my availability to film on "The Crocodile Man" for November/December. I told them I was available and keen. They asked me to come in on Monday morning for an audition. I told them I was going to Perth on Saturday morning and wouldnt be back until the following Monday but I would be happy to come in then or if they had an office in Perth I could go in there. They said they didnt and to not worry.

I guess they werent that interested to wait for me, in fact they said as much. I followed up with two phone calls over the week I was away to try and organise an audition but they offered it to someone else. That happens here a quite a bit. If you cant go in to audition when they want you (on no notice) they tick you off the list!

By the way, unfortunately I did not get the TV drama series in Melbourne.
HMMMMMMM......

I went down to the wire......for the 2nd time this year......they evetually offered the role to a guy that is currently in a series or it has just finished playing on air. Typical - I know they like to give people who are working jobs but how do you get a job if you are not working????????

They told me they were extremely impressed with my work, which bodes well for future productions they are developing but I have to say at the end of the day I didnt get the gig and I wanted that one!

It seems nice guys come second - perhaps I need to get nasty? What do I gotta do to get a job!! I know I know keep at it, stay fit, be ready and above all Laugh and be positive...:)

I have been away for the last week and a bit. It was the anniversary of my younger Brother's suicide. It was hard. I didnt want to go home but Mum was there on her own and I didnt want her to be alone over that week. My wife and children came over. We tried to make it about family rather than about death but we couldnt escape the pain that still lingers. A year ago at his funeral I said that I was changed forever, I now had a ball of sadness in my heart and would have it forever. A year later it is still there. But I have also noticed around that ball of saddness another ball has appeared. This one is a ball of joy full of memories of my Brother and my time shared with him. People say you you have to experience one thing to know another. Well, I already knew the joy, but perhaps now with the saddness it makes the joy so much more bright.