Paul's Corner

They say that time heals pain but I have found that it doesnt. It softens, deadens, eases, gentles, dilutes, lulls us into a space that only distance can provide - a kind of temporary shelter from the storm. And as is natures nature the storm comes and with it the pain comes searing back - hot, ready, raw and real.

Thankfully it's hold is only momentary, I guess that is the one gift time gives us.

I cant help but wonder what my brother would be like and what he would be doing as he enters his 45th year of life. It has been nine years since he decided he no longer wanted to be part of lifes journey and I miss him as if it was the day after he departed. No, time doesnt really heal pain it just stays it - keeps it at bay for as long as it can until a time comes that pain comes gracefully and brutally knocking at the door of my day.

That day is today my brothers birthday.

Death is something that must happen it is a natural by product of life, suicide however isnt, it is an unatural by product of fear and is just a waste.